Daily check in for Keto friends...
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Sooo... last night I was at the grocery and I took a look at my old favorite grab-from-the-checkout-line snack: the double oatmeal creampie. The clerk musta thought I was nuts because I broke out in hysterics--- 76 carbs for the damn thing that I used to eat in 2 seconds without a thought! Nearly 4 days worth of carbs! Bwahahaha! God, I was so awful to my body and thankfully I have seen the keto light!
LOL!4031isaiah wrote: »baconslave wrote: »Thanks, guys.
I know I'm being whiny. But I felt this little group we have going on is about keeping it real.
I love r/keto and other keto communities, but they absolutely will not entertain the thought that keto isn't perfect and if you just nail everything perfectly, everything will fall right in line. Angels will sing. Weight will fall off and stay off and everything is flawless. Yes, check your electrolytes and yes, get enough fat. But if you are genuinely doing everything right, and them angels ain't singing? You still feel like crap?
Well life just doesn't work that way. Angels are too busy.
Some people are satisfied with keto at 800 cals and struggle to eat. That's not me. That's never been me. And I consider myself almost a keto expert now after I've been doing it so long; It's great, but not the end-all-be-all. Humans are too complicated for that to be the case.
Thanks for listening to me moan and groan. I'm just holding on and KCKO. It's raining cats, dogs, and bacon in my life right now.
That's what life does.
Gum helps me a lot, since, if I keep it in my mouth, then there's not calories going in there instead. But I have TMJ on one side and have to watch it. I do NOT need a flare and my jaw popping out of joint to add to my laundry list of dysfunction.
There were so many close calls yesterday. I almost dived face first into pork rinds and dip after supper. It doesn't help that DH and the kids snack like crazy. In my face. Phew! And it's another day...mercy!
Maintenance can be as tricky as losing. I would have been sunk if I hadn't thought about it ahead. And for all that planning, I held onto mine for about 2 sec.
I'll get back there. I just need to breathe, deal with all this dumb BS life is giving me, and KCKO.
Thanks so much for being so transparent! You literally just sang my song! I could never really put my finger on the true root of my lack of success and reading your laments totally described how I've been feeling.
The main reason I have not had much success and relapse so often is the fact that even when I was 100% all in, in terms of a strict Keto diet, I was never free from the call of food.
I felt a bit better and had lost some water weight but little to no fat. My problem was that I'm not just in this for the sake of the WOE. I want to lose weight and in order to do that, I'd have to track and limit my calories which makes Keto no different than any other diet for me.
I have been following the Keto and Low Cal boards since August and this is literally the first time I have ever heard someone flat out say that low carbs and extra fat wasn't the miracle appetite-suppressing, fat-melting combo for them either.
I'm not glad to hear that you're struggling, but whenever I'd post about my struggles, I often felt like people must think I'm either not trying or not truly sticking to it the way I said I was. I am just glad to finally know that I'm not a lone anomaly.
@baconslave I don't think you're being whiny at all. You're being honest and I really appreciate it.
Like both of you, the call of food is never far. I have a life-long history of turning to it when I'm stressed, not feeling well, angry, bored, overwhelmed, joyous...you name it. I always want to eat. When I see people writing that you don't have to count calories on keto, I can't believe it. Not that I don't believe them, but I have a hard time believing that I could ever get there. I can gorge on keto foods just as much as any other because my problem is psychological. I know that I need to deal with it, but overcoming the way my brain has wired sometimes seems insurmountable. I continue to hope that by logging my calories I can retrain my thinking about what food I need. Even now, sitting here, I feel like ordering a pizza. Ugh.
I remember reading on another board at one point, maybe it was even you @KnitOrMiss that said it, that we're busy doing addition in our brain while our bodies are doing calculus.
One day at a time.
I have been stalled for the last few months. I can't decide whether I've been straying because I'm stressed or whether I use the stress as an excuse for poor eating. lol I'm really trying to change my habit of turning to food when stressed. Too bad there is only one way to quit food cold turkey...
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baconslave wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »baconslave wrote: »Thanks, guys.
