ClearNotCloudyMind Member

About

Username
ClearNotCloudyMind
Joined
Visits
487
Last Active
Roles
Member
Points
753
Badges
23
Posts
219

Replies

  • Well, yesterday rather kicked my *kitten* in terms of eating control but the scale was down again today. I was slightly celebrating unexpectedly passing the last module for my teaching qualification so it’s all over now bar the paperwork. On the upside, my body is still back to feeling good so I’ll take it. Still think…
  • One day… that’s all it took for my body to feel better again. Scratching my head now and wondering “am I crazy”? All I did was pre-log everything I ate. 1kg of bloat gone and I don’t feel sick and flabby. I think what this shows is that it’s all in my mind, not my body…
  • I so know how you feel. The only thing I can say is the thing getting me through this blip on my latest trip. I need to live like the person I want to be. Slim, healthy me does sometimes eat dreadful foods, but the next day she doesn’t. And she doesn’t kick herself about it either as she knows that it’s the every day…
  • Hi all, well it’s been a pretty shoddy month for me… I think being back at my uni weight and officially “healthy” has done my head in. Since half term a few weeks ago, I’ve eaten and eaten and eaten. Last week I was even back into binging territory. I’ve been so scared that I’d bounce back (as always in the past) and am…
  • Hi folks. Well, half term we started with loads of cycling which gave me the hunger! I ate like a horse for the whole week and somehow managed to regain 2kg in a week. Probably water weight as it’s gone a week afterwards. Maybe it’s nice to take a break from rigorous control of the diet, but I’ve been nicely reminded how…
  • Hello you lovely lot! Lovely to hear from you and welcome back @Gold6767. I definitely feel you on the stress at work. One day for me until half term and I'm taking the first weekend off! I've had a lovely experience recently weight loss wise. Even though I've not been particularly disciplined, weight has continued to drop…
  • When I first started this journey I thought it was about my goal weight. Now I know that it's much more about my goal lifestyle. When I first started this journey I thought the faster the weight came off the better. Now I know that I am happier, kinder and significantly warmer when it comes off slowly! When I first started…
  • Tonight I ate *half a pizza*, stopping when I was full. Only 2 months ago I'd have finished it for the salty joy of keeping on chewing. I'm still having difficulty believing I did it.
  • 30th October 2020. Sitting in my bedroom, borderline obese. Realised that I had wanted to lose weight for a long time now but not actually done it. Feeling disgusted with myself. Was I really so weak and out of control? Gave myself a day to decide whether I give it a sodding good go, or give up. If decision was to lose…
  • Today I wore a pair of trousers which I'd avoided for years because of the painful way they cut into my waist. They were comfortable and loose. There's nothing in my closet I can't wear now... the choice is dazzling.
  • I keep coming back to this one. Wow... this was me. I'd forgotten how I felt when I first wore an ex-boyfriend's t-shirt for the day (it had previously been a nightshirt) because I didn't have any others that fit. And refusing to buy new clothes because I was going to lose weight, no matter how painfully tight (and…
  • The look I sometimes catch on my husband’s face sometimes when he’s looking at me.
  • Jedi mind trick... “these are not the foods you are looking for”! Seriously though, I don’t want to impose my own food limitations on my very healthy and active family. So... there is food in the house that I simply don’t eat. It’s not for me. It’s been seven months now and I genuinely don’t even really notice the biscuit…
  • Wow, sincere thank yous everyone. I can’t believe I’d started to forget some of these. This has come at just the right time. I had a bit of a freak out today about possibly crashing my metabolism after the scale showed an unexpected drop. This was just the perspective I needed. You’re all fantastic xx
  • Oh yeah, I call them “sick headaches” but that’s apparently what a migraine is. Mine are triggered and sustained by food. Specifically easy-access carbs in excess or any amount of chocolate. Turns out I can manage them by avoiding them, or even fasting. However in the moment it used to help the pain to eat and eat and eat.…
