DaffyGirl88 wrote: »

mooreshelly09 wrote: »

11/7
tracked: yes
under: yes
exercise: yes - spin class

Seen a second doctor on my knee yesterday and he agreed with the first doctor that I have a lot of arthritis in my knee with no cartridge for cushion. So basically just gonna have to learn to live with the pain 😒

Sorry there's nothing they can do. This getting old stuff is no fun at all.

Thank you and agreed! So no more wallowing lol. Gonna get my *kitten* back in gear!

Jennifer has proven to be so capable as of late I try to sit back and quietly observe. I thank you all for continuing to support her recovery. Following the recent drama I feel obliged to share some insight. She really is a wonderful person. I have full faith in her recovery with zero intention on leaving her.

I am staying overnight for the next couple of days while Jordan takes some much needed time away to decompress. That poor girl has been under a great deal of stress and the lack of self care has caught up with her. Overwhelmed by emotion, she unfortunately did ignite this situation blowing it completely out of proportion. Sadly she did take her criticism of Jennifer’s mistake too far! She didn’t intend to, this is the result of internalized tension exploding.

Jennifer’s PTSD was triggered in the midst of it all driving her into a manic state. While Jordan’s points were valid they could have been communicated much more delicately and without constant repetition. She didn’t mention it during therapy but it seems the past trauma Jordan experienced herself may have been triggered. Additionally Jennifer’s fear of abandonment (nobody was aware of previously) came to light. Jordan is young, bearing more than she should and learned the hard way to take time for herself and enjoy life.

Jennifer is an emotionally delicate sweet heart. I am the most consistent partner in her rehabilitation and a regular facet of her daily life. Her attachment is understandable. I look forward to the day our professional relationship ends and remaining a true friend. Jennifer felt threatened with good reason. This incident was heartbreaking but there are positives that came from it.

Jennifer’s pre-surgery impulse issues disappeared instantly, this was the first slip since! She just regained the use of her arms and it has been an exciting time. She simply lost control and it got away from her. Her therapist and her verified that she had been proactively trying to talk through this challenge in her private sessions. The moment I corrected her she cried, apologized and showed remorse. I’m really proud of how well Jennifer communicated in the midst of the emotional tension and fear while keeping herself grounded in reality. While her proposed solutions weren’t positive, she is demonstrating true reasoning skills. There are alot of wins here!

She has been in such an anxious state that she has not had any good rest the past several days. I tucked her in early last night before leaving and she was out cold by 6:15 but by 9:00 she was calling me in a panic. She tried to sleep but from what Jordan has reported she could hear her crying and talking to herself on & off through the night. Shortly after I arrived this morning we did some mindfulness exercises which quickly put her to sleep as she remains.

I am in no way trying to paint a poor picture of Jordan. We’ve discussed that she too would benefit from some trauma therapy/grief support. I did want to point out however that Jennifer’s emotions and attempts to seek help were reasonable considering the circumstances. I am incredibly proud of the progress she is demonstrating.

Thank you understanding and being there for her.

Lisa W.
Home Care Aide

@JbeanR0212

Thank you so much for the update. We all understand the severity of the situation you are all dealing with, we don't mind being the outlet for both Jenn and Jordan. Continued prayers for all of you

11/8
tracked: yes
under: yes
exercised: no

I will be gone to the beach Friday - Sunday on a girls trip, so getting to work early and staying late to ensure my work is at least some what caught up before I go lol. Weather is suppose to be cruddy here in Texas for the weekend, so no beach time....but looking forward to some girl time.

@mooreshelly09 have a great weekend!

Al frin I sore for be mes I tri be god me gin. I slep lot dae but Lisa wak me I be stil to tir. I vere sore all thak you stad. Big hug me thak for al hep. I hop Bluenot fel beter hapy you complit an sore Shelly ne be gurl fun. I to tir tak be lot hug al you. Jenn

maryphum
Weigh-in: Wed. Nov. 9 Week 2
PW: 165
CW: 163.6

I haven't made any time to exercise and need to make it a priority. My stomach pains that started at the end of Aug are not as bad anymore. I've had an x-ray, ultrasound, CT scan. My MRI and another colonoscopy were just approved now that my pain is less. Oh well, at least we'll rule out any recurring precancerous polyps. Since I've been eating smaller meals but more often, I think I can start walking again. I WILL invest some time exercising to try to achieve my goal weight by Dec. 21st. Only 4.6 more lbs to lose.