I know I'm being whiny. But I felt this little group we have going on is about keeping it real.
I love r/keto and other keto communities, but they absolutely will not entertain the thought that keto isn't perfect and if you just nail everything perfectly, everything will fall right in line. Angels will sing. Weight will fall off and stay off and everything is flawless. Yes, check your electrolytes and yes, get enough fat. But if you are genuinely doing everything right, and them angels ain't singing? You still feel like crap?
Well life just doesn't work that way. Angels are too busy.
Some people are satisfied with keto at 800 cals and struggle to eat. That's not me. That's never been me. And I consider myself almost a keto expert now after I've been doing it so long; It's great, but not the end-all-be-all. Humans are too complicated for that to be the case.
Thanks for listening to me moan and groan. I'm just holding on and KCKO. It's raining cats, dogs, and bacon in my life right now.
That's what life does.
Gum helps me a lot, since, if I keep it in my mouth, then there's not calories going in there instead. But I have TMJ on one side and have to watch it. I do NOT need a flare and my jaw popping out of joint to add to my laundry list of dysfunction.
There were so many close calls yesterday. I almost dived face first into pork rinds and dip after supper. It doesn't help that DH and the kids snack like crazy. In my face. Phew! And it's another day...mercy!
Maintenance can be as tricky as losing. I would have been sunk if I hadn't thought about it ahead. And for all that planning, I held onto mine for about 2 sec. I'll get back there. I just need to breathe, deal with all this dumb BS life is giving me, and KCKO.
Thanks so much for being so transparent! You literally just sang my song! I could never really put my finger on the true root of my lack of success and reading your laments totally described how I've been feeling.
The main reason I have not had much success and relapse so often is the fact that even when I was 100% all in, in terms of a strict Keto diet, I was never free from the call of food.
I felt a bit better and had lost some water weight but little to no fat. My problem was that I'm not just in this for the sake of the WOE. I want to lose weight and in order to do that, I'd have to track and limit my calories which makes Keto no different than any other diet for me.
I have been following the Keto and Low Cal boards since August and this is literally the first time I have ever heard someone flat out say that low carbs and extra fat wasn't the miracle appetite-suppressing, fat-melting combo for them either.
I'm not glad to hear that you're struggling, but whenever I'd post about my struggles, I often felt like people must think I'm either not trying or not truly sticking to it the way I said I was. I am just glad to finally know that I'm not a lone anomaly.
@baconslave I don't think you're being whiny at all. You're being honest and I really appreciate it.
Like both of you, the call of food is never far. I have a life-long history of turning to it when I'm stressed, not feeling well, angry, bored, overwhelmed, joyous...you name it. I always want to eat. When I see people writing that you don't have to count calories on keto, I can't believe it. Not that I don't believe them, but I have a hard time believing that I could ever get there. I can gorge on keto foods just as much as any other because my problem is psychological. I know that I need to deal with it, but overcoming the way my brain has wired sometimes seems insurmountable. I continue to hope that by logging my calories I can retrain my thinking about what food I need. Even now, sitting here, I feel like ordering a pizza. Ugh.
I remember reading on another board at one point, maybe it was even you @KnitOrMiss that said it, that we're busy doing addition in our brain while our bodies are doing calculus.
One day at a time.
I have been stalled for the last few months. I can't decide whether I've been straying because I'm stressed or whether I use the stress as an excuse for poor eating. lol I'm really trying to change my habit of turning to food when stressed. Too bad there is only one way to quit food cold turkey...
A chicken/egg condundrum. It's really hard. I thought I'd killed all my food-demons. Then I got this corneal erosion thing and severe chronic dry eye (you can google those--talk about effin' stress!) and now I'm struggling with stress/comfort eating again. Some things won't go away, like me being a raging choco/sugar addict (and add to that the raging peanut/cashew binge eating I've developed--something else to fight, darnit!), but we CAN get stronger and smarter and figure out how to make this work.
