December Challenge - Me vs. The Binge
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Elizabeth 10
Binge 3 (12/7, 12/8, 12/13)
Binged today and didn't log the food. The strange thing is I really don't care and not beating myself up for once. My 3 year old is sick with croup and I have been stressed and kind of confined to the house I think that is why it happened. I have also had a lot of negative thinking going on in my brain. The end of the year is quickly approaching and I keep beating myself up thinking back to this past January when I was fed up with my weight and joined WW, well today I am 8 pounds heavier than that starting "fat" weight. So basically this year of dieting I have gained 8 pounds. Lovely. I think I basically told myself today what difference will today make, so what eat whatever you want you won't have technically lost any weight this year anyway, so go on ahead....Like I said, bad negative self talk. THAT needs to stop. I have also accomplished a lot this year--I need to focus on that and remind myself I am more than my weight and that does not define me. It is so hard!! I really struggle with low self-esteem.
It seems to be a constant struggle sometimes (negative self talk). You're doing awesome by realizing it, being aware really helps in improvement.
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13/12
Natalie: 7
Binge: 60 -
December 2012
Diane - 9
The Binge - 40 -
Me: 7
The Binge: 70 -
Hi Terry,December 2012:
Terry - 9.5
The Binge - 3.5
Logging days - 13 / 31
What is a .5??
Just curious. :ohwell: 0 -
12-14-12
Me: 10
Binge: 4 (12/7, 12/8, 12/13, 12/14)
I really, really wanted to lie about today but I know I can't. I didn't bring an afternoon snack and lost the will power with all the junk in teacher's lounge. Darn it. I won't be hungry later today so cutting off these bad choices now. Tomorrow I have spin & dance class and keeping this weekend extra clean. Sigh.0 -
Good job on honesty Jul158!! I spent many years in a dark and denial state which is dishonesty. Keeping it real and honest is best for you for sure!! You are still doing great!0
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December 2012:
Mollie - 10
The Binge - 3 (1st, 2nd, 11th)
Days I did not log it all - 2 (Goal to be no more than 4 days)0 -
14/12
Natalie: 7
Binge: 70 -
Good job on honesty Jul158!! I spent many years in a dark and denial state which is dishonesty. Keeping it real and honest is best for you for sure!! You are still doing great!
Thank you for this!! I really needed to remember that. A step in the right direction0 -
Me - 9.
Binge - 5.
Utterly disgusted, ashamed and angry. I couldn't even look at my bf or deal with being with him, as when I have binged, I tend to get angry with him as well as myself, because his skinnyness and control of his eating just reminds me of my own failing, greed and uselessness.
I had about 7000 calories today, at a guess. Didn't go to the gym as with that much food, what is the flipping point. Can't exercise that much off. Going to have to accept I am going to be stuck at a weight I am utterly miserable at until after xmas.0 -
Me: 7
The Binge: 7
Me: 6, The Binge: 8
7PM and my stats have changed... since I logged this a lot earlier.
Tempted to binge after lunch, I had overate. Talked to someone on here, got over it, walked.... it helped.
But man, I didn't have much calorie allowance left - the sugar was making my hunger come back not soon after... I wanted to eat, so I did.... too much. Today was a binge day. I either want a perfect day or my mess ups drive me to a binge. I don't know what to do sometimes. I really am trying. I was the same weight as I am now, last year... yeah - that's how successful I have been at weight loss. --- 3 steps forward, 4 steps back --- is what I feel like I'm doing to myself.0 -
Me - 7
Binge - 6
This isn't counting today, it's only 630p but I plan to have 8 days but don't want to write that yet because I haven't eaten dinner yet.
