Today I woke up about 3pm which due to bipolar has become normal recently. Once I got up though I felt human for first time in weeks and had a shower, changed my bed clothes, caught up with washing up pile and cloths washing pile. It does not sound like much but it is massive progress from being semi-comatose for weeks. I am hoping to get out for a walk tomorrow. Sometimes people tell me to take it easy after emerging from those states but I have to seize the day while I can because in few weeks I will re-enter the depressed coma state as is the challenge of rapid cycling bipolar. I am having third round of blood tests on tuesday which I hope show either what is wrong or come back normal and then I can start Lithium and hope that miraculously stops this nightmare. The last 4 years have been this constant rapid cycling bipolar. Before that is was regular slow bipolar. At least I know the bad times will not last years, I only have to hang on for weeks or months now before become human again. Still it feels an unreasonable way to have to live. I just keep reminding myself there are always people far worse off.