It's like our urge-brain is a flippin' toddler! The key to getting it to behave is misdirection and distraction. You've got to figure out how to stop that thought/urge path. It's a path of least resistance your brain has developed. It becomes a knee-jerk you automatically go to. Distract yourself. Interrupt that knee-jerk and stop it dead. You'll have to practice that many times before it starts to stick, but it WILL stick eventually. I do it with sugar-free gum. I keep it in my mouth during stressful or phantom hunger periods and tell my inner toddler "NO." I'm sending the urge into "timeout." It helps most of the time. Yeah, it's a crutch. But it's better than eating 600 cals of nuts in one sitting like I was a starving herd of squirrels.
This is interesting, about the path of least resistance for your brain. The book that I just finished reading (listening to on my commute) talks a lot about the brain science of food additions and compulsive overeating. It was very good, actually, and I'm going to listen to it again when I can take some notes about the actions that she recommends to start re-wiring. I work in education so I geek out on brain science.
I just started listening to Deepak Chopra, What Are You Hungry For?. Only an hour or so in, and I'm enjoying it so far. What's interesting that they both have in common is the idea of being "mindful". Not just while you're eating but at other times. The section I just listened to recommends stopping, taking a breath and then checking in with your physical body, your emotional state and then your rational mind.
I'm going to set an alarm on my phone to do it three times a day and see what happens. If nothing else, I'm enjoying listening and it's helping me reflect on my compulsive eating.0 -
Oh, my.... Y'all are singing my song. Let me just tell you...
@JodiSW Yes - that's part of my quote. I stole it from another person (Kirkor, I believe), modified it, and added my own twist. The version of it on my profile right now is, "While you're doing arithmetic, your body is doing chemistry, physics, and calculus."
@baconslave OMG OMG OMG.... CHRONICALLY STUPID BODY SYNDROME IS SO A THING. A DASTARDLY EVIL DEMENTED VENGEFUL THING.... thank the gods it is not just me.... My bestie and I talk about this regularly. Just this morning, we were talking about my body being a jacked up hormonal drama queen or something. Like seriously.
And everyone. There is no magic pill, no magic formula. There is always a consequence, a resurgence, and reflection we must deal with. Sorry (and yes, no, there are no Santa Claus, Easter Bunny, or other fantasy thing, either, sad to say....the spirits of them, sure....historical figures, yes, but the current iterations? yeah, no...)...hope no bubbles burst there.
This is something I don't brag on right now, but I'm in keto re-adaption he!!. I don't know quite how to explain it. Every time I think I figure something out, my brain throws me a curve ball.
I went intentionally off plan for Thanksgiving (US) - ate like my former life self - the full on carb junkie. Even had leaded soda for the first time in a year. All of it. Got right back on Keto that Monday after - lost 95% of my gained weight that week.
Bestie came to visit the weekend of like 12/12. I was good until we hit one of my fave restaurants. I knew I was going off plan come 12/18 anyway (vacation - grouchy SO, wasn't worth the fighting over my dietary consumption for two weeks), and so I ate moderately carby....then later that night, we went out for a frozen sugary confection. Really??? And so I was off plan for about 3 full weeks - not all of it bad. Far less of a gain than Thanksgiving, but far harder to get back on the wagon. On for several days, then had the hellbinge weekend. OMG. I logged that thing. 3 days of 3500 calories plus daily, 400+ CARBS daily, etc.
That Monday, I said forget this, and dove back in. Been doing okay since. Got up back to 265 (1/25) with all the water gain and fat indulgence and all that. As point of reference, my STARTING weight last year was 261.... I got down to 239 as my lowest last year (March), but mainly hung around in the 245-250 range most of the year. So not only did I undo my losses, I started higher this time than before. I accepted that, because the off plan eating was mostly intentionally and I accepted that.
But I can't seem to lose anything. I lost that initial water weight. 1/23 to 1/25 was like a 5 pound GAIN almost overnight, so I'm really not counting that as a true gain. As of today, I'm at 258.6. So in three weeks, 2 pounds that can't make up their mind. No inches lost (still can't fit back in my main jeans). I'm doing well on diet, controlling carbs and cravings. Just today I turned down a box of specialty/fancy donuts from a client. Used @glossbones 's technique of enjoying the smell and letting it stay at that. Now enjoying a jello fat bomb - and temptation is mostly diminished.
