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  • AlexandraFindsHerself1971
    AlexandraFindsHerself1971 Posts: 3,106 Member
    Girlfriend is home, and I made them enchiladas for dinner, which is a favorite meal for them. It wasn't on the schedule, but sometimes that's okay.

    Then I went out and picked up her meds, and tried to assemble a flat pack item that needs glue and clamps to put it together properly, so tomorrow I will dig out the clamps and go get wood glue and put the SOB together properly. I'm stubborn like that.

    Now Boyfriend and I are winding down our day with cocoa/hot tea and butter cookies.
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,981 Member
    conniewilkins56 wrote: »
    Maybe you could change your career to a lawn maintenance person....you could work outside, get exercise and be your own boss!....you can do just about anything...

    *laughs*

    But what would I do in winter? I certainly don't have to have to convert to a snow shoveler!

    Winter is going to be hard - I've found that this summer, I've been looking for excuses to be outside, and push mowing my lawn has been an excellent exercise method.
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,981 Member
    ah, I almost made it under today, but couldn't resist 1 more brownie. At least they were sugar free and I lowered he calorie count by using fat free sour cream in place of the oil.

    I wanted hot cocoa, but didn't realize I was out of my reduced calorie Swiss Miss, so I tried an experiment - lite hershey syrup with sugar free vanilla coffee creamer and silk cashew milk and boiling water lol. It's actually not that bad or different from the swiss miss! *laughs*
  • conniewilkins56
    conniewilkins56 Posts: 3,391 Member
    bmeadows380 wrote: »
    ah, I almost made it under today, but couldn't resist 1 more brownie. At least they were sugar free and I lowered he calorie count by using fat free sour cream in place of the oil.

    I wanted hot cocoa, but didn't realize I was out of my reduced calorie Swiss Miss, so I tried an experiment - lite hershey syrup with sugar free vanilla coffee creamer and silk cashew milk and boiling water lol. It's actually not that bad or different from the swiss miss! *laughs*

    I would have just had a cup of tea lol....I love Publix sugar free cocoa for 50 calories a cup...I drink it a lot at night when I have some alone time!
  • AlexandraFindsHerself1971
    AlexandraFindsHerself1971 Posts: 3,106 Member
    Today I want to make the swiss steak and it's our big dinner day, so I have to allow time to make crab rangoons.

    Also laundry to fold and hang away, now that it's dry. I have a lot of shirts that are pretty but want to dry flat.
    I'd like to get pegs up on the wall of the laundry room to hold the drying racks, but my lower back is giving me grief so I may need to go easy on myself today.
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,981 Member
    @conniewilkins56

    Oh Connie *hugs* I watch the same thing with my parents. My dad worked hard all his life doing physically demanding jobs in between runs on his bus route - he loved being outside and working outside and cut firewood and sold it, worked as a residential contractor, and whatever else he could find to do outside.

    In 2012, while putting up siding on his garage the ladder he was on broke and he fell backwards right on the rail of the wagon below, which hyper-extended his back and broke vertebrae. The speed at which my dad's health deteriated after that was incredible - the following spring, he ended up needing a pace maker put in, and within 2 years, had to have both hips replaced in the same year. He went from being extremely active to only being able to work for a few hours before needing to lay down. He pushes still now, going beyond his endurance time and again, and on the one hand, I realize he needs to keep moving as much as he can to preserve what he has left, though on the other, I get frustrated because he won't listen to his body when it tells him its gone as far as it can go, so he suffered for it time and again. And because my dad, unlike your husband, pushes my mother beyond her limits, too, starting his projects that he can't finish and expects her to do......

    Anyway, you are right in that its amazing how fast things can change! That's part of the reason why I didn't push so hard to get my student loans paid off early or some of these other things; I wanted to do some of my living now while I am young instead of saying "I'll put this off until I retire" because I might not be in physical shape when I retire to be able to do those things then!