Yesterday turned out horrible. I worked at a different facility and used someone's office that wasn't there yesterday. The woman had a big old thing of binge food sitting on her desk. It got to me by probably 1p and it was all over after that...I couldn't take it anymore, right in front of my face. I don't know how she does it...but anyway, I ate someone else's food. I stole food, essentially. Then I came home and ate more. Yuck. I felt so disgusted with myself....and the shame was horrible - she'll probably go back to work and wonder who ate a bunch of the food on her desk. How embarrassing. I decided to quit fighting it and I looked up online OA meetings this morning. (I was in OA for a long time but quit like six years ago.) It just so happened there was one starting then, so I sat in on it. It was actually quite good...the topic was "drama". It was very interesting, I've never thought about drama affecting my eating but it really made sense....especially because my office is full of drama!! Work is total drama...and where do I have the most difficult time not bingeing? Work! Wow, it was very eye-opening. There was tons of online meetings so I may have to do more of them.
I'll check back later when I can write 8 days. 0 -
Elizabeth 11
Binge 3 (12/7, 12/8, 12/13)
Didn't make some of the best choices today, but it is what it is. I have wanted to binge today, but haven't mainly b/c my husband is here and I usually only do it when I am alone. Ended up in the emergency room last night with my 3 year old, he is fine but that is always stressful. Didn't get much sleep b/c he is up b/c he is so uncomfortable so not much sleep the past couple days. I am so sad and depressed over the shootings in CT. I will be home alone tomorrow (only the kids will be here) so I need to keep that in mind and plan out what I am eating. I want to break the cycle of binging all weekend, I don't know when the last binge free weekend was. I hope everyone has a good weekend! Thanks for all the wonderful support in this group!0 -
December 2012:
Terry - 9
The Binge - 5
Logging days - 14 / 310 -
Me: 7
The Binge: 7
Me: 6, The Binge: 8
7PM and my stats have changed... since I logged this a lot earlier.
Tempted to binge after lunch, I had overate. Talked to someone on here, got over it, walked.... it helped.
But man, I didn't have much calorie allowance left - the sugar was making my hunger come back not soon after... I wanted to eat, so I did.... too much. Today was a binge day. I either want a perfect day or my mess ups drive me to a binge. I don't know what to do sometimes. I really am trying. I was the same weight as I am now, last year... yeah - that's how successful I have been at weight loss. --- 3 steps forward, 4 steps back --- is what I feel like I'm doing to myself.
I understand you completely. If I slip, even slightly, I feel like I lost and if I lost... I start eating. I also have more steps back than forward recently. Let's try this together today. For me, it won't be easy with bloated stomach and whole day on university, but let's try.0 -
Me: 7
The Binge: 7
Me: 6, The Binge: 8
7PM and my stats have changed... since I logged this a lot earlier.
Tempted to binge after lunch, I had overate. Talked to someone on here, got over it, walked.... it helped.
But man, I didn't have much calorie allowance left - the sugar was making my hunger come back not soon after... I wanted to eat, so I did.... too much. Today was a binge day. I either want a perfect day or my mess ups drive me to a binge. I don't know what to do sometimes. I really am trying. I was the same weight as I am now, last year... yeah - that's how successful I have been at weight loss. --- 3 steps forward, 4 steps back --- is what I feel like I'm doing to myself.
I understand you completely. If I slip, even slightly, I feel like I lost and if I lost... I start eating. I also have more steps back than forward recently. Let's try this together today. For me, it won't be easy with bloated stomach and whole day on university, but let's try.
thanks, yes... we shall do this.0 -
http://www.eruptingmind.com/overcoming-feelings-of-inadequacy-from-the-subconscious-mind/
Helpful site for people who feel inadequate or battle negative self talk - explains stuff.
"Successful people learn from their failures and move on. Unsuccessful people become consumed by their failures which then keeps them locked in the past."0 -
December 2012
Diane - 9
The Binge - 50 -
Good quote! Thanks!"Successful people learn from their failures and move on. Unsuccessful people become consumed by their failures which then keeps them locked in the past."0 -
December 2012:
Mollie - 11
The Binge - 3 (1st, 2nd, 11th)
Days I did not log it all - 2 (Goal to be no more than 4 days)0 -
December 2012:
Mollie - 11
The Binge - 3 (1st, 2nd, 11th)
Days I did not log it all - 2 (Goal to be no more than 4 days)
You are doing awesome this month!!!0 -
Me - 8
Binge - 6
So yesterday was binge-free, thankfully. Feeling bloated and huge from Wednesday and Thursday made it easier.
