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I feel like I'm reading about myself when I read this... :noway: I had my first panic attack when I was a senior in high school. I literally thought I was dying or going crazy, or both. The second one happened at school, I literally stood up, said "I need to leave, now" and ran to the nurse. I felt like I wasn't…

THIS! Night-snacking is my worst enemy! I too, tend to "save" calories because I almost always meander into the kitchen at night. I lose weight so much faster if I just don't eat after 7 PM.. The only way I can truly stay away is if I'm immersed in a good book, or dead tired.. other than that, it's a huge…

I have big arms, broad shoulders, tiny waist, bigger hips and thighs.. big butt, barely any boob-age left.. Some things look ghastly on me... :huh: :embarassed: Sorry bout the lady, shoulda given her the what for! :grumble: .. Well, maybe not - but sometimes we all need our skin thickened a teenie bit! Best wishes..…

I think you're a little late ... :ohwell:

So sorry.. :cry:

I almost got one of mine taken off... unfortunately it's the biggest tattoo I have and it goes down my spine.. pure black, tribal.. that's supposed to be an arm-band. God, could it get any worse, really? Ugh, the shame.. Had it fixed, looks a little better. I'm not afraid of it anymore.:indifferent: :laugh: Best of luck to…

Depends on what your heart is broken from? Let yourself go through the steps... You know, denial, anger, sadness, hopelessness, "hey theres hope", hell yeah there's hope, etc! Eat a whole carton of ice cream on the couch watching sad movies and cry your eyes out holding onto something soft, in your pajamas. Cry yourself to…

I am not an only child. I do have a brother who's 13 years older than me. But my dad has 10 brothers and sisters, so our family is huuuuuuge. :bigsmile:

 Thanks. It’s not for me.. I seriously can’t even have a drink out in public with feeling intense paranoia and start panicking because I swear I’m going to lose my marbles right there and I won’t be able to save myself if something goes wrong. I could never do drugs, lol. My mind just couldn’t handle it. I respect…

As possible as that may be, it won't ever, and I mean ever, happen. Not only due to my personal feelings about them, but because I'm a criminal justice major in college and I can't afford to risk my career after I've worked so hard. I saw your edit. And no, I would never consider it. I refuse to take any type of medication…

I'm glad y'all can relate.. makes me happy to know I'm not as alone as I thought I was! My fiance is very outgoing, loves social situations, lots of people. We balance each other out very well, but in the beginning it was a true struggle to do anything and I got burnt out very quickly. I still need time to "re-energize" by…

I have googled "I feel like I live in the wrong era" maybe 10 times. lol. I completely agree!

I've been much more "out of the box" since I met my fiance. Before him I questioned myself a little. I spent too much time alone. He just drags me out and around - and I've noticed without him I still like to meander around. I like being in public around people, but alone.. in public. If that makes any flipping sense at…

No worries.. I don't offend easily or anything. lol. Maybe my brain was just hard-wired to be an old fart from the beginning. Plus, I wouldn't look good naked on a wrecking ball, or bald.

Irrational fear of throwing up... emetophobia. Not being able to leave somewhere; no matter how big or small the place is. Sleeping with my face towards the couch. Anything biting my fingers.

Funny, but absolutely not.

How odd... I used to constantly say "It smells like death," when my aunt was dying of lung cancer... she died on 1-2-2003 and after she died, I could still smell it around certain people, I always creeped my mom out.. The street lights on my fiance's road constantly go out when I drive past them, I was always told it was…

You look amazing!!! I have stretchmarks too (with no kids!) and I call 'em my tiger stripes. :smokin: Congratulations!!

I was making pretzles with M&M's squished into melted kisses on top .. and every time I would go to squish an M&M in the kiss, it would stick to my finger and I would eat it. BAD! But .. it was good. :laugh: This is of no help, but I do it too. Thought about wearing a scarf over my mouth when I was making food so I'd have…

Depends on how big it was. Offer it a carrot, maybe.:flowerforyou: Used to ride horses when I was a kid. Went to random stable with mom and friend for a "trail ride." They asked me if I had experience riding, I said yes. They told me they were putting me on a horse that was near-sighted, didn't tell me the poor thing was…

I am super, super close with my family. Mom's family is from Germany, both of her parents passed a while ago. One brother lives in Ohio and the other lives next door to my parents.. My dad, however, had 10 brothers and sisters - more than half have passed, only he, his 2 brothers and sister are still alive - but his Mom is…

Well.. firstly, congratulations! :drinker: I'm trying to finish off my last 10 pounds before my physical in January. Funny how it feels more serious when your getting on the "offical doctors sale." lol.:noway: I'm not a professional, nutritionist, health expert or anything like that .. but sometimes I think my body gets…

• If you lose weight, you will be more appealing to others. What about being appealing to yourself? Health first. • If you lose weight, you can have skinny people as friends again. Who would want skinny friends, if they don’t accept you for who you are? What about your heavier friends? • If you lose weight, you will stop…

One day at a time. I don't freak out and eat things because I think I won't ever be "allowed" to have it again. I say "If I 'spend' my calories right, I can have it tomorrow - if I still want it." If I really crave something - I eat it! lol. And then "fix" my calorie intake to at least maintain that week. (ie. if I go over…

"One bad meal won't make you 'fat', just like one good meal won't make you 'skinny.'" I love this quote and I live by it. I have bad days more often than I should honestly. And my weight-loss has worked for me because I confess to myself, let it go, and move on with the mindset that the next day I can do really well if I…

I love Thanksgiving! But... I work at an airport and I have to be there at 4 AM to deal with angry, illiterate, non-direction-following passengers for 8 hours. :grumble: :grumble: :grumble:

I feel similar sometimes. When I was heavier I was pretty proportional all around, but as I've lost weight .. my thighs and arms are still bigger than the rest of my body. I truly thought I would be smaller than I am. I started at around 175-180 and am at 135 right now. I would love to be 125 but I keep maintaining and…

Thank you! .. and girl yes, we aren't using a wedding planner and Pinterest is basically my best friend right now.. :laugh:

Maybe it's something you're eating or your body isn't as tolerant to it anymore. My body's that way... maybe some IBS issues going on because I've done it since I was little.. but if I eat something that my body isn't "conditioned" to or is really rich/fatty/whatever, my stomach will KILL me within 12 hours.. it's like my…

Go you, I love this. I too, am controlled a bit by the scale - so I've tried to cut it out and rely on how my body feels and stop obsessing over "125" and realized I came from 175ish instead. Anyway! I love feeling my shoulder blades, and the bones in my arms (not to look sickly, just to see shape), and I love not feeling…