    such as getting my trip to Montana set up.......
  • amart4224
    amart4224 Posts: 345 Member
    After 8 days of extreme stress over my job (which kind of turned into a depressive spiral over the state of my life in general) during which time I had pizza, ice cream, fast food, etc., and definitely ate over maintenance at least 2-3 of those 8 days, yesterday I began to pull myself back together. Because I'm still struggling with burnout and not wanting to cook, I'm letting myself live mostly on protein shakes and fruit for the rest of the week. I'm hopeful that I didn't do too much damage during my little bender and I definitely am seeing the extra jiggly fat right now which I'm hoping leads to a nice scale drop.
  • NovusDies
    NovusDies Posts: 8,940 Member
    conniewilkins56 wrote: »
    I wish I could figure out how my brain works!....super stressful time in my life and I feel like I am in control of my food intake right now....maybe it’s because what I eat is all I am in control of right now....I have no desire to binge and that puzzles me....usually food is my security net to comfort myself....I keep thinking if I give in to a binge, all my hard work will go backwards for a couple of weeks....I hit my lowest weight this morning, 257.8.... if I binge I will go up 7 to 10 pounds immediately.....so I am hanging on and stumbling ahead!

    My husbands orthopedic surgeon examined him this morning and the shots he got in his knee and hip seem to be working...he is scheduled for more injections in his back next week....I don’t think the doctor really thinks he is a great candidate for major surgery right now if the shots work...he is still dehydrated but drinking lots of water and Gatorade...the ER doctor said he still might need more tests on his kidneys and colon but for today, he is alright...

    I am thankful for every day I have with him...I can honestly say I love him more now than I did 44 years ago!...we have had a great marriage and a good life...we have two wonderful children and three grandchildren...our kids never gave us any major problems while they were growing up!...I hope John will get stronger and his body lets him have a few more good years but if it doesn’t, I have no regrets!...my life is full today....

    I love reading your stories even if they are not always full of happy details. They are real and inspiring.

    Your brain may be finally connecting the dots (at least for now). From your descriptions it absolutely sucks to binge. A binge is a source of stress not a comfort. Eating far more than you need is a highly upsetting episode and adding that to your life right now does not make logical or emotional sense. I would also stop referring to food as comfort. When we tell ourselves a lie enough we tend to start believing it or, in your case, believing it again.
  • conniewilkins56
    conniewilkins56 Posts: 3,391 Member
    Today has been good....John is ok today and putzing around the house helping with laundry, dishes, etc...anything that lets him move around and feel useful is good...I went to the pool early and had a good workout...it’s been overcast so the water is kind of cool...I still don’t think I burn 1,000 calories in 90 minutes but it looks good on my log ins!...I weighed in lower than I did yesterday so I am breaking that plateau I have been on all summer...

    Novus, you are right...a crazy binge does NOT make me feel good and it gives me no comfort...thinking about it right now makes me nauseous...it isn’t even instant gratification anymore....gorging myself on candy, cookies,greasy food, etc is not worth the way I feel after I eat it...I have to keep reminding myself how physically and mentally I feel after a binge and how hard it is to get back in control and lose the pounds I gain...it’s just not worth it....

    Binging does not solve anything...it only creates another problem...not saying I will never binge again but for one more day I am ok...

    Thanks for all of your advice!...and a big welcome back!
  • AlexandraFindsHerself1971
    AlexandraFindsHerself1971 Posts: 3,106 Member
    As they say in AA... one day at a time. And one hour at a time, and one minute at a time.
  • bobsburgersfan
    bobsburgersfan Posts: 6,471 Member
    bmeadows380 wrote: »
    such as getting my trip to Montana set up.......
    WHAAAAAAAT?!!! When are you coming to Montana? And if/when you do, we should meet up! :)
  • bobsburgersfan
    bobsburgersfan Posts: 6,471 Member
    Connie, I'm sorry about all the troubles your hubby is having. It's great news that the surgeon thinks he's a good candidate!
  • conniewilkins56
    conniewilkins56 Posts: 3,391 Member
    bobsburgersfan wrote: »
    Connie, I'm sorry about all the troubles your hubby is having. It's great news that the surgeon thinks he's a good candidate!

    He isn’t a great candidate...I think you read it wrong!...he is probably not up for hang nail operation lol...But thanks for your thoughts and kind words!

