August Challenge - The Binge vs Me
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Me- 5
Binge- 2
Fail again today
A whole bag of combos, several handfuls of mike and ikes, mini reese bites, butterfinger bites, chocolate covered almonds, 2 cheese rolls....i am such a fatty
I've noticed when I make a binge choice, or even if I overeat at one meal, I almost have an attitude of "why bother?" for the rest of that day. Have you ever felt that way, too?
I'm trying to be aware of this thinking habit so that I can attempt to improve recovery time...to get back on track sooner, so to speak. Easier said than done, of course, but I'd like to practice.
Good luck tomorrow!
ps I think we've all berated ourselves at some point or another. (I know I have.) We are often our harshest critics. I encourage you, all of us really, to be patient and gentle with yourself. Change is a process, and I've found there are lots of twists and turns, even moving backward instead or forward, on that road. That's just the process sometimes. It's not always one success after another after another. But, that doesn't mean progress hasn't been made, or won't be made.
I can't speak for Meganalva but this is SO me!! My mindset will go to--well I already messed up already. Sometimes it is something I mindlessly eat during the day that really wasn't too bad, but I had it on my list of things I shouldn't eat and then I will binge saying I messed up already. Sometimes I will binge for a few days straight saying "Well I already messed up on____ so what does it matter?" And then there is the GUILT. I really feel I am thinking through things more because I found this group. I don't feel so alone. Now it is only the beginning of my journey, but things already seem a bit clearer to me.0 -
As of August 7
Me: 5
Binge: 20 -
I get the same mindset when I've made a bad choice on foods. Then, I just keep eating and eating. It happens where there is an abundance of food (bbq, buffet, baby showers, festivals). I need to figure out how to have my one plate and STOP eating. I've even thought maybe I shouldn't attend these gathering, but I hate for that to start happening.Me- 5
Binge- 2
Fail again today
A whole bag of combos, several handfuls of mike and ikes, mini reese bites, butterfinger bites, chocolate covered almonds, 2 cheese rolls....i am such a fatty
I've noticed when I make a binge choice, or even if I overeat at one meal, I almost have an attitude of "why bother?" for the rest of that day. Have you ever felt that way, too?
I'm trying to be aware of this thinking habit so that I can attempt to improve recovery time...to get back on track sooner, so to speak. Easier said than done, of course, but I'd like to practice.
Good luck tomorrow!
ps I think we've all berated ourselves at some point or another. (I know I have.) We are often our harshest critics. I encourage you, all of us really, to be patient and gentle with yourself. Change is a process, and I've found there are lots of twists and turns, even moving backward instead or forward, on that road. That's just the process sometimes. It's not always one success after another after another. But, that doesn't mean progress hasn't been made, or won't be made.
I can't speak for Meganalva but this is SO me!! My mindset will go to--well I already messed up already. Sometimes it is something I mindlessly eat during the day that really wasn't too bad, but I had it on my list of things I shouldn't eat and then I will binge saying I messed up already. Sometimes I will binge for a few days straight saying "Well I already messed up on____ so what does it matter?" And then there is the GUILT. I really feel I am thinking through things more because I found this group. I don't feel so alone. Now it is only the beginning of my journey, but things already seem a bit clearer to me. 0 -
August 2012
Diane : 7
The Binge: 0
Last night was another difficult night. Feeling emotional. Mostly struggling with guilt because I selfishly do not want to spend so much time with my Mom. If I have a free night I don't want it to be expected of me to spend it with her, but it is. For those that do not know, my poor 53 yr old Mother had a major stroke last Feb and is still completely paralyzed on her left side. She is a larger woman so it takes 2 people to move her and she isn't comfortable in a wheelchair for long. So she has been mostly bed bound and is in a nursing home. It is very difficult some days to find the energy to be emotionally available even if I'm physically available.
Stopped for gelato on way home from visiting Mom. Bought to go container. Wanted to eat entire thing - and I should know better than to eat out of the container! - but I didn't binge. Many successful days in a row now for me and it feels good.0 -
Note: NEVER buy cereal again.
