Feb 1:

**please don’t feel like you have to read this; I’m just getting my thoughts in writing to help me recovery.
Not gonna lie; it was a really rough day for me and I felt a lot of stress lately and I binged. But I’m ok. I’m just working through the process of recovery, and it was a little slip up. I’m grateful for many things; in spite of my mistake, I progressed in that I grabbed low calorie foods instead of massive caloric junk. I interpret this as my body’s way of telling me I need to take time to do little things to relieve everyday/building stress.
I’m really grateful too for the blessing that this isn’t the end of anything...I just slipped a little and I can climb back on the path. Yesss! Bring on tomorrow, I got this!**

Me: 0
B: 1
DBF: 0

@Czuni6 that's such a great way to look at it!

Feb 1
Me: 1
Binge: 0
DBF 12

Me: 2
Binge: 0
DBF: 2

February 2nd
Me: 0
B: 2
DBF: 0

February 3rd
Me: 1
B: 2
DBF: 1

04/02/2019
Ok so February hasnt started too well, I am close to my goal weight and have been looking to maintain but this past weekend it all went out the window!

Me: 0
Binge: 3
DBF: 0

Today is a new day...

Feb 3
Me: 3
Binge: 0
Dbf: 14

@Pretty_Little_Nobody I have gotten a few hobbies since I seriously started to try not to binge.

All things I can quickly pick up that will occupy my mind and hands for 10 minutes to get through an urge.

I have a small knitting project
A hook rug
Colouring books
Video games (casual games to just get through an urge, and more involved ones if I am looking at an afternoon to kill)
Playing the piano

I also started meditation, but I am finding that to be really difficult still.

Once I started doing these things, I found out just how much time I was wasting when I was binge eating, and it has given me a positive feedback loop when I do something other than binge. It isn't perfect, but it has gotten me from binging multiple times a day to going one or two weeks between binges.

I haven’t checked-in in a long time as I broke my ankle ice skating on Saturday night and things have been a little crazy since. But in spite of the changes and challenges, I have been very blessed and made progress these past few days, so I’ll go ahead and track that progress.

Feb 2
Me: 1
B: 1
DBF: 1

Feb 3:
Me: 2
B:1
DBF: 2

Feb 4:
Me: 3
B: 1
DBF: 3

Also, I’m still quite a ways away from being healed, but I wanted to share some suggestions I follow to help me not binge:

-throw out the junk/trigger foods
-drink tons of water throughout the day, especially when those urges come. Water, water, water is critical
-slowwww down during meals and think/consider the textures, colors and breeeeeaathe.
-eat 3 consistent, balanced meals a day, with 2-3 small snacks between if needed
-stop relying on processed foods; instead, shop for and eat fresh fruit, fresh vegetables, and good sources of protein and fats. Choose fresh foods that you absolutely love and will keep you nourished and satisfied.
-focus on others, especially if there is food around. Drink water and actually listen to conversations going on
-if you want to have some processed foods or a non-dangerous treat, go ahead and have it. But make sure you drink tons of water before and you have your treat along with a huge plateful of low calorie vegetables. And before diving into any of these, breeeeeathe and be very sloooooow and grateful for everything your 5 sense are experiencing.
-praise yourself, give yourself a BIG hug every single day for about 5 minutes.
-spend at least 15 minutes in the sunshine/outdoors/in nature.
-stay away from temptations/trigger foods/situations
-express thanks and keep that grateful journal every day.
-find ways to serve others every day.

05/02/19

Me: 1
Binge: 3
DBF: 1

Slowed down when eating my meals yesterday, making sure I had a pint of water with my meal. I also made my own frozen yogurt for desert rather than not having any desert and restricting myself which often led to binging later, I had something in a controlled way and because it took longer to eat I put half of it back in the freezer for desert tonight instead of eating it all and eating the kids leftovers on their plates. Little things i know but I want to manage portion sizes and control the pace and amount I am eating.

February 5th
Me: 1
B: 4
DBF: 0

I got my stitches out today. I've been feeling pretty badly lately and treating myself badly as a result. I'm going to do better tomorrow.

Feb 5:
Me: 4
B: 1
DBF: 4

02/05/2019

Me: 3
B: 2
DBF: 3

5 Feb

Gone over every single day by quite a lot but still not had a full full on episode like I did last week

Fingers crossed it improves

Dbf 5 (ish)