December Challenge - Me vs. The Binge
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12-9-12
Me: 7
Binge: 2
Restricted today. Vicious cycle! I went ten days not bingeing and I know how that feels. I'm going to get back to that without eating too few or too many calories.
***NOTE: "Few things In the world are more powerful than a positive push. A word of optimisim and hope. A "you can do it" when times are tough" -Richard
This is my positive push to all of you! We have all been in those tough points, but I believe in you, just as I'm striving to believe in myself. Here's to a new, positive & healthy week. Remember, you are never (!) alone! We are here.0 -
Elizabeth 7
Binge 2 (12/7, 12/8)
Beat that binge monster today. I went over a bit in calories, but feel I am not likely to binge if I give into what I want in moderation than to not allow myself to eat it. Yay, back on track!0 -
December 9, 2012
Rachael - 8
The Binge - 1 (12/7)
Overcalories - 0
Made it through a tough and emotional day today. Wasn't easy, but I got through it and stayed within my calories today.0 -
Time to 'fess up. I have been on a binge tear.
Mo--4
Binge--5 (12/3,12/6,12/7,12/8,12/9)
It's such a vicious cycle when it starts. Now I'm depressed, I'm not exercising, I'm eating crap, and that sick part of me doesn't want to stop the binge, even though I know I'll feel better if I do.
I'm having a personal pity party for myself; no-one else is invited.0 -
Me - 6
Binge - 3
Today wasn't horribly bad but I had sort of a mini-binge on what I call "healthy snacks". My total calories for the day weren't too bad but the behavior was bingey...there was a sort of urgency to eat something sweet. And I was going to stop before I did but I did not. So I'm counting it as a binge day, even though I don't feel too terrible physically or mentally.
I too have wished that I could purge but never could. I tried more than once as a teenager and couldn't. I think that's probably a blessing though.0 -
December 2012:
Terry - 7.5
The Binge - 1.5
Logging days - 9 / 310 -
9/12
Natalie: 5
Binge: 40 -
U, Dec 9
beatrixia: 9
The Binge: 00 -
...I am quite envious of those who consider an extra dessert to be a binge, actually, I have to say.
When I began doing this challenge several months ago, I went through a period of time when I wasn't sure what was a binge or what was simply overeating/overindulgence. Some friends from the group explained to me that each of us defines what is a binge for ourselves, so I only have to understand and define what is a binge for me.
So for me, defining a binge is hardly ever about calories consumed (although when I binge it is on high-calorie foods or large portions, so I do usually end up having a big overage). It's about a mindset that is then translated into behavior. When I binge, I have strong tunnel vision; I think about that one food (or foods), and that's my focus. I am very "in the moment," not in the good way but in the way wherein I don't care about consequences or how I'll feel after I eat X--I just think about eating X. I eat very, very fast. I usually eat beyond one or two reasonable portions. I almost always binge on a particular food category. I almost always am avoiding what I have (counterproductively and falsely) labeled a negative emotion. I am often physically and mentally tired. I'm alone. I have a feeling of the food controlling me rather than me controlling the food. And afterwards, I often feel discouraged and ashamed. All that together is a binge for me.
I could binge on one dessert if I have all these thought processes and behaviors going on. (Maybe I stop myself and don't add too many calories to my day.) Or I could eat that same dessert mindfully, slowly, enjoyably without experiencing any binge-y thoughts and behaviors at all, so...no binge.
I've counted some days as binge days even though I was under my calories and some days as binge-free days even though I was over my calories. It all depends on my thoughts and actions...I'm trying to really focus on my approach to food rather than numbers because that's where I have to be honest with myself.
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Bev:4
Binge: 5
I want to die.
Bev, I confess that when I read things like this I feel
. I believe you are so much more than what and how you eat. And really, recovery is a process, so think in terms of progress, not perfection. Your journey isn't over--you're still battling the binge and will continue to battle it...and you will have more and more success.
