March/April BED Conversation Thread

IsMollyReallyHungry

Well spring is in the air. How are you all doing? You all are very quiet. Hope we are more conversation the next 2 months.

It is my hope you use this thread to get to know each other better and have a safe place to motivate & support one another daily. This group will be what you all make of it. So let's talk, support, share challenges, successes, and most of all share replases. We can all learn from one another. So please share, share, share. This group is what you make it so lets make it a place for all of us to get support.

One day at a time.:flowerforyou:

richardsrm

Thanks for giving me a safe place to share my ups and downs with the binge thing. Mollie know me but for those who don't . I struggle with evening and weekend binge eattng. I am also find my self needing carb "fixes" when I am stressed.
Since joining mfp, I am doing better and when I binge it isn't as bad as before but I still do it. :explode:

Anyway I am thankful to be able to tell others how it is for me. I recently gained back some weight after over eating for almost two weeks. I was discouraged but realize I won't get better in a month or year. I know I have to take it one day at a time. Just wish sometimes I could trust myself to stop eating when I know I should be full. Hugs to all who join this group. "Richie

IsMollyReallyHungry

I feel you Richie!! I went to WW tonight and I was so inspired by the leader and she was awesome and I feel very good about it too. This time I am joining with the mentality that I am not giving up this time. and this leader seems like she will be with me all he way thru ups and downs. So I am getting ready to read the material and I am going to use etools so I will not be logging my food on MFP. I even found a support group for WW on here too.

I am also going attend 2 or more meeting a week. similar to the Intensive eating disorder program that met 3 to 4 days a week. I paid all that money for the eating disorder program and did not lose a pound. I did learn a lot and it was worth it but now I am ready to shed these pounds once and for all. I have to learn how to do it with out binging and WW has you eating plenty of food so you are not depriving yourself which does cause binges.

My weekend coming up is hard but I plan on sticking within my points.

One day at a time!

metco89

i am logging on now cause it is late evening and here i am, starting to obsess on "one more piece of cheese sound good" One piece won't hurt, problem is it won't be one piece, if i start i will eat till it is gone or i am so full and sick and depressed i will go to sleep. So i am writing this, praying it will let me see in black and white what is going on.I have done well all day. I don't want to blow it now. One day at a time I will reach my goal. Thanks for letting vent.

richardsrm

Hope putting it down in black and white helped. That's the way it is I start out with one piece and then two the next thing I know I have a pack in my lap. The sick side of my head tells me to keep eating. so weird. It's Friday . I am with you Mollie stay occupied and keep reminding myself that being healthy and able to chase the grandkids makes any emotional discomfort worth not stuffing myself. :smooched:

IsMollyReallyHungry

Hope putting it down in black and white helped. That's the way it is I start out with one piece and then two the next thing I know I have a pack in my lap. The sick side of my head tells me to keep eating. so weird. It's Friday . I am with you Mollie stay occupied and keep reminding myself that being healthy and able to chase the grandkids makes any emotional discomfort worth not stuffing myself. :smooched:

How did it go last night Mary Beth?

richardsrm

Mollie and Mary Beth. Ah it is the weekend. Did so so last night. Today I will be more focused no company and can work on all my stuff that I need to purge. Think I will hit the closets first and see if I can fill the car trunk with junk for the salvo. Key is not to reward myself with food. If the sun stays out maybe a walk with the dog when things warm up. Hope the Weight Watchers is being fun. When I was in in my leader had lost more than a hundred pounds like 15 years ago and kept it off! Well Happy Sunday to both of you. Richie

Behavior_Modification

Hello! I'm Diane.

