Food...control...the endless loop
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MRI? Hope it all turns out good PAV.1
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Yooly, 18 months in, I remain confused as to a full diagnosis, prognosis, treatment plan or goals. I know that the specialist wants me to lower my blood pressure even though it is in the normal range and to not exercise in the upper part of the vigorous/high intensity HR range or into the peak range. So to keep HR below 140bpm basically. Neither of which was even mentioned by the cardiologist who referred me to him.
The cardiologist keeps telling me don't worry, its just a little extra tick in the ecg graphs. No restrictions or concerns. In the meanwhile the MRI study was an evaluation for an implantable defibrillator--which was news to me when the MRI tech mentioned it 🤷♂️
Yup. Having fun!1 -
The tech probably shouldn’t be offering opinions. The MRI may have multiple diagnostic functions. Like to see if any else is going on. So relax -
I speak from some hairy personal experience. And hey I’ve made to 77!1 -
I thought about it a bit. And studies are interesting in that they can both rule something in OR rule it out and remove it from consideration ... or be inconclusive 🤷♂️3
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Cheering for the ruling out Pav.
One of those things things might add on Some weight - Why would The technician be saying such things???
Holding on out here …
Should be home on the weekend of November 4 …1 -
MIL died on Sunday.
It was brutal...brought up so many memories of dad, who like MIL developed cancer cachexia and wasted away before our eyes. MIL weighed 45kg when she was finally too weak to draw another breath.
I, on the other hand, have been mainlining sugar for the past two months, while doing no exercise of any kind, other than to sit beside a hospital bed. Unsurprisingly, I'm now 4kg outside my maintenance range.
I care about it...a bit...but once you've seen someone starve to death (for the second time) it sort of puts things in perspective.
All of my clothes are tight so I need to do something about it, but everything feels a bit hard at the moment..4 -
Nods & tears @Bella_Figura - this is just the tuffest... very hard emotionally, and after the grief goes so deep, so long i wondered why the world did not stop to cry with me - if the sun would ever shine again... it can be hard to even imagine feeling like sunshine again - please know we hold you in our thoughts, and please do not feel guilty for whatnot, as you grieve. Heap extra loads of tlc and patience on yourself... - do what is possible as possible but don't fret the rest, you will get there too... biggest ... hugs to you and your family...
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Ah Bella, I’m so sorry. Navigating life can be so difficult and frustrating. Give yourself plenty of time and rest. The diet will readjust with some peace and mindfulness.
Are you looking forward to getting home Laurie? Is the Newfoundland house “done”? Can’t wait to have you active in our group again.1 -
Looking forward to Laurie and Bella coming by.
The cancer broken insides? Did it once with mom. Don't want to do it again. Sad for you Bella that you had to go through this again. 🫂
In defense of the poor tech she was just confirming that she had the right person for the correct procedure. Literally following protocol: you are Bob and you're here to replace your right knee today..... cause if you are Free and you think you're here for your left eye cataracts do I ever have some news for you!
Not on her that the doc hadn't bothered to discuss why he was ordering the MRI!
Anyway.... let's see if I will rate an in office or just a phone call follow up 🤷♂️
And in the meanwhile Bella, the perspective is for you to live YOUR best life. Sure. Food and thin is not everything. But regaining to the point you're impacted and unable to do the things you enjoy IS an issue. So. New leaf. Time to take care of Bella again. Take care doesn't mean dive into a diet mind you. Just take care of YOUR needs.
And ms Laurie? How is the house happening and how are you? De leaves are falling!🤯
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Back to Home number 1 - not sure which home is home really at the moment - but I am in the "other" one now
My condolences, Bella. So for you and your hubby.2 -
Very little food control lately! 😔. I’m having attitude problems - I’m 77, facing surgery and further horrors so WTF.
Mercifully I am holding steady weight wise. Maybe I just can’t overeat like I used to?3 -
Maybe I just can’t overeat like I used to?
There's truth in this. I've been all over the place since July and my weight is up and my self-discipline is down, but I just can't binge these days without dreadful consequences...heartburn, a spike in blood pressure, general feeling of blah, heartburn, fluttery heart, blah, heartburn.....did I mention the heartburn? It's forcing me to be more disciplined than my unruly hamsters would ideally like me to be....
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Hmmm. But some of us can still put it away in a pinch! Ask me about the unplanned for +2,000+ Cal on Monday night!