One of my educators at work who I help gave me a little gift yesterday. She makes bingefoodX and I can't stop eating it once I start. She gave me a cute little star bowl and some bingefoodX. UGH! I love and hate her at the same time. Anyway, I left it at work because I was NOT taking it home. I will probably eat it at some point but leaving it there was kind of huge for me.
So far so good today. Today will be binge-free. The weather sucks and I can't seem to motivate myself to do much of anything. I have been taking either Saturday or Sunday off from exercise lately and I think it will be Saturday this week. I just feel so guilty and lazy when I take a day off though.0 -
Me - 8
Binge - 6
So yesterday was binge-free, thankfully. Feeling bloated and huge from Wednesday and Thursday made it easier.
One of my educators at work who I help gave me a little gift yesterday. She makes bingefoodX and I can't stop eating it once I start. She gave me a cute little star bowl and some bingefoodX. UGH! I love and hate her at the same time. Anyway, I left it at work because I was NOT taking it home. I will probably eat it at some point but leaving it there was kind of huge for me.
So far so good today. Today will be binge-free. The weather sucks and I can't seem to motivate myself to do much of anything. I have been taking either Saturday or Sunday off from exercise lately and I think it will be Saturday this week. I just feel so guilty and lazy when I take a day off though.
That's amazing improvement!!! (leaving the bowl at work)
I've been feeling that way... taking more exercise days off, I used to workout a lot regardless of weekends... it makes me feel guilty but just remember your body is still burning calories throughout the day with activities... rest won't make you fat... it's okay when you're not on a perfect schedule.
Good luck with today.
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Me - 9.
Binge - 6.
Not doing so well now.
I really hate food right now.0 -
12-15-12
Me: 10
Binge: 5 (12/7, 12/8, 12/13, 12/14, 12/15)
Meh. Wasn't awful butap I ate past comfort when I was baking. Despite the party tomorrow, I'm packing food and keeping it clean!0 -
You are doing fine. You are still ahead!Me - 9.
Binge - 6.
Not doing so well now.
I really hate food right now.0 -
Good job on leaving FoodX at work!! BTW - I love the pharse bingefoodX!Me - 8
Binge - 6
So yesterday was binge-free, thankfully. Feeling bloated and huge from Wednesday and Thursday made it easier.
One of my educators at work who I help gave me a little gift yesterday. She makes bingefoodX and I can't stop eating it once I start. She gave me a cute little star bowl and some bingefoodX. UGH! I love and hate her at the same time. Anyway, I left it at work because I was NOT taking it home. I will probably eat it at some point but leaving it there was kind of huge for me.
So far so good today. Today will be binge-free. The weather sucks and I can't seem to motivate myself to do much of anything. I have been taking either Saturday or Sunday off from exercise lately and I think it will be Saturday this week. I just feel so guilty and lazy when I take a day off though. Keep up the good work! 0 -
15/12
Natalie: 8
Binge: 7
I am really proud of myself today. And prepared for another beautiful, binge-free day. 0 -
Good job on leaving FoodX at work!! BTW - I love the pharse bingefoodX!Me - 8
Binge - 6
So yesterday was binge-free, thankfully. Feeling bloated and huge from Wednesday and Thursday made it easier.
One of my educators at work who I help gave me a little gift yesterday. She makes bingefoodX and I can't stop eating it once I start. She gave me a cute little star bowl and some bingefoodX. UGH! I love and hate her at the same time. Anyway, I left it at work because I was NOT taking it home. I will probably eat it at some point but leaving it there was kind of huge for me.
So far so good today. Today will be binge-free. The weather sucks and I can't seem to motivate myself to do much of anything. I have been taking either Saturday or Sunday off from exercise lately and I think it will be Saturday this week. I just feel so guilty and lazy when I take a day off though. Keep up the good work!
Hee, hee, I was thinking the same thing, Mollie :-)0
