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I'm feeling very discouraged. I've been binging almost daily since mid December, and I can't seem to stop. I'm going to try to see a doctor or mental health specialist about it. Sometimes I manage to have two good days, and then things always come crashing down on the third. My diary is open but not representative of what happens, since I usually stop logging binges at some point in the evenings because it's too much work (I do track it all in a food diary though, so I am aware of what goes in my mouth). I'm feeling completely out of control.

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I'm feeling very discouraged. I've been binging almost daily since mid December, and I can't seem to stop. I'm going to try to see a doctor or mental health specialist about it. Sometimes I manage to have two good days, and then things always come crashing down on the third. My diary is open but not representative of what happens, since I usually stop logging binges at some point in the evenings because it's too much work (I do track it all in a food diary though, so I am aware of what goes in my mouth). I'm feeling completely out of control.

after your first binge, are you bingeing again because you figure you already blew it? give yourself permission to binge on what ever. this is where they say get the "diet" out of your life. don't let a diet rule you. you rule you. if your body needs something you will know. before you binge don't think about "diet". ask yourself what's going on? am i hungry? is it stress? take a few minutes to examine the whys. if you plain just want it. go ahead and have it. it's surprising that when you give yourself permission to binge, or just eat a "bad" food. it isn't a big deal. guilt from the "diet" mind i think is what can fuel a binge. food is for fuel and for pleasure. enjoy it. it can take along time to over come binge eating. one step, one day at a time.

Technically, I blew it today. We had Chinese buffet for lunch. It was not my choice. I logged the calories as best I could. The lo mein got me. I love lo mein. Tomorrow all that MSG will come crashing down in a big old water retention hell storm.

So, I don't really know what my calories were for the day, which usually trigger *dramatic drumroll* A BINGE! But I'm resisting, and instead I indulged in a bottle of very good light beer. And a cup of coffee.

I think that deep down, a week of diligence in the eating and workout department without scale movement bothers me. There was not one thing on that stupid buffet that really tasted great. Or even really good.

So far so good today. I am "on plan". (It's only 9am here, but I am optimistic!) Yesterday's trip to MSGland did not trigger the binge from hell. I woke up feeling puffy, but good. Today is a day off from work for me, so I am staying busy with chores, then a house full of twelve year girls for a sleepover tonight. There is an abundance of junk food. I am not tempted. All that yuck from yesterday's buffet seems to have " jerked a knot" in me. Just don't want that sluggish, drudgy feeling.

I sure hope y'all all have a good day full of peace and good, healthy choices!

This life is a constant struggle of ups and downs. Right now you just happen to be on a down cycle and I am sure it will turn around. Believe me we have all been there. I just got off a down cycle that lasted 3 years lol. But it does get better. But at least you are aware of what you are eating and you acknowledge what you are taking in is over your limit. Make sure to track the foods, and use it as a reminder for the next time.

Today will be better! And 300 calories is not bad, I stopped logging at 6315 calories yesterday because it was too much work haha! Keep us posted on how it goes at the church event. You did a great job eating out the other day, so remember that you have the power this into a good experience and that you've done it before!

Thinking of you! Feel free to message me if you want to vent.

daniellethesheep, how are you? I hope you're okay. You know what sucks? Sitting there binging, KNOWING you're binging, KNOWING how crappy you're going to feel, and being completely unable to stop. I mean, you CAN stop. No one is forcing the food into your mouth. But somehow, you can't. Part of you wants to SO bad...but you just can't. That sucks. I hate that feeling :-(

My day today has been great. We hit a warm streak, so at 6:30am, I hit the streets for a looooong walk. I can't tell y'all how good it felt! Earbuds in, music blasting (I'm going to be deaf in ten years) just me, the sun, and my thoughts. I'm an introvert. After a weekend of tweens and teens surrounding me, that hour long walk was just what my soul and spirit needed. My eating has been good-I'm on target.

Maybe it's wrong, but when my eating is under control, I feel like my life is manageable. When my eating is out of control, it feels as if my whole life is spiralling out of control. Or maybe I've got it backwards. Deep thoughts from a shallow mind.