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Thank you again to everyone. You have all made me cry tears of love. I have felt more love from you than I have ever felt from my husband. Still no contact with him with the exception of a text from him yesterday telling me which party to vote for in the upcoming election. I ignored it. I am finally free from my ex-boss!…

Oops! Thanks Kida_Adelyne AND JaneiR36!

Hello my superstar, super supportive friends! Just wanted to say thank you for the latest comments and for continuing to cheer me on :smiley: I have been on MFP every day since my last update post on Wednesday (it's now Saturday), but only for long enough to answer some PMs, check some posts (thanks everyone!!) but I…

Just got a call from one of my ex boss's Assistants (who used to be one of my Assistants). She rescheduled on me again. She is at an off-site course in a city about an hour from here, and decided that, instead of coming back to the office to meet with me as planned, and allow me to get my stuff, she is going to stay the…

Thank you everyone for continuing to post supportive messages on this thread. I am sorry, because I haven't been on MFP for a few days. I've been busy with hot yoga, walking (finally, yay!), AA meetings galore, and lots of extra sleeping, oversleeping really. I have also been really sad, despite me getting a little…

Hello everyone. First off, I am sorry I didn't post last night. I went to "hot" yoga at a recommendation from an AA friend as a way to calm my mind. I loved it. I was actually sort of happy (well, not sad...) for once. I mean, you have all been SUCH a great support to me and you have made me smile and given me hope and a…

I think the invites have to be sent by zacksnana or palwithme, but since it's still open for a few days, you can search for it on the "Groups" tab and join... yay for joining us!

Yay for all the women joining this group!!!

Thank you billr9mm. I will take your suggestion into consideration. The last time I went home to get stuff, when my husband was in the shower, my dad came with me and made sure I was safe. I just got back from my latest AA meeting and when it was my time to share, I talked about all the great support that I have been…

Hello to everyone on this Monday. First of all, I am sorry this thread got kind of out of control and that there have been a couple of "fights" about some comments that were made. I know some people have commented about me using this as a support system for domestic violence, verbal abuse, my (previous) alcoholism, and my…

I have been ignoring my husband's texts today. I didn't go meet up with him like he wanted. I'm taking one day at a time. This is the strongest I have ever been. Have I "officially" left him yet? No. But this is the best I have come to it since the beginning of our relationship. I am trying to build up courage and each and…

Thank you everyone again for your comments. To the few that said I wasn't being physically abused so I shouldn't go to a women's shelter (which I haven't yet and not sure I will), I was being very physically abused. My posts have focused on the verbal abuse, because it reality, it hurts so much worse. There is rarely a day…

Wow. jdm1726, that was a very powerful message. I will think heavily about what you said. glutenfreechic I like the idea of giving myself legal advice and mailing it to myself. I might do that. My advice might be clouded with emotions though so I might wait a while until my head is a little clearer. I haven't answered his…

P.S. Just as I posted that last message, my husband texted me "how are you doing?". Why do I have the urge to reply? I won't... But I want to reply with something that will make him feel bad or want to change... Argh!

I love you all. I like the idea of setting achievable goals like you said sengalissa... And you're right, I'm starting to think through a professional lens but I'm still struggling with the idea of breaking free. I appreciate everyone who is saying "leave him now", but it's so hard to imagine such a big change. (Please…

zacknana, we kept separate bank accounts. Our deal was I would pay for most of the bills, and he would pay for the down payment on our new house. My name is not on his account but I'm sure I can get documentation through mandatory financial disclosure if we go through a divorce (the one thing about my last job is I did a…

Thanks palwithme. And 999tiger, I am in Canada.

Thank you everyone who continues to provide me loving support on this thread. What slideaway1 said... "But saying that you have to take responsibility for marrying someone who is clearly a dickhead. Surely you knew he was such a ***** when you married him." was a little hurtful as I would not have married my husband if I…

I want to believe this is all for good. Part of me feels freed from my horrible boss. But I've never been fired before and I'm scared it will ruin my reputation in the industry. I will be able to sleep tonight a) because of exhaustion and pure depression that I can't even have the strength to keep my eyes open, but more…

Hello all my supportive friends. I am so happy that you have all shared your stories and have given me some great advice. As I posted earlier, I had a nervous breakdown this morning (after an early morning "lawyers only" AA meeting). Then my boss asked me out for lunch, which was weird, because she is never that nice and…

Thanks again everyone. I am overwhelmed by how much support I am getting! I had a nervous breakdown this morning but I'm breathing again now.

Thanks everyone! I truly have been reading each and every word you all write to me and I have made such good friends on here already. I am going to another AA meeting in about an hour. Still haven't had a drop since March 28th and I plan never to again. I am also taking my medication on time now. I am scared to go to a…

I know it sounds insane. He said if I only have water for 30 days I should be able to talk to him within a month because that should do the trick. Thanks palwithme.

Thanks so much to all of you for your thoughtful comments and taking the time to share your stories and advice. I hate complaining and I hate playing the victim. I think I just really needed to hear some of that stuff. 999 - no, nothing cultural. When I talk about wanting to die, it's just thoughts. I would NEVER act on…

Thanks everyone! This is so hard for me right now I think I may have a nervous breakdown. My boss is back at work and she is being really mean to me. I am her Associate and she relies on me to make a lot of money for her, but because I am still a new lawyer, I need some mentorship (she promised mentorship when she hired me…

Thanks glutenfreechic, I Google'd the power and control wheel and it almost describes everything! I want him to see it so he can see what I see. I actually went through and highlighted all the applicable items and the whole wheel looks yellow all over now. He actually thinks, deep down, that he does not have any problems,…

Thanks everyone! I really appreciate the support flowing through this discussion! Today I went back home to pack a suitcase while my husband was in the shower so that I have more stuff to live with at my parents. You have all made me believe (slightly) for the first time, that I might be better than I project myself to be.…

Thanks eba2003... This is a hard time for me right now and I appreciate your comment. Thanks also to everyone else. I am so thankful for your support.

Thank you Pacific, Although the drinking made my anxiety and depression worse, I was severly depressed and anxiety-ridden for years before and I eventually chose alcohol to cover it. I was on anti-depressants from 2005 to 2012 and my husband made me go off of them because he said they made me "numb", which they did (Paxil,…

I will stay with my parents for a while. One thing about leaving that frightens me is telling my friends and extended family. They all love him and they do not know how he treats me. I would feel so ashamed for covering it up for so long. All the gifts they gave us as a married couple. All the cards, the conversations...…