I've felt like this. There are certain types of cereal I just simply cannot have in the house. Honey Nut Cheerios for example. Or Lucky Charms. They're not even that tasty but I know the elated and yet stuffed feeling they will give me if I eat a lot. And I cannot buy big boxes of cereal either, cuz then I want to pour bigger bowls. Sucks cuz I'm not saving any $$ buying in bulk, but that is a small price to pay to be healthier. I love cereal too, damn it. The crunch with the cold milk, mmm. I mostly buy calorie dense cereal now, with lots of fiber & protein if possible. And I use small bowls - imagine that! I used to use tupperware containers to eat cereal out of and would eat like 3-4 servings a pop. I never thought in a million years I'd want to eat Raisin Bran or Mini-Wheats. I think my favorite one is the Kashi Honey Almond Flax cereal with a whopping 8g of protein per cup.0 -
I'm always jealous of the people that say "Everything in moderation." My moderation turns into a full-blown binge everytime.
I strive to be able to do this. I am getting better at allowing myself treat food w/o the guilt - and that is helping. I still try to keep it out of the house, so if I'm gonna have something I would have to go get it. Again, this is not the most cost effective way of eating, but I just cannot shop the way I used to. I used to buy in bulk, I used to buy lots of processed food, I used to buy stuff just because it was on sale. But now it is best to just buy what I'm gonna eat in the next week or 2 and that's it. And if I want something that is only sold in larger quantities I make sure I have a plan to get rid of the remainder - like giving it to my brothers.0 -
Note: NEVER buy cereal again.
I've felt like this. There are certain types of cereal I just simply cannot have in the house. Honey Nut Cheerios for example. Or Lucky Charms. They're not even that tasty but I know the elated and yet stuffed feeling they will give me if I eat a lot. And I cannot buy big boxes of cereal either, cuz then I want to pour bigger bowls. Sucks cuz I'm not saving any $$ buying in bulk, but that is a small price to pay to be healthier. I love cereal too, damn it. The crunch with the cold milk, mmm. I mostly buy calorie dense cereal now, with lots of fiber & protein if possible. And I use small bowls - imagine that! I used to use tupperware containers to eat cereal out of and would eat like 3-4 servings a pop. I never thought in a million years I'd want to eat Raisin Bran or Mini-Wheats. I think my favorite one is the Kashi Honey Almond Flax cereal with a whopping 8g of protein per cup.
Same here on cereals but now that I buy less sugary cereals I can control binges as far as cereals go now. I actually use cereal now as a dessert. I love most of the Kashi cereals too. I have never tried the one you mentioned. I usually shy away from Kashi because of calories and cost even though I know they are super healthy depsite the calories. I will buy Kashi when on sale or in bulk with coupon.0 -
There have defintiely been times I have not gone to events because I did not feel in control enough. But like you said I try not to let this happen too many times but I do not feel guilty when I renege because of my feelings or urge to binge. I have come a long ways when it comes to binging at events and parties. I am now more of a social butterfly and this takes my mind off the food if I float around finding people to talk to and engage in pleasant conversation with. I also find when at a party I stay on the dance floor more to stay engaged instead of doing what I used to do for years and that was binge and eat off my friends plates. Now I never allow myself to eat off anyones plate and my close friends I have told to never allow me to eat off their plates. I made myself a walking garbage can for what others did not want.
I get the same mindset when I've made a bad choice on foods. Then, I just keep eating and eating. It happens where there is an abundance of food (bbq, buffet, baby showers, festivals). I need to figure out how to have my one plate and STOP eating. I've even thought maybe I shouldn't attend these gathering, but I hate for that to start happening.Me- 5
Binge- 2
Fail again today
A whole bag of combos, several handfuls of mike and ikes, mini reese bites, butterfinger bites, chocolate covered almonds, 2 cheese rolls....i am such a fatty
I've noticed when I make a binge choice, or even if I overeat at one meal, I almost have an attitude of "why bother?" for the rest of that day. Have you ever felt that way, too?