But I'm just not making progress. I know what that felt like last year. I'm also fighting massive dehydration or electrolyte imbalance or something. All crap I never dealt with, or not to this degree, last year/before. Cracked dry lips that hurt to be kissed or to eat, off and on, they were blissful like soft buttery lips, only to go to ragged chapped insanity in less than an hour. Added salt, removed salt. Upped water, kept it level. Added lite salt/potassium. trying everything, and now as a result of the dryness, I've got a raging cold sore OUT OF NOWHERE.
Add to that that since I started MCT oil, I'm having postprandial somnolence (passing out after eating) again - sometimes with a meal with like 2-3 carbs - nothing that should in any way trigger an insulin reaction. And I'm starting to lose my sanity, what little of it may or may not have been left. Yesterday, no MCT reaction, but still had the oil... so I really really don't know what is going on.
I had a similar reaction to where coconut oil just made me sick as all get out... I had to completely adjust everything... And still, I'm making no real progress. It's so frustrating. So no, none of you are alone in this insanity...
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@JodiSW, you're not intrusive at all. If you look at my diary, you will see I have normally a Bulletproof coffee for breakfast. I had way too much butter and coconut oil in it. I brought that down to about 50% of what it was. I also had way too much fat during dinner, which I also have reduced drastically. It has been 2 days now, and I really can't say I have experienced any new hunger pangs or any negative effects. I am feeling very positive, and I think this was my problem the last 4 months. But I will know for a fact by next Friday.
I might also just mention that I have very nearly NEVER cheated on this WOE since I started. I have at times eaten too much fat/meat/eggs etc, but never did I eat any bread, rice, or any sugar/chocolate. I also never went for this almond/coconut flour bread substitutes. And it is becoming quite easy to resist these things as the time pass. I think it helps me that my brain by now knows there will be no bread etc, so it just gives up, which was why I decided to try this approach. And it was very difficult in the beginning, but I persisted. Now I just need the last 40 pounds to go, then I'm good.
Oh yeah, if drinking whisky and water is cheating, then I did it big time! I just love my whisky, and regularly indulged at least once a week. I try to only do it on weekends, but sometimes I'm weak, so sue me . Tomorrow we have a going away party again for someone at work, so from 3pm we will be partying!
And then I trained 5 times a week for 45 min every weekday, and I mean I did train! I use the heaviest weights I can handle, and I really don't do any cardio either, pure strength exercises. Which is why I waited so long before I started thinking something is wrong with my weight-loss. I was secretly hoping I was gaining muscle, and losing weight. But then I thought it was really taking too long, since I am already 49 years old, and I want to reach my target weight before I'm 60!!!
Anyway, you guys enjoy your day and keep on keeping on!
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@KnitOrMiss Sounds like your bestie has an awesome sense of humor and I'm happy you have someone like that in your life. When I'm deep in the mire, it's my bestie who helps me find the warped humor in the whole mess too. Mostly, I'm glad you're still in the game. When my chronic illness was at it's worst, I had people tell me that I was so strong while inside I was screaming, "But I wanna give up!" But you? You're still in it- every friggin minute. You're continuing to try and tweak keto and that my friend is flabbergasting. You. are. amazing.0
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@KnitOrMiss Sounds like your bestie has an awesome sense of humor and I'm happy you have someone like that in your life. When I'm deep in the mire, it's my bestie who helps me find the warped humor in the whole mess too. Mostly, I'm glad you're still in the game. When my chronic illness was at it's worst, I had people tell me that I was so strong while inside I was screaming, "But I wanna give up!" But you? You're still in it- every friggin minute. You're continuing to try and tweak keto and that my friend is flabbergasting. You. are. amazing.
She does indeed. Sadly, we are 3-4 hours drive from each other, and only connect when I'm on wifi, so it's really really hit or miss... And yup, warped sense of humor is our specialty. I have connected with a few folks on here, too, because of that very thing. LOL
@kimbo8435 Now, I'll be honest....this comment really threw me for a loop....and I'm still trying to see if I can pinpoint why.