    I am coming to Montana with Bridget but she doesn’t know it yet!
  • AlexandraFindsHerself1971
    AlexandraFindsHerself1971 Posts: 3,106 Member
    I got done a lot of what I wanted to get done. I'm pretty sure that after I rest my dinner (gosh, that was good!) I will be able to make one of the quichecakes that need making, and make the green beans with bacon for father-in-law.
    Let's see: Beans are soaking for baked beans. Pulled pork is made, mac and cheese is made, and the sausage is thawing for fried potatoes with sausage and onions. I'm also going to make him swiss steak, with some steamed little potatoes, and some pan-seared squash/zucchini, which is how we like it. You just toss the chunks onto a hot iron skillet with a little oil and worry them around until they're soft. I put a pat of butter in a large bowl, decant the squash onto it, and toss to coat, then a grind of black pepper and a sprinkle of sea salt and done. It tastes much more impressive than that.
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,981 Member
    bobsburgersfan wrote: »
    bmeadows380 wrote: »
    such as getting my trip to Montana set up.......
    WHAAAAAAAT?!!! When are you coming to Montana? And if/when you do, we should meet up! :)

    I've been saying for 4 years now that I want to go out to see Glacier National Park, so I thinking depending on what it costs to get my house worked on in the spring, maybe I can get it in next summer - HOPEFULLY Covid will be handled by then......

    I'd love to meet up! And Connie, you're more than welcome, except when I go, it'll be an epic road trip - I plan to drive through the Dakotas and see the Badlands as well, and maybe shoot south and come back across Kansas and that area as I've never been there either :)
  • bobsburgersfan
    bobsburgersfan Posts: 6,471 Member
    conniewilkins56 wrote: »
    bobsburgersfan wrote: »
    Connie, I'm sorry about all the troubles your hubby is having. It's great news that the surgeon thinks he's a good candidate!

    He isn’t a great candidate...I think you read it wrong!...he is probably not up for hang nail operation lol...But thanks for your thoughts and kind words!

    I am coming to Montana with Bridget but she doesn’t know it yet!
    Shoot, I did read that wrong. :(

    And the more, the merrier!
    @bmeadows380, Glacier is amazing! If you come this far, I highly recommend that you also check out Yellowstone. It's not majestic beauty, like Glacier, but it's really unique and interesting with all the volcanic features. There are parts of it that feel like you're on an alien planet or something.
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,981 Member
    @bobsburgersfan

    I've been to Yellowstone twice but its been 12 years now. I was in Idaho for a temporary assignment in a previous job and got to Yellowstone and the Tetons as well as Virginia City, MT. I had wanted to get up to Glacier then, but didn't make it.

    Yellowstone was definitely beautiful, but I was by myself and couldn't really get off the beaten track and found all the touristy stuff took away from it for me - very crowded. I liked the Tetons better - quieter, less traffic, more scenic. I probably would have enjoyed Yellowstone better if I could have gotten out and away from the main areas.

    Touristy things have their fun but after a while, they start to feel artificial. I took my sister to Bar Harbour several years ago for her birthday and that was how that felt; beautiful, and the shops were fun, but after a while, it all just started to feel less genuine.


    That may be why I liked Virginia City so well - yeah, it had it touristy gimmics, but it wasn't well known so the touristy things didn't take away from the history of the area. I really enjoyed that town!
  • AlexandraFindsHerself1971
    AlexandraFindsHerself1971 Posts: 3,106 Member
    Today I'm going to make a small bowl of mashed potatoes and take that plus the food I made yesterday over to the in-laws. They said last night just drop it off, they're not in the mood for a visit.

    Then if everyone is up to it, we will have Thai. There are a few things I can eat, so I'll eat them, and let my partners enjoy the heat of the various curries. Unfortunately I am a supertaster and hit my limit on heat very early.

    The rest of the day will be... whatever it is. I have things to do around the house, and the last two days I've just been a dynamo, wanting to go go go and do it all. I changed my settings to show me at lightly active, because I really didn't sit down much yesterday. It gives me enough calories to have a larger breakfast, which, given all we plan to do this morning, is probably a good idea.

    Boyfriend has some branches he wants to cut up with the new chainsaw, and there are some tubs that had flowers when we moved in. I want to take those and clean them out and plant bulbs in them, keeping them in the garage over the winter, so we keep them safe from the squirrels.
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,981 Member
    This might be consider TMO, but TOM finally showed up today so hopefully the munchies I've been fighting will abate now! And I've been dropping water today like crazy (I know, even more TMO lol) so lets keep our fingers crossed that the scale shows it tomorrow?

    I blame a lot of the water weight on the ham I had in that soup this week, and I ate on that soup 3 days.