I'm trying to be aware of this thinking habit so that I can attempt to improve recovery time...to get back on track sooner, so to speak. Easier said than done, of course, but I'd like to practice.
Good luck tomorrow!
ps I think we've all berated ourselves at some point or another. (I know I have.) We are often our harshest critics. I encourage you, all of us really, to be patient and gentle with yourself. Change is a process, and I've found there are lots of twists and turns, even moving backward instead or forward, on that road. That's just the process sometimes. It's not always one success after another after another. But, that doesn't mean progress hasn't been made, or won't be made.
I can't speak for Meganalva but this is SO me!! My mindset will go to--well I already messed up already. Sometimes it is something I mindlessly eat during the day that really wasn't too bad, but I had it on my list of things I shouldn't eat and then I will binge saying I messed up already. Sometimes I will binge for a few days straight saying "Well I already messed up on____ so what does it matter?" And then there is the GUILT. I really feel I am thinking through things more because I found this group. I don't feel so alone. Now it is only the beginning of my journey, but things already seem a bit clearer to me.
Just keep on trying and being mindful of things that are mentioned above and you can succeed in not letting one bad choice spiral into a slew of bad choices and utilmately a binge. We can do this!0 -
Excellent goal!!! Thanks for sharing because I can defintiely work on this too and find it very helpful when I do eat slower and put my fork down. I order me some chop sticks to that will make me eat slower. I am waiting on them to come.My two goals this week are to chew my food slowly to savor it and to place my utensil on my plate between bites. This helped yesterday. I think maybe it's because by consciously slowing down I am more mindful, and I put a pause between me and a potential binge.0 -
T, August 7, 2012
beatrixia: 4
binge: 3 (8/1, 8/3, 8/5)
I broke the every-other-day cycle today, no binge.
But I had an incredibly strong impulse to binge--I wanted to buy a box of Hostess treats and eat the WHOLE thing. I had the presence of mind to at least confide in my husband how I was feeling, and that helped distance the urge a bit. It's just weird to me that the cravings hit every other day--I guess I never noticed before, but keeping track in this thread helped me see it. I'm still trying to figure out what emotional distress is triggering my recent urges.
I've noticed on days when I eat my first meal in the morning, and then space the others out equally, I tend to do better.
On days when my first meal is after noon, or like today, late afternoon, I tend to binge more or want to binge more.
You are adoing great by being mindful and trying to figure out what is triggering your urges to binge. This is the hardest thing to do is ask the hard questions of WHY, WHY and WHY? But in order to succeed with BED we have to ask and answer why and then figure out then how to let ourselves feel distress without turning to food. Because whatever is the stressor will still be there if we give in to the urge to binge. Thanks again for sharing!0 -
Happy Hump day all!! :flowerforyou:
I am loving the support that this thread is getting now! It is so awesome and encouraging to see people sharing their struggles and successes with BED. I love having to go back a long ways to find my last post with my tally for the month.
Thanks so much for the support because that is why we all are here -- to support one another and give back when we can.
I am finally working thru my urges and feelings and yesterday was a good day with no real urges to binge. I did over eat a bit but thankfully no binges.
Keep up the good work everyone and remember be true to yourself! Truth is your friend with BED and this thread. If you can't be honest then we will not know how to encourage or help you. I know from years of lies and denial. I was only hurting ME and no one else. I throw that out there because I know bingers are good at deceit
Just remember when you do this you are the only one being hurt, not us. :ohwell:
One day at a time!0 -
As of August 1, 2012: - Goal not to binge more than 7 days.
Me - 2
The Binge - 5 (8/1, 8/2, 8/3, 8/4, 8/6)
“None of us can change our yesterdays but all of us can change our tomorrows.” ~Colin Powell0 -
As of August 8th,
Me: 7
Binge: 1
I binged today. All my food consumption today, assuming I don't eat dinner (which I doubt I'll be hungry for) is under maintenance, but the pattern of behavior was binge-like. It is still just sitting in my stomach. I thought about purging, but didn't. Before this, I had gone 15 days without binging.
