And one of the things I like to do is take like a Sunday where I've caught up on my chores and prep a bunch of food for the freezer, I like to make meat (which is easy to ad to other things later) Keto Lasagna is up one thing I make and freeze in individual portions so I can just heat it up. Things like that are what I like to keep in the freezer so that way on those days where I'm tired, or I worked a lot, or just generally didn't feel like cooking. Also, I like to prep a couple of days at a time if I know I'm going to be working longer hours, which for me is Tuesday and Wednesday right now, I will prep my meals for those days Sunday or Monday so that way I have them and I can just stuff them in my lunch bag and go.

And sometimes when we feel like so much of our lives are out of our control, we tend to let that spill into the things we do have control over. I might suggest preparing ahead of time so when you feel like just grabbing things that are easy, you already have something made, and it's easy. Your future self will thank you.

I think one of the things I am really working on these days sort of ties into what you're saying about feeling like things just come easy to people who are thin and beautiful, I've reached a point in my weight loss journey where I do still have a bit of fat left on my body that I can lose and really do want to lose to get myself to that 20-25% bodyfat range, and I'm really not far from it. The issue I am currently facing is I have so much excess skin in my stomach, really don't have it anywhere else, and to me what I see in that area is a belly, when the reality is, it's skin mostly. I can move it around, stretch it out and see my flat stomach, and it's really really hard to think about all the work I've done and all the weight I've lost and what I could have if I hadn't destroyed my body in the first place...and I keep trying to get past that, but it's really been dragging me down and back into that self sabotage cycle I tend to get myself into when I get close to reaching my goals. I'm not really sure what deep seeded emotions I'm really struggling with there, but I am trying to work through them daily and journaling how I'm feeling when I start trying to self sabotage is really helping, however it is a very slow process and I need to keep reminding myself I am worth it, and I will eventually be where I really want to be. And the reality is, I am making an appointment with a plastic surgeon so I can at least look at my options for the skin issue (doctor recommended actually). I think I owe it to myself to at least look at my options. The reallly hard part of looking at surgery is the recovery for me, it will be sooo hard to not be able to weightlift for months if that's what's needed for recovery time, however it may be possible to just have the skin removed without touching any of my abdominal muscles and have what's called a "mini tuck" and just have the skin below my belly button removed and that healing time is normally 2-4 weeks and I do think I can live with that and I'd be happier then.