satchel2008 wrote: »

October week 1
Weigh in day Friday
PW: 255
CW: 244

143tobe wrote: »

Daily post: Oct 4 (Friday)
Track: yes
Calories: yes
Exercise: no

Comments

Took a rest day, it was the day after my long run. I had nothing left in me. I had to walk my dog in the morning but since I pretty much slithered along the path, I'm not even going to try and call it exercise.

So here is a photo from my race. What I want to talk about is the difference between how good I felt about myself before the race, and how different I felt after seeing this photo.

Before the race: I'm nervous. Everyone is looking at me. Are they looking at me because I clearly don't look like them? Are they looking at me because I'm totally rocking my running outfit? Well, I don't care. I AM rocking my look and I look good. I look like a runner.

After seeing my race photo Oh my god, is that really how I look? I look so bottom heavy. My thighs look too big. I don't look like the other runners. Maybe that's why everyone was staring at me. Maybe they thought I was too fat to be a runner. Maybe they doubted I could finish. I don't look like a runner.

I HATE that after working for so long and so hard to lose 82lbs, my mind still goes there. I just achieved a great personal accomplishment and in one moment, I went from pride, self love and self acceptance, to such self criticism, negative self talk and almost shame. Just...be good to yourselves. However far you've come, and however far you still have to go. You are beautiful (yes, the men too), and you are worth it. Don't compare yourself to others. There's only one you, there's only one me. Are you trying harder today than you did maybe a year ago? A week ago? The fact is, we are HERE, we are trying every day to improve our health. We may never have the body we hoped for, or dreamed of, even after all the weight is lost. Are you stronger than you were yesterday? Are you still here tying? Then be proud. A single photo or a number on the scale will never define us or tell us who we are. I think who we are is pretty darn awesome. I'm going to Choose to focus on that.

143tobe wrote: »

Daily Post

Daily Post (Thursday)

Comments: Oh my gosh you guys, I did it. I ran my half marathon, and it was HARD. But I still smashed it. I posted this on my wall:

Yesterday my husband and I ran a half marathon together. I've spent the past 10 weeks training for it, and I knew it would be a more difficult course than my training runs, but neither of us were prepared for how hard it actually was. The run was almost entirely uphill. Not complaining, I love trail running but this was a tough one for sure. My training runs were usually about half trail, half pavement. On my training runs I ran at a comfortable but somewhat exerted pace. My purpose was to just get my body used to running the distance I needed to. My husband and I really pushed ourselves. This time, it was an actual race. True, we were running only against ourselves, but this was the the event we've been training for. We wanted to kill it. And we did. I beat my fastest half marathon time by over 10 minutes! And on a course that was at least twice as hard. Am I proud of myself? Yes, yes I am. And I am SO proud of my husband.

walk4today wrote: »

Username: walk4today
Week: October week 1
Weigh in day: Saturday
PW 244.6
CW: 247.8

I'm embarrassed to say I've gained again. For some reason when I get near 240, I can't seem to get below it and I start gaining again. Life happens and I still use food to cope with stress. A few years ago I was up to 267 so I know I can make progress, it's just so slow and a setback (a gain) just is so discouraging. Pardon my rant! Plus my birthday is coming and I have weddings to attend in November, so I'm feeling some self-imposed pressure, which sometimes can backfire, I think. Sorry I have not been helping the team much. I'll get more walking in this week.