I am struggling. On a day after a binge, slept most of it away, now knowing that I should force myself to eat something even though I don't feel it, feel like I should restrict because of yesterday's damage, kind of scared that once I start it will go downhill...well I definitely need to start acknowledging these things more and write. So thank you for being here to listen. I'm gonna go eat some breakfast, shower, and get on with the day even though I don't feel like it. I'm recalling a reminder from DBT - "Feelings follow Behaviors" -

Behavior_Modification

Yesterday was another rough day. I am determined to get out of this slump though. I dressed up for work today, panty hose and a skirt even, to remind myself that even though I've gained some of my weight back, I still look a hell of a lot better in a skirt and heels than I did 2 years ago. I have worked hard on the definition in my legs, and it reminds me of all the stairs I've taken instead of the elevator. I have been obsessing too much about sugar and protein, so I've taken it way back to basics and am going to focus on calories only this week.

jade_85

well done diane
i know the feeling
its so hard to break the chain.
ive felt like utter crap and stuffed myself i wont weigh myself as im to scared lol.
back on track this week. hope everyone is ok xxx

Behavior_Modification

Thanks Jade. I hadn't weighed in for a while (many weeks) but was kinda judging how I was doing by my belt. Well...over the weekend I was back down to 4 holes so I knew things were really getting out of hand, as I had been up to 6. Plus I've just been 'feeling' fatter. I cannot wear baggy clothes when I'm feeling fat, that I've learned. Another reason to dress nicely - you feel good when you look good. I've also felt like since I've been yo-yo-ing and gaining the past few months that I can't log any losses because I've never been able to catch up with my original weight. That feels too hopeless. So even though I don't want to admit that I've put back on 18lbs over the past 4-5 months, I am ready to stare it in the face and start losing again.

IsMollyReallyHungry

Yesterday was another rough day. I am determined to get out of this slump though. I dressed up for work today, panty hose and a skirt even, to remind myself that even though I've gained some of my weight back, I still look a hell of a lot better in a skirt and heels than I did 2 years ago. I have worked hard on the definition in my legs, and it reminds me of all the stairs I've taken instead of the elevator. I have been obsessing too much about sugar and protein, so I've taken it way back to basics and am going to focus on calories only this week.

Going back to basics always helps Diane. Good job on being mindful of getting back on track. That is always a good place to begin. You can do it!! And EXCELLENT JOB on reminding yourself you look AWESOME and a few days of binging will not hurt those lovely legs..... Go girl!! I hope dressing up helped you feel better about things.:flowerforyou:

angelintx

Good morning all!! Although I've been on my weight loss journey since September 2010, I really consider yesterday DAY 1 in starting over with trying to eat clean. I'm happy to say that yesterday was a victory and I hope to build on it today for another clean and physically active day. Starting over is hard, but I know with commitment, determination and taking each moment as it comes, good food behaviors will begin to build and the momentum will kick in where it won't be as hard one day.

Here's to DAY 1! :drinker:

Behavior_Modification

:drinker: Cheers Angel :drinker:

I also had a good day yesterday. It was very difficult at multiple times in the day, but taking it back to basics and only focusing on calorie intake really helped keep the focus. It is too easy for me to get upset w/ myself for eating "bad" foods when I'm concentrating too hard on my sugar intake, and well you know let's just throw in the towel then. So telling myself yesterday, "don't worry about WHAT you eat, just concentrate on your hunger and emotions, and keep it below 2000 (that's my goal)". Keeping busy was a major helper too. Oh, and the best one for me is - Go To Bed.

jade_85

lol go to bed love it im worse if im in bed all i think of is whats in the fridge and what can i eat next lol. im off pole dancing tonight to get me out the house so i dont eat
hope u r all having a fantastic day xxx

IsMollyReallyHungry

Good morning all!! Although I've been on my weight loss journey since September 2010, I really consider yesterday DAY 1 in starting over with trying to eat clean. I'm happy to say that yesterday was a victory and I hope to build on it today for another clean and physically active day. Starting over is hard, but I know with commitment, determination and taking each moment as it comes, good food behaviors will begin to build and the momentum will kick in where it won't be as hard one day.

Here's to DAY 1! :drinker:

Congrats Angel!! Day 1 of the rest of your life. Life happens and relapses are sure to happen but that does not make us failures or mean we have to start over either. So happy you joined us and picked yourself back up. That is key, not giving up. Getting back up each time we fall down since we are never going to acheive perfection in this lifetime. Keep up the good work!