  • Hi there, this describes me I think? 41 with 2 kids, starting again as a teacher in a few weeks. Lost 14kg so far and into a healthy BMI at 67kg but still definitely in weight loss mode rather than transitioning to maintenance. Not sure what my goal weight is but at 167cm it’s something like 63kg or less 🤷‍♀️
  • Hi lovely people, I’ve hit the end of a busy week, and it’s been a good one! With only 3 weeks left to go until I’m officially a qualified teacher, it’s busier than ever. I don’t have either time or the will to eat lunch on school days so am effectively fasting between breakfast and supper and then between supper and…
  • I'm typing this comfortably wearing the denim pencil skirt that was part of my inspiration when I started (this round) of losing weight. It's taken 6 months to get here. So many of my goals have been met, have become just part of normal life, it's extraordinary when I think about it. I can now dream of wearing the…
  • Ooh Dukare - I haven't got a juicer, but we do have a juicing attachment for the kenwood. It takes a flipping age, but I've taken to making myself "Every Veg In The Cupbord" juice on the weekends. Beetroot, ginger, apple, carrot, and a half lemon (rind and all) is surprisingly delicious. It just takes soooooooooooo long to…
  • @brightsideofpink welcome! Your story really resonates with me. I don’t think I ever managed the impressive weight loss you did, but I’ve the same fear of somehow doing it “wrong” again and regaining it all again, again. Been thinking about it a fair bit and have come to the conclusion that this is how I live now. I’ve…
  • Ah Dukare, not sure if it helps but I gave up on the clean house when the kids were tiny. I mean it never got actually dirty (for long) but life’s too short to fight the chaos and I’d rather play with the kids than chase after them with a mop! Now they’re older they clean too, so winning the long game! Celebrating your…
  • Yay, it wasn't hormones this time. Huzzah! Well, the fact that I haven't got the time to eat during the school day now I'm on my final placement. Lost half a kilo last week and can see no reason why that won't continue in the week to come. I reckon there will be 6 more weeks of rather reliable weight loss due to…
  • Hi all, sorry I’ve been so quiet. Somehow lost a bit of my drive having achieved a big milestone weight. Of course I didn’t weigh in for a week, somehow regained 2kg, and been slowly working it off. Even now I’m not sure if it’s genuine weight loss or just hormonal fluctuations 🙁. Anyone else have a massive weight drop…
  • @tinybry great to see you back. Went through something similar (possibly a similar role) a few years back and it was one of my most stressful ever times. Worked out ok in the end (no need for redundancies) but the horror of being the one who is taking point on responsibility for the situation. Huge hugs and best of luck.…
  • Loving the way happiness shines out of your posts @Dukare! My Monday was good too, with two lessons (out of my 3 remaining at this school) taught, kids doing happy healthy activities and the day ended with my husband joining me for yoga. Holding hands during corpse pose at the end was perhaps not entirely what the teacher…
  • Hi @cantaloupe432 and welcome! Wish I could do long runs, just finished reading Born to Run and feeling inspired, however I've always been a DREADFUL runner. Maybe this is the year... @SuzanneC1l9zz I definitely see you on the slow weight loss. After a bit of a whoosh over the last fortnight, I'm now pretty much resigned…
  • Sod your spouse... one pound a week which stays gone is a million miles better than crash dieting and yo-yo gaining when the diet (inevitably) ends.
  • Hi all, bit of a rollercoaster week. My classes have been angels some lessons, demons in others. Am learning but with only 9 more weeks of training before I’m a Real Teacher it’s starting to get a bit scarier. Am happy with the weight thing, which somehow keeps ticking down. Not complaining but at a slight loss to…
  • I think I have a simialar sugar thing going, but my body REALLY hates it. As in migraine trigger. That helps me stay away, but all my favourite foods were carb-laden baked stuff, and I'd become a decent baker of all the things I loved most to eat. So I'd eat, then get sick, then forget and eat it again and again and…
  • We're lucky enough that Girl Scout Cookies aren't a thing over here. Are they a particular type of cookie, or just cute kids guilting you into buying them? Am fortunate that I live with 3 biscuit hoovers, so I don't need to eat them to make them go away! Loving the fact that you can beat your husband at basketball. Mine…
Avatar