ETA: removed foods so I don't trigger anybody. I don't want to screw up anyone else!0 -
Hello all
I found out I will be losing my job soon. Somewhere between December 1st and January 1st. I wanted to binge but so far I have been talking myself out of it because eating will not help this situation. I have to be proactive and start making the necessary doctor appointments before my insurance ends and making contacts with people in my industry to look out for job openings for me. I have been here 10 years so I want to wait and get my package so on some levels my hands are tied. But there is a lot I can do to prepare for my last day that is for sure. The top priority is resume and to make sure this news does not cause me to binge.
I did cry today because even though I expected it losing a job is losing a job and not an happy occasion at all. So I am going to let myself feel sad:sad: about it and not eat about it. :noway: I am crying as I write this, but I will be OK for sure.
Have a good evening!0 -
August 8, 2012
me: 7
binge: 1
binges
Aug 1 mainly Oreos and home made bread. related to stress from crazy kids/lack of sleep due to kids and screwing up a job application deadline.
Bit of a struggle today. I was thinking of everything we have that I'd like to eat or bake. I had carrots instead and it didn't kill me.
Sorry about your job Mandie. Besides the obvious financial impact and the uncertainty, it is hard leaving people you like. I hope you have a quick job search!0 -
My name is Heather, and although I don't have BED, I am bulimic, overweight, and my biggest problem is bingeing. Feel free to add me!
(Just started this on Tuesday)
Heather - 2
The Binge - 0
So far it's going great! I used to binge every day 0 -
Hello all
I found out I will be losing my job soon. Somewhere between December 1st and January 1st. I wanted to binge but so far I have been talking myself out of it because eating will not help this situation. I have to be proactive and start making the necessary doctor appointments before my insurance ends and making contacts with people in my industry to look out for job openings for me. I have been here 10 years so I want to wait and get my package so on some levels my hands are tied. But there is a lot I can do to prepare for my last day that is for sure. The top priority is resume and to make sure this news does not cause me to binge.
I did cry today because even though I expected it losing a job is losing a job and not an happy occasion at all. So I am going to let myself feel sad:sad: about it and not eat about it. :noway: I am crying as I write this, but I will be OK for sure.
Have a good evening!
So sorry to hear this. I hope you have a short job search and your contacts can help you out. It's super scary and stressful and all you can do is just take it one day at a time. Try not to cope with food; as you said it won't help the situation. Just know we're all here to support you.0 -
As of August 8, 2012
Goal: to binge no more than 8 days.
Me: 5
Binge: 3 (8/2; 8/3; 8/4)
I was a little worried today because I was wishy-washy on going to the gym. I didn't go which usually leads to boredom which leads to eating. I had my dinner and then just started doing other things. As long as I stay busy, I'm fine.0 -
August 8, 2012
beatrixia: 5
binge: 3 (8/1, 8/3, 8/5)
~beatrix0 -
8/8/12
Me- 5
Binge- 3 (8/6, 8/7, 8/8)0 -
Binge 1
Me 0
First time poster, I'm glad I joined this group, I hope it gives me insight0 -
Me-7
Binge-1 (8/6)
Going to make it a great day today. Determined to have a "me" day :-) Learned some good insights yesterday on how I am handling stress and making sure that I am eating enough but through it all I didn't go back for more and more food like I normally would!!! I will call yesterday a success.0 -
Hello all
I found out I will be losing my job soon. Somewhere between December 1st and January 1st. I wanted to binge but so far I have been talking myself out of it because eating will not help this situation. I have to be proactive and start making the necessary doctor appointments before my insurance ends and making contacts with people in my industry to look out for job openings for me. I have been here 10 years so I want to wait and get my package so on some levels my hands are tied. But there is a lot I can do to prepare for my last day that is for sure. The top priority is resume and to make sure this news does not cause me to binge.
I did cry today because even though I expected it losing a job is losing a job and not an happy occasion at all. So I am going to let myself feel sad:sad: about it and not eat about it. :noway: I am crying as I write this, but I will be OK for sure.
