Kenzierenzieroo

Weigh in

PW: 225.2
CW: 225.0

Weekly steps:
5/25 30,219
5/26 11,573
5/27 19,756
5/28 8,620
5/29 6,045
5/30 24,297
5/31 5,975
Total Steps: 106,485

Worked from home for most of the day today, so I was not very active. I had to finish some reporting before the end of the month and finished 2 minutes before midnight. Sorry about being late for my post.

Then, I decided to fold up some laundry for a couple hours before going to bed. I slept for maybe an hour and apparently I'm awake for the day. My sleep is the worst. I would love to sleep more than 4-5 hours in a night. I can usually fall asleep in a wink, but I usually wake up after about 2 hours. Sometimes I'm able to get back to sleep, and sometimes I spend the next couple hours trying or giving up and accepting being awake for the day. It always seems like there is something that needs to be done, and I can't turn off my brain and rest.

melaniedscott here...

my challenges this week will be:
1: (as stated before) 30 minutes of deliberate walking (I don't count whatever running around the house I do)
2: 64 ounces of water every day.

I used to be really good at water but have stared slacking. I get dehydrated really easy so this is bad.

Saturday I was great with exercise but ate the world. Very bad. Did some core work. Yesterday ate less (but husband brought ice cream...grrr...yum) but cals were a bit too high. And was an utter slug. Back felt better. Did no core. Woke up to lower back and hip pain again.

Back to work (from home) today...WILL take at least 2 walk breaks and do core work. Aaparently, even a little helps.

This is supposed to be my last week working from home. Don't know how I feel about going back. Nervous? My asthma can be scary in normal times... rampant respiratory infections are horrible...my town hasn't seen many cases, but the town I work in has more. We're surrounded...

Sunday check in:
Day one of cleanse went well. Always happy to take control.
Molly and I did some massive weeding and yard work. Looks so much nicer.
Water-lots

My weight went back down this morning as I figured it would. Taking it one day at a time. I was 153.8 and really happy about that. But last week that was my then high and very dismayed. It's all in perspective.
I am feeling optimistic about June.

Work update-This morning a hiring freeze was announced. Looks like we will be staying put for awhile. Red light. That's ok with us. We are repairing the pool heater. A summer by the pool sounds fun to me.

@kenzierenzieroo - I spent several years only getting a few hours sleep at night. Have you tried melatonin or CBD oil? Maybe doing light yoga before bed might help you stay asleep?

@melaniedscott - "Ate the world" - that's such a funny but all too true phrase. We all have those days. You'll get through it! Keep up the great work!

@Mrsbell8well - Your're right about perspective. Keep reminding yourself how good it felt the first time you hit this weight coming from the other direction of the scale and keep visualizing your goal. You'll get this!

@twyla77 - Such a cute bunny!!!!

@podperson1 - Wonderful loss and congratulations on achieving your stone goal!

Hopping on the scale today, I'm up almost 3 lbs from last Wednesday. I know why. I know that I over-ate at least two days, and I know that TOM will arrive any day now. I know that my hormones are working against me right now and that I'm bloated due to my cycle. I know these things.

But knowing it in my head doesn't stop me from experiencing all those negative emotions I had from being overweight. Feeling bloated feels on par with being fat, and today especially, I'm right back to telling myself that I can't be successful. Which is crazy because I HAVE been very successful - it's just hard to believe it when I feel bad physically.

But on the positive side, I did my FB workout today and have eaten clean. I need to drink more water, but so far I'm staying on plan. Still have to do my meal plan for the week. I'm glad I can share my ups and downs with y'all. Today is a down day, but I'm going to keep pushing to get up again.

Sunday check in
Food - on target
Water - 64 oz
Exercise-45 min walk

I did well at my barbecue yesterday. I had one frozen drink because my sister in law wanted me to try it. I also paid attention to my hunger scale and stopped eating when I was satisfied. I wanted a turkey burger and a hotdog and decided to just eat 1/2 of each. I was tempted to finish them and in the past I would have but I stopped myself.

