Doom, Despair, and Agony on Me! (aka a whine thread)
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@conniewilkins56 You have perfectly described by early teen years. When AOL first came out I was who I thought everyone else wanted me to be! I finally made my friends in Band and Theater in my later years of high school. I have always been such an introvert that now as an adult I don't have more than a few friends and sometimes that makes me not feel great. My stepsister has so many friends and people she talks to every day and the amount of txt messages she gets when we are together it makes me anxious and tired and it's her keeping up with all of it, not me.
I have never been an introvert and I have many aquaintances but very few close friends as an adult and as you get older you lose so many friends as they die...not trying to be gruesome, just the fact...on our 25 th anniversary we hosted over 165 guests at our party....I would bet over half are deceased!...anyway I have always had a vivid imagination and the computer appealed to me!...
I am sorry you are having a bad week...I have dealt with serious depression but I have to say that losing weight and becoming more active helps...the longer you stay on track the more it becomes a habit and your normal...I have a binge eating disorder and I try to avoid foods or situations that set me off...some days are easier than others...celebrate your good days as a victory and try to at least control the not so good days....the best treat I enjoy every night is a cup of low calorie hot chocolate at bedtime...I look forward to that every day...I also hide my special foods that I don’t want to share with my grand kids lol...I always know they are there....string cheese, almonds and teddy grahams!
I hope tomorrow is better for you....” being overweight is hard, dieting is hard....choose your hard”0 -
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TheLastMrBig wrote: »I learned the term from TV some time ago.
It also occurs to me that @TheLastMrBig could be someone playing this role for some reason. That doesn't really bother me either. The worst that happens is that I give advice that is helpful for someone else reading it. As I said I am not easy to rattle.
Don't worry @TheLastMrBig I am not accusing you of anything. I will consider you "on the level" unless it is conclusively proven otherwise. I accept you at face value. You are imperfect. So am I.
Are you seeing a therapist for any of this? If not, you probably should. There is no shame in building a toolbox to navigate these types of situations.
I normally would take offense to a false narrative but I have no energy to argue or debate my truth and what I share. some of you on this thread are on my friends list which means you can view my timeline. At the very most you can say I'm always whining or complaining...but I pour my heart out daily like this is my journal... I post raw and uncut thoughts ...let ppl on my friendslist read my posts and come up with a conclusion and report back here
You may have misread my post or not taken my full meaning. I believe you are telling the truth. You do not need to debate it or have others defend you.0 -
I think part of me thought my arthritis would go away with the weight loss. I will grant that it doesn't hurt as much day to day, but on a wet day like this, it's here, and making my life much less pleasant than usual. And I have all sorts of cooking and prep to do, too. (sigh)3
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WAAAAAAAAA!!! Throwing another huge tantrum about the scale. A couple weeks ago, I thought maybe I FINALLY broke my plateau and I lost for 2 weeks in a row. This week, despite the numbers saying I should have lost, I gained over 3 pounds and my last couple of losses are undone. And since the big gain, it has continued to creep upward for a couple days and is almost at 260 again. ZERO. PROGRESS. WHATSOEVER.3
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It seems that no one I know (online or in real life) is happy with the scale right now. Mine dipped ever so slightly this morning but still up 2.6 pounds from where it should be. It happened last year too. Hot weather.
My DDA on me is that I am stuck in what I call "day ahead syndrome" this week. Each day has felt like it was the next and even though I keep correcting myself on it I swear it still feels like it is Thursday today. The weekend was pretty normal so I am not sure what has triggered it this week but it is annoying that I can never seem to shake it until the week is done.2 -
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I've been having that problem too, despite the fact that I know it's Wednesday, I'm doing an elaborate meal, and yesterday we had Chinese because it was Tuesday.
Feels like Thursday, though. (shakes head)
I am happy with my scale, though, as I've lost two pounds since last weighing.2 -
Hmmm. Me, Alexandra, and Novus all 3 feel likes its Thursday - is there some great conspiracy going on here to make us all think its really Wednesday when in fact its actually Thursday? Or did we somehow fall into some sort of time loop? lol3
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I feel like, I have had 3 Mondays in a row.. so my week is also messed up. But I tried to take two days off at the end of last week and it messed all my work flow up!
I am also not happy with my scale... My gain was much less than I thought it would be based on last nights transgressions. only a .8 gain from last week.
I am frustrated that I have been working out more in the last few weeks than I have in quite a long time (years) and I am having mostly great days and only a couple bad ones. My scale is stuck in the same spot as it was before I even started this process. I am not doing any diet just portions and trying to eat on regular basis. I've upped my water intake. I'm Walking 3 times a week and doing some sort of workout for at least 30 min every day I am not walking.. and sometimes even those days.2 -
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@Tempe987 - starting a new exercise program often results in temporary water weight gain. I know its hard to do, but trust the process. Your body is under stress from both eating at a deficit and moving in ways that it isn't used to moving. It's good stress, but still stress. And a body under stress tends to gain water. If you've been eating at a deficit during this time, you are certainly losing fat, even if you are gaining water right now.3
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@Tempe987 - starting a new exercise program often results in temporary water weight gain. I know its hard to do, but trust the process. Your body is under stress from both eating at a deficit and moving in ways that it isn't used to moving. It's good stress, but still stress. And a body under stress tends to gain water. If you've been eating at a deficit during this time, you are certainly losing fat, even if you are gaining water right now.
