so guess who is poking her head in the door?

lol

Obviously my life has been taking a whirlwind tour this year, and I'm still not quite off the boat yet. We just got back from a conference in St. Louis, have a camping trip with my family planned in August, finally get to take our honeymoon in September, have friends coming up in October, and a possible vacation with my best friend. And that's after the wedding and trips north to move the new hubby down here, camping, ren faire, reception, and family reunion in May/June/ and July!

Unfortunately, my diet has stalled out completely and I've lost a lot of ground. to the tune of 40 lbs regain. My energy levels are dead. This time last year, I was doing cardio at least twice a week and walking 5 miles almost every day. This year? Just the thought of going to the middle school track to walk for 30 minutes sounds exhausting. and forget the cardio. *sigh* I'm having enough trouble getting housework done; I put it off terribly. Same with mowing the grass. We have to mow tonight and I"m dreading it something awful. The hubby can get the riding mowing done, but I badly need to weedwhack and he can't do that part. He can't do the close mowing with the push mower, either.

My thyroid levels are fine; just had them checked. I had thought that was the problem the last time I hid a plateau and regain period, but apparently not. I can't get the brain control switch flipped again and I know that I am eating too darn much. It's trickier too because the hubby eats low carb but very high fat, and we've had too much of that sort of stuff in the house. Might have low carbs, but the calorie counts are cringeworthy!


I also began a new position within my company the first of July. Because of vacation schedules, I haven't gotten much training in yet, but I am truly hoping that this new position will relieve the stress I was under with the old one. So far its looking up.


I've been trying to get back to calorie counting, and today is my latest attempt. I came back here, put in my latest weight reading, and have set up a menu for the next 3 weeks. I"m trying very hard to not eat breakfast and eat lunch as late as I can push myself. I'm doing well on that front as I can usually wait until 11:00 before the urge to eat wins, but the snacking in the afternoon and evening is a problem. I've found that if I do eat breakfast, then I still struggle to rein in the eating in the evening, but have fewer calories to buffer it, so this is why I'm trying the no breakfast thing.

The new hubby wants to support me and knows he needs to do more as well for his own diet. For health reasons, he needs to eat low carb but has been pretty bad about it since the wedding, so this week we are both trying to get back into the swing. He also tries to eat OMAD. He has never tracked the exact amount he was eating, though, as he has said that tracking was something he absolutely detested. He was on a diet drug monitored by his previous PCP, but was taken off because of blood pressure. The good news is that he didn't regain the 15 lbs he had lost, but he hasn't lost anything since, either.

I went in and signed him up for MFP and told him I'd track it for him and that we'd focus on using the tool to get to his carb goals for the day. He's set at 10% carbs and is trying to eat under 60 a day. I think tracking will help him see that he was eating more than he thought he was and to start associating the calorie load with the carb. He was the sort who never looked at the serving size on a package and wasn't realizing that he was eating 3 or 4 servings at a time. Or 7, in the case of one of his favorite snacks - pistachios.

So while lots of new things in my life have been great - we are still in the twitterpated stage, even after 3 months of 24/7 proximity thanks to my working from home and his still looking for a new job But I've got to figure out how to get the diet reigned back in, get the 40 lbs off I regained, and get the next 30 lb I wanted from there. On the good news front, I haven't gone up a clothing size, but I'm getting close.

The county is building a swimming pool complex that is supposed to open in the fall. it has 2 indoor pools in it. The membership is pricey but both the hubby and I think membership may well be worth the hassle of driving the 30-40 minutes 5 days a week to swim as that's an activity he loves to do and its easier on the body.

Anyway, I'm not completely gone and haven't given up!

Made an intro post yesterday in the applicable place but now y'all get a real intro into the world that is Debbie. Cause its not quite 4 am, im in pain and ticked at my insurance company and need to *kitten* and theres no one to *kitten* to at this hour so yall get to hear it.

lucky you.

background - woke up monday morning with a horrible mystery pain on my left side (internally) kind of in between my hips and ribs, is the best place to describe it. not constipated, not gassy, no vomiting, no fever, literally no other symptoms other than a constant pain level of a 5 that intermittently spikes to a 9-10, mostly with movement but not always, sometimes when im perfectly still. so basically im ALWAYS hurting, just sometimes REALLY bad. no known reason for this to have begun. break down that afternoon and call my doc. They are able to squeeze me in tuesday afternoon, hubby will take off work early to take me (my doc is almost 2 hours away and hubby doesnt want me driving that far in this condition). fine.

my anxiety had me terrified they were going to throw me in the hospital. so i had a bag packed and in the car cause i figured that was the only thing i could control, right? right. anyway...

doc doesnt know whats wrong.

join the club, dude.

doesnt throw me in hospital though, but almost wish he he had. we'll get to that in a minute. schedule a CT for wednesday 9am. ok. i can deal with that. hubby tells me if bestie can not take me to do the CT, he will. okay. send her a text. bestie is available. And promises not to go to comic book store and wreck my car (which is what her husband did to HER when she recently had a procedure done and he was supposed to be dutifully waiting). I offer to buy breakfast in gratitude. deal.

Drive the almost 2 hours back home and stop by drugstore to get the painkillers prescribed that may or may not work (i have a stupid high tolerance but ill try). note: i may as well have eaten tic tacs.

Just as hubby gets back in car with my drugs, docs office calls, the insurance company DENIED THE CLAIM FOR THE CT SCAN. why? Because im allergic to iodine and the CT scan has to be done without contrast. Because if you put that much iodine directly into my body, I WILL DIE. okay, maybe not since id be in a medical facility and *presumably* they could keep me alive but still. bad bad *kitten* would happen and id really rather not.

They have no record of that allergy test. It was 20 years ago. My diagnosis could have changed. I could be making it up for all they know (who the *kitten* would make up a random *kitten* allergy like IODINE?). They want a new allergy test done. Which would be fine. Except now its after 5pm, and what CLOSES at 5pm? yup. all the scheduling offices. So NOW... CT is postponed until either (1) the doc can sweet talk their heads out of their *kitten* or (2) I can get an allergy test and lay ON MY STOMACH WHICH IS EXTREMELY PAINFUL and get another allergy test done.

just for them.

Like i said, would have been easier if he had just thrown my *kitten* in the hospital for the night

i truly just feel like having a nervous breakdown and crying but it wouldnt solve anything and one of our great pyrenees is already on edge (i think he can tell im not feeling well) and hes being a jerk to the other dogs and me getting upset would just make that worse, which would make ME worse, and im in no shape to break up a dog fight right now.

so, hi, im debbie. nice to meet you.