@DaffyGirl88 @JbeanR0212 Thank you for sending me positive healing vibes. I really need them so keep ‘em coming. 🙏🏼❤️

I tri wak heper dae for Landen cosirt. He tel me hep me lirn pla violen gin sun! I way 149.3 sore frins I thik bad tim’s mak me mor. Lot fort tume sofor may be to. Hapy for vegan luz you kik as gurl! Mary to you sta strog you got theis! Blunot you fel beter kep res for strog bode! Daffy Sue I jus wish mush so I for her cul rel hug you in pursin sum dae mae be. I love al you! Love Jenn

@JbeanR0212 good morning! Don't apologize for your weight! Weight until we see mine tomorrow! 😨. You want to be a good girl? Do your physical therapy and get your rest. 😁. You should not be up in the middle of the night posting on MFP 🤔 LOL. Have a great day! Hugs right back at ya! 🥰 If I'm ever in Colorado I will definitely look you up!

@therealbluenote I'm so sorry you’ve been sick. Praying for you right now!

@JbeanR0212 Thank you for the updates! I’m praying for you and am so thankful for your progress.

We had a new hurricane make landfall in the wee hours. Never a dull moment. We’re ok so far & very thankful we had somewhere to go to avoid the flooding on our road. I had started tracking & losing on Monday, but I’m back in survival mode. I will catch up my stats.

Sunday, November 6
Tracked: no
Under: not likely
Exercised: no

Monday, November 7
Tracked: yes
Under: no
Exercised: no

Tuesday, November 8
Tracked: yes
Under: no
Exercised: no

Wednesday, November 9
Tracked: no
Under: not likely
Exercised: yes-packing up & moving essentials for a brief (we hope!) stay in advance of Hurricane Nicole.

mooreshelly09 wrote: »

11/7
tracked: yes
under: yes
exercise: yes - spin class

Seen a second doctor on my knee yesterday and he agreed with the first doctor that I have a lot of arthritis in my knee with no cartridge for cushion. So basically just gonna have to learn to live with the pain 😒

So sorry for your pain, @mooreshelly09! That’s amazing that you can do spin class. Well done! 👏🏻 I’m praying for you! ❤️🙏🏻

Daffy Sue me Livie bes snugler ever! She onle won wunt to cudel me ane mor. I be love her so mush me big babe. Sum tim I jus miss be fel worm love. Landen be hug sum but no mush no mor an me Jordan yel to mush for she no mor like me sae to wird for sec ses Mom. No lowd tush Lisa but I be god yesdae so me can mor hol me Olivia. She plae me curl her spin figir mak me so hapy! No grababe Jordan sae I mak her no evir wat kidz. I do be slep to mush sum tim an bor be lae bed loen. Hugs Jenn

Susan you be saf niw storm! God an I no get log mush the daes but I tri prae you. Sindn love frohm Jenn

I be kep wak to fas hart scere. Dun no wat I drem jus be scer sept Lisa hep com lax. So to tir! I kep tri mor slep thenk god thigs. Be wish sum won cul jus me huld for fel saf hug be hep sum tim win me hads me Alli mises her mush! I sae Lisa be saf for jus spun me frohm hind but she say no can Jennifer no propret mabe for win Jordan be cum bak she be can hep do. I be tri mak her love me gin kep be god. Sum tim I jus ned hep fel saf worm love I sirv. Al bode ned hug sum tim no no wi haz so hord. I no like be so scer al tim I be tel Jordan vere sore mor I kep tri falo rul for win she cum hom. Hav hapy dae al bode. Love Jenn

@susanshaughnessy80
November Week 2
PW: 213.2
CW: 212.0

I didn’t pack my scale, but that’s the last weight I had recorded.