Oh, wow - a friend just shared this awesome article with me that really sums it up... I hope you enjoy it as much as I did... http://terribleminds.com/ramble/2016/02/04/emmie-mears-hi-hello-were-here-to-revoke-your-artist-card/0 -
Hoo boy. I am too familiar w that feeling. There are days on my job where I feel like I'm pretending. Fake it till ya make it, baby!0
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Tonite is dance/drink night out. Yippee! Have been back on keto for 2 days, I think. My plan is to stick to my 2 drink limit, and skip eating anything at the food /party that usually follows. Only have water while others eat. This is hard to do, but it's easier when less intoxicated. So, only two. I've strayed from plan enough for now. Thinking strict, no exceptions... eyes on the prize...0
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Tonite is dance/drink night out. Yippee! Have been back on keto for 2 days, I think. My plan is to stick to my 2 drink limit, and skip eating anything at the food /party that usually follows. Only have water while others eat. This is hard to do, but it's easier when less intoxicated. So, only two. I've strayed from plan enough for now. Thinking strict, no exceptions... eyes on the prize...
Hope you had a great time!
I haven't been out since November. So I am jealous! 0 -
Tonite is dance/drink night out. Yippee! Have been back on keto for 2 days, I think. My plan is to stick to my 2 drink limit, and skip eating anything at the food /party that usually follows. Only have water while others eat. This is hard to do, but it's easier when less intoxicated. So, only two. I've strayed from plan enough for now. Thinking strict, no exceptions... eyes on the prize...
Enjoy your evening, Elize! You've earned it.
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KnitOrMiss wrote: »@KnitOrMiss Sounds like your bestie has an awesome sense of humor and I'm happy you have someone like that in your life. When I'm deep in the mire, it's my bestie who helps me find the warped humor in the whole mess too. Mostly, I'm glad you're still in the game. When my chronic illness was at it's worst, I had people tell me that I was so strong while inside I was screaming, "But I wanna give up!" But you? You're still in it- every friggin minute. You're continuing to try and tweak keto and that my friend is flabbergasting. You. are. amazing.
She does indeed. Sadly, we are 3-4 hours drive from each other, and only connect when I'm on wifi, so it's really really hit or miss... And yup, warped sense of humor is our specialty. I have connected with a few folks on here, too, because of that very thing. LOL
@kimbo8435 Now, I'll be honest....this comment really threw me for a loop....and I'm still trying to see if I can pinpoint why.
Oh, wow - a friend just shared this awesome article with me that really sums it up... I hope you enjoy it as much as I did... http://terribleminds.com/ramble/2016/02/04/emmie-mears-hi-hello-were-here-to-revoke-your-artist-card/
You are uh-mazing! F$ck!ng Chronicly Stupid Body Syndrome has become the usual to you, as it does to the suffers. The truth is that you have a lot going against you right now with CSB syndrome, and you aren't giving up. A lot of people give up. I gave up for a long time.
You and I are coming at this stupid nonsense like a BEAST. RAWR.
Btw: I only like weird/twist people. "Normals" are b o r i n g. We are the cool kids.
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baconslave wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »@KnitOrMiss Sounds like your bestie has an awesome sense of humor and I'm happy you have someone like that in your life. When I'm deep in the mire, it's my bestie who helps me find the warped humor in the whole mess too. Mostly, I'm glad you're still in the game. When my chronic illness was at it's worst, I had people tell me that I was so strong while inside I was screaming, "But I wanna give up!" But you? You're still in it- every friggin minute. You're continuing to try and tweak keto and that my friend is flabbergasting. You. are. amazing.
She does indeed. Sadly, we are 3-4 hours drive from each other, and only connect when I'm on wifi, so it's really really hit or miss... And yup, warped sense of humor is our specialty. I have connected with a few folks on here, too, because of that very thing. LOL
@kimbo8435 Now, I'll be honest....this comment really threw me for a loop....and I'm still trying to see if I can pinpoint why.
