yesterday was pretty darned awesome...calories at poverty...no 10 min morning workout, but ran at lunch, and did weights before dinner, even though I was busy painting for the kitchen reno, it was a pain, but I did it and made it a priority...did have to skip some of the weights as that tweaky muscle in my back started to complain BUT I'm not in pain this morning, so no injury and it isn't all aggravated again, which is a huge bonus...6 lbs loss is the goal this month and that's an enormous amount for me, so need to stop making excused and stay on track...keep tweaking until it works!!!

Monday was good, poverty calories which was a total struggle bus as I was crazy hungry with massive overdrive of appetite the whole day...it is PMS week, so I guess that's to be expected, but I super hate the hungry days...I stuck to protein and veggies and made it through still in poverty, so that was GREAT...also ran and stretched some...I really need to up the stretching game...

Wed was solid...ran at lunch...didn't do any of my normal walking because I got stuck in stupid meetings at work and missed ALL OF IT...then after work I had to make bread bowls and head to a friends house for chili...was super delicious, and I logged in advance, and I had a beer, and I was still within calories...win for volunteering as the DD and win for the poverty calories...

down another pound and a half this morning, 156.6 is the new number to beat

well, the scale has bounced up back to almost where I started at this point...

friday was maintenance, had some drinks and such...sat and sun were poverty...workouts all around, ran on friday, weights over the weekend...super cool...picked up the child friday, dinner out sat and sun and STILL in poverty, it was an amazing move of planning ahead...nice win for me despite that ho of a scale...

yesterday was good...less of a struggle...actually came in decent on protein too...always nice...managed to avoid the temptation presented by chicken alfredo and stick to chicken on my salad...also instant-potted some eggs for future salads...I think that will help make them "stick" a little longer...

I did have a weird evening thing after dinner where I was jittery and light headed...but on further reflection, I think it's possible that was not a blood sugar issue but more of a hot flash or hormone issue as those make me feel light headed as well...it's been so long since I had one I forgot how they feel...might need to up the DIM again as I cut it back to 3/day instead of 6/day about 3-4 weeks ago...

tonight is dinner out with some friends, so I'll need to be diligent and on top of things is I want to stick to my poverty goals...also the weekend is graduation, so saving my maintenance day for that

Thursday - excellent, workouts done and food on target

Friday - went to graduation...food was mostly on target sans whiskey...no exercise and lots of time sitting

Saturday - went to graduation...didn't really track food at all, but ate to appetite...no exercise and lots of time sitting

Sunday - visited friends...didn't track but ate to appetite, had mimosas so probably over on calories as those add up quick...again no exercise, but did stand most of the day, too tired of sitting

Monday - excellent, workouts done and food on target

holidays are hard, but I'm doing my best

Wed-Sat all included alcohol...not a lot but a drink here and there...no super amounts of drinking...I did have like 5 or 6 whiskies on friday, but that was from like 5pm to about midnight, so just social drinking not getting trashed, though the calories still add up...food was to appetite, not crazy, not stuffing myself...back to tracking sunday and doing the workouts and sticking to poverty...

currently 162, but not only can I feel the puffiness in my hands from the rich salty foods, but it's also pms week, so there's an unknown amount of water retention skewing the scale...we'll see how it goes after getting back on track for a few days

tues was a poverty day, wed more of a poverty day than the fast it was supposed to be, thursday is a poverty day, on target...recovery week workouts which is cool...tomorrow will be fasting until dinner, then having friends over for chili

Saturday was awesome, both workouts done, food on target, could have used a bit more protein, but it was a veggie dinner, so protein was actually really good all things considered...did some thrift store shopping and found cool stuff for the baby...also watched lots of supernatural, should have walked between episodes because today my hips are killing me...today is glutes, so that will be super hard, but also awesome because my booty is looking a bit flat and needs to be rounded out like a ton more!!!!

Tuesday was good, poverty, plenty of protein, weights complete even though I had to break them into 2 sections to fit them in...did have to take an Aleve because I was so sore, but stayed away from the wine despite how tempting it was!!!

Thursday was solid despite having to improvise and eat at 5 guys

their grilled cheese is delicious and saves some cals over a plain little burger which I find far less satisfying, so all in all, good choices made and still in goal for the day despite not being able to stick to plan

today is a modified plan, but planned, and travel today and tomorrow means likely 2 shakes per day to meet protein goals with road food, but I have a plan and so far that plan is good, so let's do this thing!!!

wed - maintenance

still struggling with massive hunger

I think it's likely hormonal, I have ordered an additional supplement, and doubled my DIM dosage...I am also having trouble sleeping and waking up at 4:30 am for no freaking reason so I do think it's just a combination of PMS week and peri-menopause hormone shifts

I'm also going to do a dumb thing and add ginger tea and lemon juice to my morning coffee...which in theory should help with appetite and digestion, but I have my reservations about that one...I can try it for a couple weeks and just see if I feel any differently or if it helps at all with the raging freaking appetite that I'm so tired of...

yesterday I went through my diet calendar and physically wrote the big pink M on the days I was maintenance (or failed to log) for the month

there were actually only 6 even though they were mostly clustered in the last week...while that's not the way maintenance calories are supposed to work - by plan you never have them back to back - it doesn't erase that I'm not seeing progress as I anticipated on my January plan...I'm really not losing any weight on the scale...I'm not losing any inches in my waist...and I'm not looking visually any slimmer in the belly...that's a lot of work tracking and working out and many many poverty days with no measurable progress...

so, tweaked the plan for feb...took out the running because the weather is just not cooperative and running in the living room is clearly just not the same level of effort and clearly not cutting it...switched to huge beast instead of lean best - had never tried lean before jan, but have seen results with huge, so going back to what I know works, the lean schedule is just not intense enough for me, I think...also added in an extra glute day still using BBL high and tight, mostly because that makes it a weekly schedule instead of a shifting 6 days and for me to stay on track it's just easier if ever day of the week keeps the same exercise for the week because weekend travel gets in the way so I try to make my saturday a rest day...also added in a "doubles" custom version, which is to say Total Body on M/W/F...I will do that at light weights, I'm thinking just 5 lbs to treat it more like a cardio workout and a recovery kind of light muscle activation workout, which I'm hoping will boost up the results a bit...I know I super need to stay on top of nutrition if I'm going to push that hard, so that's goal #2, get the protein in, keep the carbs low, get good food not junk food...

Let's see how feb goes and maybe some better results...winter is a hard time to lose for me anyway, but normally I'm better than this, so time to step it up!!!

Did great yesterday (monday) except for a late night snack, which I logged into today...I'd rather struggle a bit today than be over yesterday...so, planning ahead, and hopefully that's a winner...scale is up today (161) but boobs are enormous and sore, so not sure what's water weight from PMS or what's real...who knows these things????

I feel so gross and icky today...also stomach not happy...this might work well for keeping calories down, but it's going to be total havoc on motivation...just focusing on getting through the day...