I had what I would consider a half-binge at about 1 AM last night. Leftover tortilla chips from the nachos I made over the weekend for my son. I don't think it hurt my calories too badly, but I still feel a bit annoyed that it happened. Oh well. Guess I just need to get back on the horse and keep going. Today is C25K day, and I have new running shoes, so yay.

That's such a bummer. I hate breaking in new shoes.

mweckler wrote: »

@RespectTheKitty with the new running shoes did you break them in at all, or open the box put them on and go for a run?

I just put them on and did my thing. The first time wearing them, I had no issues. The second time was when I got the blisters. The only difference between the two times was the socks, so I have to believe I just wasn't wearing the right socks the second time. I ordered some running socks, so we'll see if that fixes the problem.

ab6046 wrote: »

CooCooPuff wrote: »

I ended up binging Saturday and Sunday.

9k Saturday, 6k Sunday, 5k? Friday night
I don't even know what to say about Sunday. I feel really gross because I haven't been as attentive to hygiene as usual. Fun morning before work.

Oh man, that sucks. Is your family gone now? Do you think that once they leave, things will settle down a bit?

They aren't gone but everything seems to be settled down. I binged again yesterday, but everything seems to be in order today.

What kind of shoes do you have @RespectTheKitty? Getting fitted for a pair of running shoes was fun.

Getting back into mfp, I'm working on not bingeing on junk food. I have avoided junk food for a week, so I'm a few days into my second week w/o bingeing, exactly. There was one day last week where I just ate everything in sight, cereal and leftovers. But that's still not as bad as say a whole box of cookies. I'm making progress, I think.

I can finally cross another day off my calender.
No binging yesterday.

I think today is gonna be a tough day. I woke up super anxious, and packed all of my meals for the day. I have plans for a friend to come over who has been nagging me to make her a tart, so there’s that and I have an issue with anticipatory bingeing. Then to top it off I showed up at my internship and they told me we have a staff lunch, where meals will be provided. This stresses me out because I already packed everything and now I feel like this is going to throw me off even more. Not only am I stressed about the food component, but this lunch is to welcome a new person. I am REALLY shy and terrible at making small talk, and I don’t know many people here very well except for my supervisor and another intern, neither of whom will be at the meeting. Because of this, I’m likely to feel extra stressed and just eat as a way to deal with it. Also, if I am actively eating then I won’t have to talk as much. I already ate some of the food I brought to calm myself down, so I’m going to try to not eat my lunch too since lunch will be provided and it’s not necessary for me to be eating all of these meals. My friend who is coming tonight for tart MIGHT have an interview today, so I am really hoping that she does like that I can at least avoid that situation and hopefully have a lighter dinner. Or, today might just have to be a free day, which sucks because I binged yesterday too. Sorry for rambling, I don’t know why I’m such a nervous wreck. This should not be such a big deal, most people would be thrilled to have free food!

ab6046 wrote: »

I think today is gonna be a tough day. I woke up super anxious, and packed all of my meals for the day. I have plans for a friend to come over who has been nagging me to make her a tart, so there’s that and I have an issue with anticipatory bingeing. Then to top it off I showed up at my internship and they told me we have a staff lunch, where meals will be provided. This stresses me out because I already packed everything and now I feel like this is going to throw me off even more. Not only am I stressed about the food component, but this lunch is to welcome a new person. I am REALLY shy and terrible at making small talk, and I don’t know many people here very well except for my supervisor and another intern, neither of whom will be at the meeting. Because of this, I’m likely to feel extra stressed and just eat as a way to deal with it. Also, if I am actively eating then I won’t have to talk as much. I already ate some of the food I brought to calm myself down, so I’m going to try to not eat my lunch too since lunch will be provided and it’s not necessary for me to be eating all of these meals. My friend who is coming tonight for tart MIGHT have an interview today, so I am really hoping that she does like that I can at least avoid that situation and hopefully have a lighter dinner. Or, today might just have to be a free day, which sucks because I binged yesterday too. Sorry for rambling, I don’t know why I’m such a nervous wreck. This should not be such a big deal, most people would be thrilled to have free food!

I get the same way sometimes. There are some really aggressive pushers in my family.

Good luck with the rest of your day and I hope your friend's interview goes well!

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. Nothing ever prepares us for that sort of thing. But I'm glad to hear that you are motivated to overcome your disorder. Take care of yourself during this time!

And thanks coocoopuff! Yesterday turned out better than I expected. I did exceed 4000 calories but I did not binge. I did overeat and had about 3/4 of the tart that I made, but it's fine. At least I didn't binge. Today is a new day and I'm going to get back on track. I'll be running around the city for a few different meetings and trying to get lots of work done. I won't go to the gym today despite it technically being my day off, but that's because of the weirdly timed meetings and stuff.

I'll be curious to know how this goes for you, and whether the bingeing will reduce once you stop trying to lose weight. What does BDD stand for? Body dismorphoc disorder, or something else?