Oh, wow - a friend just shared this awesome article with me that really sums it up... I hope you enjoy it as much as I did... http://terribleminds.com/ramble/2016/02/04/emmie-mears-hi-hello-were-here-to-revoke-your-artist-card/
You are uh-mazing! F$ck!ng Chronicly Stupid Body Syndrome has become the usual to you, as it does to the suffers. The truth is that you have a lot going against you right now with CSB syndrome, and you aren't giving up. A lot of people give up. I gave up for a long time.
You and I are coming at this stupid nonsense like a BEAST. RAWR.
Btw: I only like weird/twist people. "Normals" are b o r i n g. We are the cool kids.
I don't feel amazing or uh-mazing. And people keep saying that about giving up is easier. It isn't easier for me...I guess I'm just stubborn. In my brain, somehow, giving up fully isn't ever going to be an option. Even if I go back to CICO only, I can't imagine ever going back to high carbs...I just feel
I don't know what it is, but low-carbing seems my normal now, even if I crave other things, if I binge eat gingerbread cookies or stupid crap, my brain still defaults to "normal" as being a low carb base. I don't really miss bread much. Sweets are hit and miss - some I miss desperately, and some I couldn't care if I never taste them again. There's just a note or the accompanying melody missing or something...
SIGH - I'm not fully derailed from any normal thinking because we are having meetings about the office move and stuff... I'm going to have to CHANGE EVERYTHING... Nothing I've worked with for the last 10 years will fit in my area in that new space.... I likely will have no F's left to give or any sanity left until April, if then.0 -
KnitOrMiss wrote: »I don't feel amazing or uh-mazing. And people keep saying that about giving up is easier. It isn't easier for me...I guess I'm just stubborn. In my brain, somehow, giving up fully isn't ever going to
SIGH - I'm not fully derailed from any normal thinking because we are having meetings about the office move and stuff... I'm going to have to CHANGE EVERYTHING... Nothing I've worked with for the last 10 years will fit in my area in that new space.... I likely will have no F's left to give or any sanity left until April, if then.
What do you do for work and where are you moving?0 -
Anyone with V Day plans this weekend?0
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frikfourie wrote: »@JodiSW, you're not intrusive at all. If you look at my diary, you will see I have normally a Bulletproof coffee for breakfast. I had way too much butter and coconut oil in it. I brought that down to about 50% of what it was. I also had way too much fat during dinner, which I also have reduced drastically. It has been 2 days now, and I really can't say I have experienced any new hunger pangs or any negative effects. I am feeling very positive, and I think this was my problem the last 4 months. But I will know for a fact by next Friday.
I might also just mention that I have very nearly NEVER cheated on this WOE since I started. I have at times eaten too much fat/meat/eggs etc, but never did I eat any bread, rice, or any sugar/chocolate. I also never went for this almond/coconut flour bread substitutes. And it is becoming quite easy to resist these things as the time pass. I think it helps me that my brain by now knows there will be no bread etc, so it just gives up, which was why I decided to try this approach. And it was very difficult in the beginning, but I persisted. Now I just need the last 40 pounds to go, then I'm good.
Oh yeah, if drinking whisky and water is cheating, then I did it big time! I just love my whisky, and regularly indulged at least once a week. I try to only do it on weekends, but sometimes I'm weak, so sue me . Tomorrow we have a going away party again for someone at work, so from 3pm we will be partying!
And then I trained 5 times a week for 45 min every weekday, and I mean I did train! I use the heaviest weights I can handle, and I really don't do any cardio either, pure strength exercises. Which is why I waited so long before I started thinking something is wrong with my weight-loss. I was secretly hoping I was gaining muscle, and losing weight. But then I thought it was really taking too long, since I am already 49 years old, and I want to reach my target weight before I'm 60!!!
Anyway, you guys enjoy your day and keep on keeping on!
Thanks for the explanation - so, did you decrease your overall calorie intake or adjust your macros? And if so, what percentages are you aiming for?
I don't believe the whisky is cheating. We have to enjoy life! And for me, that includes enjoying a little bourbon on occasion.