    I did get a 7 mile walk in tonight and another great thing I love about autumn weather - its so much cooler that I was able to walk faster than normal; I got my speed up to 3.57 mph this evening! I was super happy about that!

    And that nice walk, since I decided to go ahead and count all 120 minutes of it considering TOM and such, even by counting the gummy worms I took along, puts me back in the green tonight with some extra to spare for dessert!
  • AlexandraFindsHerself1971
    AlexandraFindsHerself1971 Posts: 3,106 Member
    It's been a slower day but I did get a lot of organizing done and worked on the bookcase. As we all know, gluing is five minutes of activity and then four hours of letting the glue dry, so that's going to be a multi-day project. Am also reinforcing with screws because I don't trust those dowels when loaded.

    We had a frustrating time with the new chainsaw;the chain keeps coming off the blade. So we're going to take it back tomorrow and get a new one. I also want to see if I can get another couple bar clamps and speed things up a bit on the bookcase. I also need to get my own eye protection for the chainsaw work.

    I'm contemplating a diet break and me being me, I'm not sitting here thinking of all the stuff I would get to eat, nearly as much as I'm thinking, "How can I add in 500 extra calories a day in a way that I won't miss badly when I go back to the regular diet?" Right now I'm thinking baked goods, because I'm usually okay once I'm out of my lemon-poppyseed bread or out of the snickerdoodles, but I have to be careful because I don't want to start a habit of snacking at a different time than I usually do, or always eating dessert, because I would miss that when I stopped the break. I don't want to just increase quantities because that would mean I'd have to go back to smaller and that would be hard.
  • gewel321
    gewel321 Posts: 718 Member
    I’m exhausted. It feels like 1am not 8:30 pm. Started my day at 6:30 this morning. Went to my exercise class, came home and cooked an entire taco bar including cutting up all the veggies and making cheese dip. Baked and decorated a Minecraft cookie cake and set up the water slide bounce house. Then hosted a party with his closest friends (his best friend has a rare autoimmune disorder so we only allowed him to invite 2 other friends). After the 2 friends left (not bestie they always spend the night for birthdays) I cleaned the back yard and my whole kitchen, did 3 loads of towels, then built a big bonfire and roasted s’mores. Boys are now playing Nintendo and I’m just sitting on the porch unable to move. I know my son had a blast but this momma is tired!
  • conniewilkins56
    conniewilkins56 Posts: 3,391 Member
    Gewel321 what a good mom you are and you will both remember today forever!
  • nicsflyingcircus
    nicsflyingcircus Posts: 2,899 Member
    Got up at a reasonable hour, had a cup of coffee and got the pork Loin marinating, then went to the farmer's market with my 16yo daughter. Founds a few things. On to the blood donation place as my daughter wanted to try to donate. Long wait, poor kid was ultimately unsuccessful. Home for brunch: 2 fresh eggs and half a Keto bagel with onion and Chive cream cheese and Everything bagel seasoning. Then helped my husband with an office project briefly before heading back out to Walmart with same daughter for a couple items, then Kohls to make a return. Quick stop at Starbucks (order ahead, whoo), then dropped the kid off at the soccer fields to watch some friends play. Home again, spent about 30 minutes on the office project with the husband, then took my 15yo with her brand new permit out to the stadium parking lot for some driving. Spent most of an hour on that, then home again. Had half a cinnamon roll and made another cup of coffee. Older daughter was home then; she, husband and I played a couple games of Catan, then she went for a walk and I worked on dinner: pork Loin in a soy-Dijon marinade, Roasted broccoli and a packet of instant mashed potatoes. We had a nice dinner (17yo son joined us, he was at a XC meet until 2pm), then got everything cleaned up and we've been chilling since. Watching Stanley cup finals and also VT football game. Enjoying a diet A&W Rootbeer with vanilla vodka.
  • deafenbaugh
    deafenbaugh Posts: 39 Member
    gewel321 wrote: »
    I’m exhausted. It feels like 1am not 8:30 pm. Started my day at 6:30 this morning. Went to my exercise class, came home and cooked an entire taco bar including cutting up all the veggies and making cheese dip. Baked and decorated a Minecraft cookie cake and set up the water slide bounce house. Then hosted a party with his closest friends (his best friend has a rare autoimmune disorder so we only allowed him to invite 2 other friends). After the 2 friends left (not bestie they always spend the night for birthdays) I cleaned the back yard and my whole kitchen, did 3 loads of towels, then built a big bonfire and roasted s’mores. Boys are now playing Nintendo and I’m just sitting on the porch unable to move. I know my son had a blast but this momma is tired!