Multiple days in a row eventually catches up
Try to avoid.
The main issue is that you're better able to cope with health problems at your current weight as compared to before 🤷♂️2 -
I wish I was unable to overeat. I can eat through all the discomfort and keep going until I crash
But I've grown pretty tired of that - tired ENOUGH I hope.2 -
Laurie did you ever tell us what happened with the cottage? Are you going to continue work on it during the winter too? Is it fully done and furnished? 🤷♂️1
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The Harbour Grace Newfoundland house is done (ish) and furnished The brother of a neighbour from across the road is renting it until spring. He is building a house - which was supposed to be finished mid-October - and it isn't ready yet. But he sold his house with a mid-October closing date.
Perfect solution for us both!2 -
Food control…. I think I’m getting a grip on this again. Not in full control but definitely posting honestly and doing a day weigh-in. It’s a start to controlling the emotional excesses of the past two months.2
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Good for you, Yooly.
I’m trying. I feels like One side of my brain is trying to fool the other side of my brain right now and that’s good… I’m trying not to sabotage it by being too aware. lol.
My self-discipline Hasn’t yet returned from wherever it went … I’m not doing too terribly right now but I have to go to the grocery store today and I am afraid to go to the grocery store because I don’t really trust myself.2 -
Well... don't go too hungry and... don't look for sales!🤯 Of course having a list (I've heard of them in a past life 🤣) and sticking to it helps!!!
Jokes aside the pre planned list thing definitely works. Whether one is willing to play that way is a different issue!🤷♂️2 -
Successful trip to two grocery stores!
I’m still in shock 🤣2 -
Still fighting the awful urge to stress eat anything and everything. The craving to self-medicate with food is constant.
Tomorrow I have two oncology doctor appointments…. What awaits as far as radiation and meds is still to be determined.
And I hate not knowing and being out of control!! Cookies 🍪 won’t help but damned if they don’t provide a minute of relief.1 -
Keep fighting, Yooly. What good for you things can you do to self soothe?
Throw everything at this.
A drive?
A massage?
A manicure?
An hour relaxing with your favourite music?
Something that takes care of you is absolutely called for.
I really screwed this up. Determined to be tough, I didn’t acknowledge the stress. It’s a really good thing that you are. Don’t let anybody downplay what you’re going through.
Try not to get caught in that wicked spiral. You’re holding strong! Do something kind for you so you can keep it up.
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And I know that in addition to YOOLY, LAURIE is also listening to this GREAT advise!😎1
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Trying to get my head around that, PAV. Kinda late maybe? But better late than never?
Driving up the mountain ( ha ha there is an escarpment/hill in Hamilton we refer to as THE mountain) to for the mammogram last week - I burst into tears. Pretty unexpectedly. And I had this epiphany. This whole thing has been beyond stressful. And I was freaking terrified. I truly appreciated it for the first time. The big C - my retina and messed up vision. And I really have not cut myself any slack over it, nor made allowances on the mental health front nor tried to find a good (?) way to deal with the stress of it all.
Coming on here and writing about it being "triggering" was the first time that I had acknowledged such a thing.
Live and learn.
And I intend to live for a long while yet - so I better start learning
It all somehow felt like a bit of an emotional break through ?????
We'll see where it takes me.
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The things that we realize... are somewhat interesting AND surprising at times!!!!1
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Dear dear Laurie- I completely understand the terror and trying to keep a lid on it. Sometimes I just want to hide in a corner and cry endlessly. But it’s not going to change a thing. My supportive hubby is facing his own recently diagnosed problems. Looks like in the midst of my upcoming radiation course, he will be getting a pacemaker. The two of us are trying to hold it together for each other.
None of this was anticipated. In November we were happily vacationing in New Orleans. When the *kitten* hits the fan it doesn’t mess around.2 -
So much I can’t fix but I can try to control food intake. Because I don’t need to add uncontrollable weight gain to the already complicated mix.2
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All the power to you, Yooly.
How do you deal with the stress? How have you dealt with the urge eat to soothe your emotions?0 -
Are we talking the wake up without enough sleep because your hamsters are spinning ***kitten***? Wish I had ever figured it out! I think i need a therapist subscription! But I make do with a dog walk or two!🤯1
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So many different effects it has on us. But I think extra sleep is one good response. If possible?
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