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Macros stayed the same - only lowered calorie intake - quite substantially0
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4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »I don't feel amazing or uh-mazing. And people keep saying that about giving up is easier. It isn't easier for me...I guess I'm just stubborn. In my brain, somehow, giving up fully isn't ever going to
SIGH - I'm not fully derailed from any normal thinking because we are having meetings about the office move and stuff... I'm going to have to CHANGE EVERYTHING... Nothing I've worked with for the last 10 years will fit in my area in that new space.... I likely will have no F's left to give or any sanity left until April, if then.
What do you do for work and where are you moving?
I'm a receptionist/office manager for an engineering company, and we're moving from a super small town to Norman, OK (home of OU - aka University of Oklahoma). We were awarded a Norman contract that requires us to have an office there...
And the planning for this move is spotty at best, and while I'm not responsible for much, I'm sure the blame will land on me....0 -
Hope you all had a great Valentine's day and stayed away from the sweets.
Does anyone here observe Lent? I usually give something up with the hope that exercising my will power is a good thing. So as of Wednesday I gave up my whiskey (Sorry @frikfourie!), which isn't really a big deal as I only have 4-6 shots once a week. Somehow I feel like that has cut down on cravings. Although one weekend isn't really long enough to say.0 -
Good for you. I gave up alcohol too.0
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KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »I don't feel amazing or uh-mazing. And people keep saying that about giving up is easier. It isn't easier for me...I guess I'm just stubborn. In my brain, somehow, giving up fully isn't ever going to
SIGH - I'm not fully derailed from any normal thinking because we are having meetings about the office move and stuff... I'm going to have to CHANGE EVERYTHING... Nothing I've worked with for the last 10 years will fit in my area in that new space.... I likely will have no F's left to give or any sanity left until April, if then.
What do you do for work and where are you moving?
I'm a receptionist/office manager for an engineering company, and we're moving from a super small town to Norman, OK (home of OU - aka University of Oklahoma). We were awarded a Norman contract that requires us to have an office there...
And the planning for this move is spotty at best, and while I'm not responsible for much, I'm sure the blame will land on me....
Wow! Does that increase your daily commute or will you have to move?0 -
4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »4031isaiah wrote: »KnitOrMiss wrote: »I don't feel amazing or uh-mazing. And people keep saying that about giving up is easier. It isn't easier for me...I guess I'm just stubborn. In my brain, somehow, giving up fully isn't ever going to
SIGH - I'm not fully derailed from any normal thinking because we are having meetings about the office move and stuff... I'm going to have to CHANGE EVERYTHING... Nothing I've worked with for the last 10 years will fit in my area in that new space.... I likely will have no F's left to give or any sanity left until April, if then.
What do you do for work and where are you moving?
I'm a receptionist/office manager for an engineering company, and we're moving from a super small town to Norman, OK (home of OU - aka University of Oklahoma). We were awarded a Norman contract that requires us to have an office there...
And the planning for this move is spotty at best, and while I'm not responsible for much, I'm sure the blame will land on me....
Wow! Does that increase your daily commute or will you have to move?
I drive maybe 10 minutes each way right now. In non peak hours it would be a 40 minute drive. Peak hours would be more like 60-90 minutes depending on traffic. @4031isaiah.
I will be moving sometime this year, but I don't know when I'll be able to afford to move. I already know I can't afford to commute, so a catch-22, I'm in.0 -
Hmmm interesting dilemma.0
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Does anyone else just get stuck in that "I hate my life" "nothing works" "life is hopeless" frame of mind sometimes? It is just so exhausting to not care and to get frustrated about everything and to see no progress for lengths of time, even when logically in the back of your head, you know it is all just part of the whole process.
But the front of your mind is just incessantly negative? I'm so not like this normally, and I'm just OVER it. SO much.0 -
KnitOrMiss wrote: »Does anyone else just get stuck in that "I hate my life" "nothing works" "life is hopeless" frame of mind sometimes? It is just so exhausting to not care and to get frustrated about everything and to see no progress for lengths of time, even when logically in the back of your head, you know it is all just part of the whole process.
But the front of your mind is just incessantly negative? I'm so not like this normally, and I'm just OVER it. SO much.