I'm not sure how literally you meant your post, but if you are feeling hopeless to the point of not wanting to live, then I encourage you to reach out to a loved one and a mental health professional to share how you are struggling. Also, there are numbers you can call if are in an emotional crisis, for example 1-800-TALK (8255) (http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp) and 1-800-442-HOPE (http://www.hopeline.com/gethelpnow.html). 0 -
December 10 2012
Colleen- 5
The Binge- 4
Days over: 3
Days didn't finish diary: 2
This weekend was horrid. There is absolutely no excuse. I was having car issues AGAIN and I lost over three hours worth of my school work due to a saving error. I thought I was handling it constructively but apparently not. On Friday I went over a bit but I am not considering that a binge, because I was responsible and recorded what I ate. I also was able to manage a food that is very triggering.
The holidays and exams are always stressful but I have to remember that I don't need to go off the deep end. On the plus side, I've started taking 5-HTP at night, and it's helping me to sleep a lot better. Hoping it will help me with some of this anxiety, too.0 -
Bev:4
Binge: 5
I want to die.
:flowerforyou: ((hugs)) I know how you feel...remember, you are here for a reason!!0 -
I can't say I ate great this weekend since I was out of town, BUT not once did I get into that binge mindset (the one where I cannot focus on anything other than eating and then I just eat and eat till I feel like I will explode). I even went to a bakery and shared dessert with the bf (not saying I consider one dessert as a binge; just saying that sweet foods have triggered a binge many times before...just clarifying.) When I went to restaurants, I tried to order healthier meals and made a pt not to finish the whole plate. It's getting better.....
Me: 9
Binge: 00 -
December 2012
Diane - 5
The Binge - 40 -
So for me, defining a binge is hardly ever about calories consumed (although when I binge it is on high-calorie foods or large portions, so I do usually end up having a big overage). It's about a mindset that is then translated into behavior. When I binge, I have strong tunnel vision; I think about that one food (or foods), and that's my focus. I am very "in the moment," not in the good way but in the way wherein I don't care about consequences or how I'll feel after I eat X--I just think about eating X. I eat very, very fast. I usually eat beyond one or two reasonable portions. I almost always binge on a particular food category. I almost always am avoiding what I have (counter productively and falsely) labeled a negative emotion. I am often physically and mentally tired. I'm alone. I have a feeling of the food controlling me rather than me controlling the food. And afterwards, I often feel discouraged and ashamed. All that together is a binge for me.
I could binge on one dessert if I have all these thought processes and behaviors going on. (Maybe I stop myself and don't add too many calories to my day.) Or I could eat that same dessert mindfully, slowly, enjoyably without experiencing any binge-y thoughts and behaviors at all, so...no binge.
I've counted some days as binge days even though I was under my calories and some days as binge-free days even though I was over my calories. It all depends on my thoughts and actions...I'm trying to really focus on my approach to food rather than numbers because that's where I have to be honest with myself.
I've never thought of it like that!! I have had days where I ate too much in one sitting, but then I went and exercised and stayed below my maintenance calories so I classified it as a non binge day....probably shouldn't have, i need to watch my eating behavior and make sure its not binge-y0 -
...I am quite envious of those who consider an extra dessert to be a binge, actually, I have to say.
When I began doing this challenge several months ago, I went through a period of time when I wasn't sure what was a binge or what was simply overeating/overindulgence. Some friends from the group explained to me that each of us defines what is a binge for ourselves, so I only have to understand and define what is a binge for me.
So for me, defining a binge is hardly ever about calories consumed (although when I binge it is on high-calorie foods or large portions, so I do usually end up having a big overage). It's about a mindset that is then translated into behavior. When I binge, I have strong tunnel vision; I think about that one food (or foods), and that's my focus. I am very "in the moment," not in the good way but in the way wherein I don't care about consequences or how I'll feel after I eat X--I just think about eating X. I eat very, very fast. I usually eat beyond one or two reasonable portions. I almost always binge on a particular food category. I almost always am avoiding what I have (counterproductively and falsely) labeled a negative emotion. I am often physically and mentally tired. I'm alone. I have a feeling of the food controlling me rather than me controlling the food. And afterwards, I often feel discouraged and ashamed. All that together is a binge for me.
I could binge on one dessert if I have all these thought processes and behaviors going on. (Maybe I stop myself and don't add too many calories to my day.) Or I could eat that same dessert mindfully, slowly, enjoyably without experiencing any binge-y thoughts and behaviors at all, so...no binge.
