S, Dec 1

beatrixia: 1
The Binge: 0

Beatrixia the Binge Slayer!

As of 11.30.2012-12.01.2012.

Me: 1
The Binge: 1

Evened up. Yikes, didn't mean for it to strike a binge, but it happens. Tomorrow is a new day. (:

Me: 0.5
The Binge: 0.5
Overcals: 1 (day over calories, not calories over.

This is a tough one. I didn't binge like I normally do, but at the same time, I snacked and went over on my calories. Not hugely, but enough to make today a wash weight-loss wise. I call today a draw!
But, tomorrow is...another day! (Cue music)

December 2012:

Terry - 1
The Binge - 0

Logging days - 1 / 30

Natalie: 0
Binge: 1

But today will be different. December WILL be different.

Mo---1
Binge---0

Starving, Binge?. GET USED TO IT!!!

December 2012

Diane - 0
The Binge - 1

I'm going to be honest. Lately I find it hard to manage a day that doesn't go 3,000+ calories.

Today I was thinking I should eat phase 1 of south beach, that didn't work. I don't like telling myself I can't have whole grains or fruit. Too restrictive. But I can't get over the fact that I gained 7 lbs. That makes me mad and I want to run to the first thing that promises me immediate results. Sugar still controls me (I don't mean grains and fruit. I mean sweets and junk food - one bite of it makes me want more. more. more.)
I keep telling myself I will be happy once I get into a healthy BMI and thats everything I need to strive for. But that's not really true because I need to solve this binge eating issue, the weight isn't the big problem... it's the relationship with food. Everything would line up smoothly if I didn't struggle with binges. I could slowly lose all the weight and never gain it back if weight was the only issue.


So... I'm trying to evaluate myself... but I don't know why I keep bingeing. I feel like I want to do the best ever. And then it goes completely opposite. I can't say I love food when I continuously eat more and more servings of one thing. Thats not loving - that's something else. It's like I won't see it the next day, like I need it to comfort me. Or I need something to make me not think. Distraction. It's so hard to know why.
I feel like I have way too many triggers.

There are trigger foods in the house and I can't get rid of them because other people like them.
I feel like I should be able to deal with my stress productively but I am finding it's very hard. Not because I don't have other alternatives.... but because I seem to choose food over them. I still want the food more than any other alternative (like a bath, walk, reading over my blogs, etc)

Why Do I feel this way? Is it just a sucky self control? Lack of motivation? Can you make any sense of this because I don't understand myself somedays. =/

Negatives: I have binged twice this month,
Positives: I logged everything.

Me: 0
The binge: 1