I'm with you @KnitOrMiss. I've had a couple big negative changes in my life in the past year and a half. I know it's not the end of the world, I know I need to get on with my life, I know I'm strong enough to deal with it, it just seems to be hard to get back on track...
But I will. I am.0 -
KnitOrMiss wrote: »Does anyone else just get stuck in that "I hate my life" "nothing works" "life is hopeless" frame of mind sometimes? It is just so exhausting to not care and to get frustrated about everything and to see no progress for lengths of time, even when logically in the back of your head, you know it is all just part of the whole process.
But the front of your mind is just incessantly negative? I'm so not like this normally, and I'm just OVER it. SO much.
I'm with you @KnitOrMiss. I've had a couple big negative changes in my life in the past year and a half. I know it's not the end of the world, I know I need to get on with my life, I know I'm strong enough to deal with it, it just seems to be hard to get back on track...
But I will. I am.
What's worse is that my eating is on target, but there is some missing component, because I'm just not getting anywhere at all. *sigh*
I'm sending lots of good thoughts your way, @Fvaisey. We could all use some positive reinforcements, right?0 -
KnitOrMiss wrote: »
What's worse is that my eating is on target, but there is some missing component, because I'm just not getting anywhere at all. *sigh*
I'm sending lots of good thoughts your way, @Fvaisey. We could all use some positive reinforcements, right?
I've decided that our health is like a jigsaw puzzle, and sometimes while we're putting together that puzzle (even if this is the third or fourth time of redoing this puzzle) we at times, lose some pieces under the table. It takes us awhile to realize that there is a piece missing. You've realized that and I bet you're probably working the research right now looking for something that will fit your health puzzle. It's out there. IM me and I'll help you w/ that reasearch (I'm a librarian in a regional hospital)0 -
KnitOrMiss wrote: »Does anyone else just get stuck in that "I hate my life" "nothing works" "life is hopeless" frame of mind sometimes? It is just so exhausting to not care and to get frustrated about everything and to see no progress for lengths of time, even when logically in the back of your head, you know it is all just part of the whole process.
But the front of your mind is just incessantly negative? I'm so not like this normally, and I'm just OVER it. SO much.
Yup.
I've been trying to fix the chronic fatigue BS. I've spent HUNDREDS AND HUNDREDS of dollars on supplements and vitamins. No joke, I take 15 supps and vites a day. And a great deal of time and effort and sacrifice to get healthy. All of this BS and I'm still tired all the time. Since I was 19 years old. That's 18 years. And now the eye *kitten*? And the $500 treatment (for only 90days- WTF?)
I try to keep it sunny, and remind myself all the positives I have. That's hard to do when you can't sleep and when you get smacked with a fatigue attack. But if I don't make that effort to try to pry the negativity-glasses off my head, that's ALL I will see everywhere I look, and I will go guano-crazy. Well...more so than the harmless-crazy I already am.
It's hard to see the positives, especially when you have to go hunting for those silver-linings, but it's essential. Even if it is completely feels contrived.
Life is hard enough as it is, right? Life is always going to give you sh!ty-est lemons to make lemonade out of. And keep doing it. But I do my damnedst to make the f-ing best sh!itty-lemon lemonade that can be had.
Sometimes doing that is less hard easier than other times.0 -
hang in there to all my struggling keto friends. we will all get there in time.. just passed through a frustrating time, now i feel reinvigorated and things are moving along. inches off after what seemed like forever - but really wasnt. it will stall again im sure before i get where i want to be.. but im remaining fierce when at all possible.
sometimes i have to make adjustments and cut back and always be on the lookout for carb creep. so be it. i want to reach my goal so badly, its always a priority. even when its not going well and im stumbling. i think really its my emotions that get in my way...just have to learn how to separate fueling my body from the food as comfort equation. again, just have to be fierce about it, because thats the only thing that works for me.0 -
I tried a dress on I haven't worn for two years this morning. It was stashed way back in the far reaches of my closet. I weigh more than when I wore this last, but I look way better in it now! I put on some heels and wore it to work!0