    I'm tired just reading your post :)
    Luann
  • deafenbaugh
    deafenbaugh Posts: 39 Member
    nicsflyingcircus wrote: »
    Got up at a reasonable hour, had a cup of coffee and got the pork Loin marinating, then went to the farmer's market with my 16yo daughter. Founds a few things. On to the blood donation place as my daughter wanted to try to donate. Long wait, poor kid was ultimately unsuccessful. Home for brunch: 2 fresh eggs and half a Keto bagel with onion and Chive cream cheese and Everything bagel seasoning. Then helped my husband with an office project briefly before heading back out to Walmart with same daughter for a couple items, then Kohls to make a return. Quick stop at Starbucks (order ahead, whoo), then dropped the kid off at the soccer fields to watch some friends play. Home again, spent about 30 minutes on the office project with the husband, then took my 15yo with her brand new permit out to the stadium parking lot for some driving. Spent most of an hour on that, then home again. Had half a cinnamon roll and made another cup of coffee. Older daughter was home then; she, husband and I played a couple games of Catan, then she went for a walk and I worked on dinner: pork Loin in a soy-Dijon marinade, Roasted broccoli and a packet of instant mashed potatoes. We had a nice dinner (17yo son joined us, he was at a XC meet until 2pm), then got everything cleaned up and we've been chilling since. Watching Stanley cup finals and also VT football game. Enjoying a diet A&W Rootbeer with vanilla vodka.

    How do you make your soy-Dijon marinade if you wouldn't mind sharing. I have one thawed in the refrigerator but now sure what I want to do with it.
    Luann
  • bmeadows380
    bmeadows380 Posts: 2,981 Member
    I decided to walk to my church today after dinner, but mistimed it and had to catch a ride with mom for the last mile - I didn't think I could get to the church in 10 minutes and get changed in time for service :) Still, it was a 7.25 mile walk in 2 hours! That's 3.6 mph - I was hoofing it! :g

    I counted the whole thing because I only counted 3.5 mph and I was wearing a backpack with my change of clothes in it and extra water, so I know that backpack was every bit of 10 lbs.

    which is also why I'm not sweating being over a little tonight on calories because I know I technically burned more than the 700 given to me by MFP's calculator more than likely.

    One thing that got me on time was stopping halfway at the local convenience store to use the bathroom. Remembering @papayahed 's advice, I looked around for gummies but winced at a pack of gummy worms that had 3 worms for 100 calories but about 5 servings in the bag. Knowing there was no way I'd be able to limit myself to one serving, I opted for a nestle crunch bar instead. I haven't had one of those in years! And I bought a quest peanut butter cookie and ate it at the church after the walk.

    And I was right - the scale was down 2 lbs this morning from yesterday. Between TOM showing up and all the water I was dropping from the soup earlier this week, I knew I had to be down somewhat!
  • AlexandraFindsHerself1971
    AlexandraFindsHerself1971 Posts: 3,106 Member
    Boyfriend has to go get a lab test today and I'll go with him for that. He's dealing with sorting through a lot of stuff from the past and letting go of a lot of deep rooted toxic shame. So he's not up to very much today, and, as I said, it's just as well that he doesn't have to clock in at nine am right now.

    I guess I'll get to cleaning the master bedroom whenever I get to it, since he went back to bed. But there's more house to clean than that.
  • eliezalot
    eliezalot Posts: 620 Member
    My water weight gain/retention showed up late this month. Usually I retain from about the second week of my cycle until just before TOM...nothing but losses this month until today! My weight was down to a new low of 193.6 yesterday! Back up to 196.6 today, aided by yesterday's pizza extravaganza. I was quite a bit over maintenance yesterday, but will be back on track today.

    I was so tired this weekend. I think it is residual from the anxiety pill I took Saturday night. It isn't anything really strong, but similar to a benadryl (which I react pretty strongly to). So I was flat out exhausted all day yesterday, and still feel somewhat tired today, but thankfully starting to perk up. Lots to get done before we leave on Friday!

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