I've counted some days as binge days even though I was under my calories and some days as binge-free days even though I was over my calories. It all depends on my thoughts and actions...I'm trying to really focus on my approach to food rather than numbers because that's where I have to be honest with myself.
Exactly, I couldn't have said it better. That's why I counted yesterday as a binge day even though it was far from a typical binge day for me.0 -
December 2012:
Mollie - 7
The Binge - 2 (1st, 2nd)
Days I did not log it all - 2 (Goal to be no more than 4 days)0 -
December 2012:
Mollie - 7
The Binge - 2 (1st, 2nd)
Days I did not log it all - 2 (Goal to be no more than 4 days)
Way to go, Mollie!0 -
10/12
Natalie: 6
Binge: 40 -
“...the reward centers of the brain--where the pleasure of those high-calorie foods registers--also respond to other substances that bring about pleasure....But those reward centers also respond to other gratifying things, like watching a sunset or experiencing a loving touch...So while you may not be able to change the wiring in your brain, you can "feed" those reward centers other pleasures...Biology isn't destiny when you have effective strategies...” ― Bob Greene, The Life You Want: Get Motivated, Lose Weight, and Be Happy
^ Found the quote and it reminded me of how I can form new habits any day.
If anyone feels like overeating to feel good today, know that there are many alternatives that can make you feel good - and they're guilt free!
- long walk
- bath
- hugs , sex
- video games. (research shows that the pleasure center is stimulated and dopamine levels in the brain increase during video games)
- music ( increases levels of dopamine, as well as increases activity in the pleasure centers when listening to music)
- drawing/writing
- going out with a friend/family member
- watching a movie
- working out - (become an endorphinaholic
)
Etc....
I know food sounds good and you might want it the most at the time, but just make a list of activities that make you happy.... turn to that list.... aim to try one of those before binge eating. Usually, it helps...because after 30 minutes the cravings will be gone....
Unless you're in a self destructive mind set all day and you're telling yourself that you need to binge, you failed, the guilt..shame...self pity... then the binge urges probably will stay all day because of all that nasty self hate.
So, choose your thoughts wisely because they can push you to binge. I know a lot of people here struggle with the black and white thinking (as I do, too!) . At-least we are all making progress, day by day.
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Me - 6
Binge - 4
Today was binge free, but a struggle as without exercise, and with the flu, I had a belly ache from hunger, and that is when on my sedentary allowance of 1670.0 -
12-10-12
Me: 8
Binge: 2
I've been doing much better since I've changed my macros to account for much fat. Still always over in fiber & sugar!0 -
Elizabeth 8
Binge 2 (12/7, 12/8)0 -
Bev: 5
Binge: 5
Tied. Hopefully I can keep up with my new eating plan...0 -
December 10
Me - 6
Binge - 4
Binge day today. :frown: Somehow I wasn't terribly high in calories like my usual binges, and I don't feel bad physically (usually I make myself sick) but mentally I'm beating myself up a bit. Tomorrow is another day to do better.
@Icey - I love what you wrote above - wish I would've read that earlier!0 -
December 2012:
Terry - 7.5
The Binge - 2.5
Logging days - 10 / 310 -
December 10, 2012
Rachael - 9
The Binge - 1 (12/7)
Overcalories - 0
Was a very busy day, but I handled it well.0 -
December 2012:
Mollie - 8
The Binge - 2 (1st, 2nd)
Days I did not log it all - 2 (Goal to be no more than 4 days)0 -
Bev:4
Binge: 5
I want to die.
Bev, I confess that when I read things like this I feel. I believe you are so much more than what and how you eat. And really, recovery is a process, so think in terms of progress, not perfection. Your journey isn't over--you're still battling the binge and will continue to battle it...and you will have more and more success.
I have felt like this. A lot. It does make me sad to read someone else writing it though. It's really amazing what this eating disorder can do to us. I like her response above, I needed to read it again today.
I am more than my weight, I am more than my body and what I look like. I am loved. It's all good. WE are loved. No punishment. No self-hate. Today is a good day.0 -
I forgot my stats. I've been tied up in binge eating, then waking up the next day telling myself I will stop but end up slipping again...
I *THINK* I have won 4 days... But I am not 100% sure, I kind of got frustrated at losing so I stopped counting while trying to beat the binge.
Me: 5 (I'm going to win today!!!)
The Binge: 60