It is hard not to be distracted by all of the rioting going on in the US. I am right outside Philadelphia and last night the some of the rioting not far from where we live. It is not only scary but just very disheartening. I don't know where we are going to go from here.


@podperson1 Congratulations on hitting your stone goal! You really have come far since the end of the year! You have a great plan to move forward. You are going to have a successful June!
@twyla77 Nice loss! I am glad you are doing so well on the cleanse and more importantly feeling so well! Idk if you are MFP with carlsoda but she was very successful with the whole 30. I actually know a few of MFP friends really did well on it. You will have to keep us posted on how it goes. I love the picture of little Lukey! I am sure he deserves all the spoiling he gets! He is so handsome and I am not just saying that because I am his MFP aunt.
@tryingagain5 I was happy to see that people were getting together to clean up too. I don't know what the answer is but things can't continue like they are.
@Mrsbell8well What a nice idea to do the show and tell video. I hope your days keep getting better. Looks like the hiring freeze came at a good time, now you don't have to rush to make any decisions.
@CassieGetsFit2013 Nice loss! You really ended May strong!
@nstephenson01 Love your goals for June, you are setting yourself up for success!
@Cafelelia What a change from the beginning of May to the end for you! Let's have a great June too!
@GingerPwr It is easy to fall right back into negative feelings. I appreciate you sharing your feelings so we know even people who are successful can experience this. I am glad you recognize it and can move forward. It will be so cool when you finish the fitness challenge to see the difference! What a great idea. It will be motivating to see how far you have come, although the bar is set pretty high to begin with.
@brown6267 Congratulations on hitting your goals and starting maintenance!
@pacsnc6 We are so happy you have stuck with us with all that you have been through.
@JillyBT I would be surprised if he doesn't have mono, especially with the liver enzymes being up. I am glad that he is starting to feel better. My son got hit pretty hard with mono when he was in high school. It is funny how different the severity is, I also had a son who never knew he had it. You are dealing with so much, I feel the same way and I don't have my parents to worry about or a sick son. Sending hugs!
@danisp Welcome! I hope you get as much from this group as I have! I like your June goals!
@kenzierenzieroo Nice loss! Heading in the right direction! Amazing steps too! Not getting enough sleep is the worst! Is this a problem you usually have?
@melaniescott I am always happy to have another friend from "down under"! I get confused with time but forgive me. Kristie is used to it by now I think. You have a great plan for the week. Don't beat yourself up over the overeats this weekend. Instead, focus on what you can do next time. Maybe plan when your husband brings home ice cream or a treat that you have a smaller amount. It is interesting how much better things go when you have a plan. What do you do for core? I am seriously slacking in that department and maybe that is why my lower back hurts...
@xX_PhoenixRising_Xx I actually think that is a beautiful pic of you even with you being knackered. Your cat does have the life Lol!
@lennoncpa I have to do the same thing with sending left overs home or I am too tempted too. I am glad you were able to spend some time with your son and his girlfriend. How is your other son and Sunny? I hope he is safe and lives far from the rioting.

@podperson1 I’ve gotten hooked on the “outlander” tv series. Not sure if you’ve seen it or not but the majority of the characters speak with a Scottish accent so I find myself talking to myself (not out loud!!) with a Scottish accent. So funny. I’ve never been to Scotland but it is definitely on my bucket list. Who knows, maybe some day I will visit your town!

I too have been digging out old photos. It’s a strange thing to do during this lockdown and it has sure stirred up memories of friends. As far as the pictures of me, well most of the pictures were at least 20 to 30 years ago so I’ve accepted that my body is different now and that I really won’t be looking like that these days! It’s strange but at every weight, even the weight from 20 to 30 years ago, I always thought I was overweight Even though now when I look at the photos I believe I looked fine. I’ve just always been critical of myself. Maybe it’s a good motivator.