Have a good evening!
So, so sorry about your job. I wish you all the best in everything you do. I don't know if it'll help, but when you feel like binging maybe you should start writing about your feelings (at the time) whether it be on here or in a journal. It'll keep you busy along with having to take those proactive steps in finding another job. You can do this!0 -
As of 8/9:
Me: 7
Binge: 1 (8/4)0 -
As of Thurs. 8/9:
Me: 6
Binge: 2 (8/7 and 8/8)
On Tues. 8/7, my left foot starting hurting, swollen, red, couldn't walk etc. (I have a bunion which till now really was ugly but otherwise painless). Of course whenever I have a problem such as this it gets me depressed and I eat (and eat and eat). Did the same thing on Wednesday. Anyways, I went to foot doc and he says not to exercise until Monday and that I need full joint replacements on both big toes because joint is all gone. I am taking this as a positive because it will be good in the long run. So today I am committed to staying under my calories because it's the smart thing to do and the kind thing to do for my body until I see the doc on Monday. Most likely I will have the surgery in October and resume exercise next week when the pain calms down which it already is. I guess I need to learn how to deal with obstacles like this without getting depressed. Thank you for listening.0 -
August 2012
Diane : 8
The Binge: 0
Yay -, my belt and I agreed on the 6th hole today! I was at 6 holes last January when I got down to the lowest I've been at 234 and although I'm not down to that weight yet again, I'm pleased about the belt. All this strength training is making a difference on my body shape!0 -
Congrats DIane on loser belt!!! Awesome job!! Keep up the good work!August 2012
Diane : 8
The Binge: 0
Yay -, my belt and I agreed on the 6th hole today! I was at 6 holes last January when I got down to the lowest I've been at 234 and although I'm not down to that weight yet again, I'm pleased about the belt. All this strength training is making a difference on my body shape!0 -
Thanks for comments, recommendations and support regarding my post about my possible job loss. I feel better today. My binge yesterday was not too bad but still a binge. Another controlled binge if there is such an animal.
This weekend I have a convention starting tomorrow so it is very rare to binge since I am super busy and socially engaged all 3 days. So I will use these days to get out of this terriable bing cycle I am in right now.
Have a wonderful day all and we can do this!
As of August 1, 2012: - Goal not to binge more than 7 days.
Me - 2
The Binge - 6 (8/1, 8/2, 8/3, 8/4, 8/6, 8/8)
“None of us can change our yesterdays but all of us can change our tomorrows.” ~Colin Powell0 -
Hello all
I found out I will be losing my job soon. Somewhere between December 1st and January 1st. I wanted to binge but so far I have been talking myself out of it because eating will not help this situation. I have to be proactive and start making the necessary doctor appointments before my insurance ends and making contacts with people in my industry to look out for job openings for me. I have been here 10 years so I want to wait and get my package so on some levels my hands are tied. But there is a lot I can do to prepare for my last day that is for sure. The top priority is resume and to make sure this news does not cause me to binge.
I did cry today because even though I expected it losing a job is losing a job and not an happy occasion at all. So I am going to let myself feel sad:sad: about it and not eat about it. :noway: I am crying as I write this, but I will be OK for sure.
Have a good evening!
Bless your heart!! I really feel for you but you have exactly the right idea. Be your own best friend and let yourself have a good cry. Take care xxx0 -
Me: 7
Binge chimp: 2
Really angry with myself for having a 2 day bender - not pleasureable in the slightest and all due to feeling out of control (my husband gave the children the choice of where to eat as they'd put up with Mummy and Daddy being uselessly poorly for a week and they said 'Pizza Hut'!) I don't even like PIzza Hut but I ate tonnes and felt rubbish, which then screwed up my IBS, which then screwed up my sleep, which then screwed up the following day as well! CORRECTION - It was ME - I screwed up the whole thing; not my children, not my IBS, not lack of sleep - ME. I WILL take responsibility!!
Everyone is doing so well on here. You all have my admiration. I'm back on the wagon today despite having no money to go food shopping and doing a picnic with friends! 0