What she said. This is where measurements are helpful. I often discover the scale has stalled but I've dropped inches. As I enjoy being a strong, powerful woman, this works for me almost as much as seeing the scale drop.
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having trouble -- again -- getting onto the home page and food entries area. Dang it!!2
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TheLastMrBig wrote: »in past three months since April, I've experienced consistent join pain in both sides of my arm. Prior to exercising earlier this month. I was inactive with physical activity since February
Yes, I do sleep on my side which basically laying on both sides of my shoulder. But I get joint pain a lot lately Idk if it's due to Blood sugar levels being consistently high low 200s and late 200s but I'm taking it very seriously.
Sometimes I worry if it's symptoms of potential stroke or heart attack but I try not to be negative. Right now my mind is wondering and debating should I go to the hospital due to on and off short pain in my shoulders
Yes at times my legs or feet cramp up but not like my shoulders... I usually have to crack my shoulder to stop the pain and it goes away. But any arm movement and it'll appear than go away maybe 5 to 10 times day especially since I've been active
Another problem: The past two months I've witnessed like arthritis in my right hand. It's like a twitch is the best way I can describe it. I can still use my hands good however especially if I'm tired or laying down I can not even hold the phone in my hand long enough without it dropping
I understand being 400 plus for 10 years and having high a1c has its extreme cons ... But I find it difficult to determine if this is bad joint pain on the body that's in pain Or early symptoms of potential disaster situation ????
Yall let me know what you think honest and bluntly
I am one of the few people here that have been your size but even that makes me completely unqualified to give you a medical opinion. I had odd pains. Some of them were caused by acid reflux. Some were caused by the weight pulling at my frame in weird ways. Some were caused by joint deterioration. None of that is helpful to you.
What weight did to me and what it is doing to you won't be the same because genetics plays such a big role. I never got diabetes or even close. My A1C and BGL has almost always tested below normal because I have reactive hypoglycemia.
I have no idea if you need to go to the hospital but it does seem prudent for you to seek medical care very soon. If nothing else it will rule out something serious which will lower your anxiety and take some of the pressure off of you.1 -
I think you should make a visit to your doctor and get yourself checked!...also stay on track with your calories and eating a prescribed diabetic diet menu...you are setting yourself up to become very sick if you don’t get control of your life!0
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TheLastMrBig wrote: »last time i visited my doctor was June 26th but next appointment is august 25 ...
That is a fairly recent visit. Have the pains started since then?
Is this a proper doctor who spends time with you and cares about you or is it a patient mill doctor that wants to spend no more than 14.75 minutes with you so he/she doesn't look that hard because that would risk finding something that required more attention?
Do they do a full panel of blood work including things like vitamin D level, anemia, ferritin, hormones, etc? Did they mention anything about your inflammation markers being high? If you have high cholesterol did they do an xray of your chest to check for arterial blockage (I think it is called a calcium test).
My original doctor was more of a patient mill doctor. Even when I was 400+ pounds they basically found nothing wrong with me except slightly high cholesterol. I knew something was off with what they were saying about my blood pressure so I found a new doctor who assumed at my weight I was probably dying of something so he put me through the ringer on tests. Luckily the things he did find were treatable with medication and, of course, weight loss. I am still under the care of a cardiologists but I expect to be released on my next visit.1 -
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TheLastMrBig wrote: »you hit the nail on the head... 15 mins in and out free healthcare that everyone with no insurance and doesn't want to go to the hospital goes too. They basically take your BSL, blood pressure, and suggest a diet than re-subscribe meds. Last time I did give urine sample and blood work and I assume it was clean because I got no call back . I use to take joint medicine and yes it's been a minor problem over years but the hand twitches are fairly new this year and more consistent muscle fatigue but that's due to lack of muscle and no exercise for months
but yes you hit nail on head 15 mins in and out
"Clean" might just mean for the test they ran which could have been anything.
If you go back and make specific complaints they have to do enough test to cover their rears I would think. If not you may just need to go to the hospital as you mentioned. You would know better than me.2 -
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@Tempe987 - starting a new exercise program often results in temporary water weight gain. I know its hard to do, but trust the process. Your body is under stress from both eating at a deficit and moving in ways that it isn't used to moving. It's good stress, but still stress. And a body under stress tends to gain water. If you've been eating at a deficit during this time, you are certainly losing fat, even if you are gaining water right now.
Yes, I've been sore for about two weeks straight. I WILL TRY TO BE PATIENT LOL! I do need to work on my water intake anyway I am getting way less than they say you should have. Maybe that will help2 -
AlexandraFindsHerself1971 wrote: »@Tempe987 - starting a new exercise program often results in temporary water weight gain. I know its hard to do, but trust the process. Your body is under stress from both eating at a deficit and moving in ways that it isn't used to moving. It's good stress, but still stress. And a body under stress tends to gain water. If you've been eating at a deficit during this time, you are certainly losing fat, even if you are gaining water right now.
What she said. This is where measurements are helpful. I often discover the scale has stalled but I've dropped inches. As I enjoy being a strong, powerful woman, this works for me almost as much as seeing the scale drop.
I didn't take measurements before but I started with my check-in today!1 -
I have never taken my measurements but I think it is time I started doing this lol...only a year late!0
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I am back to buying underwear again and because of all the walking I need another round of socks too.
WHY IS THIS STUFF SO STUPID EXPENSIVE?!?
It occurs to me they should give tax credits to people who lose a decent percentage of their weight in a year. That would have to take some of the burden off the economy and losing weight is pretty expensive.5