IsMollyReallyHungry

lol go to bed love it im worse if im in bed all i think of is whats in the fridge and what can i eat next lol. im off pole dancing tonight to get me out the house so i dont eat
hope u r all having a fantastic day xxx

Alrighty then! Enjoy your pole dancing girl! :laugh:

IsMollyReallyHungry

:drinker: Cheers Angel :drinker:

I also had a good day yesterday. It was very difficult at multiple times in the day, but taking it back to basics and only focusing on calorie intake really helped keep the focus. It is too easy for me to get upset w/ myself for eating "bad" foods when I'm concentrating too hard on my sugar intake, and well you know let's just throw in the towel then. So telling myself yesterday, "don't worry about WHAT you eat, just concentrate on your hunger and emotions, and keep it below 2000 (that's my goal)". Keeping busy was a major helper too. Oh, and the best one for me is - Go To Bed.

Good job Diane!! When stressed you can only focus on one thing. Focusing on all that other crap takes too much effort sometimes. You can focus on the quality later.

IsMollyReallyHungry

I am doing fine! I am really loving WW too. Found out today that 2 ladies I have been seeing at the gym for years now are lifetime WW gals. They were really encouraging. They are always encouraging anyways. This time I am telling people I am on WW. I have told people in congregation, work, etc.

So far just knowing I will meet the scale with a person on Thursday has kept me in line binge wise. I am trying to break habit on weighing in between weigh ins but since I am not obsessing over the scale and not weighing daily I am getting on it once a twice in between WW weigh ins. I weighed on Monday and I was down a pound and I did not have a great weekend. But it was a binge free weekend and I had plenty of opportunities to do so. I had a lot of healthy stuff so I did not have to overeat and I try to eat fruit since it is zero points on WW. Can anyone tell me why we can not binge on fruit?!! :laugh: :laugh: IF only we could do this or even veggies it would be all good. (for me anyways, because i don't know anyone who has gained weight with binge eating fruits and veggies)

Today I had 6 girl scout cookies and a cup of milk after lunch and was proud that I have had these little treasures since Sunday and I have not binged on them. In the pass I could have down 1 to 2 boxes of GS cookies.

I gave the ones from yesterday away and I am going to eat the 2nd box in moderation -- different kind too. I did not trust myself with the samoas. I did not want to tempt fate and bring them home so I will eat them here at work.

One day at a time

angelintx

Reporting in: DAY 2 completed "clean." YAY!!! :drinker: Keys to success for me are:

1) Bringing my food to work;

2) Planning/tracking;

3) Posting on support threads;

4) Taking one "nutritional opportunity" at a time.

Behavior_Modification

Nice work ladies! And thank you for sharing.

Yesterday was a successful day even though I went over my calorie goal. I still logged everything which is huge for me right now, plus I exercised and that was the 1st time (besides staircases) I had done so since Mom's stroke on 2/23. I struggled with a carb craving in the evening, and after a call from the ex to see how Mom's doing, the carbs won. Emotional trigger? Ya.

Marig0ld

Hello everyone! Diane (BehaviorModification) told me about this thread and I thought I would reach out and introduce myself.

My name is Colleen, I am 25 and I work full-time while going to school part time for my masters. I will graduate in spring 2013, and I will be getting married after that to a wonderful man. My life is full and needless to say it can get very stressful! Without going into too many details, I have struggled with binge eating since childhood. About a year ago, I began to substitute exercise for binge eating as an antidote to my anxiety. However, I recently had an injury that caused me to have to lessen my exercise and forced me to be alone with my anxious thoughts. I have managed to maintain my weight loss, give or take a few pounds. But I have had a few episodes and it would help to check in daily with others like me who struggle.

Us binge eaters are unique because self-hatred is what got most of us where we are in the first place. So a lot of "support" threads around here don't really jive with me. Sure, self-discipline is important, but it wasn't lack of willpower that made me fat. It was because I thought there was something wrong with me and food was the only thing that could fix it. Dieting was another way to "fix" myself because I was obviously a fat lazy slob. A year ago, I began making healthier choices to fuel my body and started being kinder to myself. It's not a contest or a competition. As long as we can say we've made some type of progress, then we're better than where we started. I made that single step one year ago and I'm proud to say that those choices have added up to a 50 pound weight loss.

I still struggle with my eating, though. I have gotten back into pre-logging my days in the morning, and I've gotten better day by day. I am proud to say that I stuck to my exercise and pre-logged eating yesterday, and I was even able to forgo chocolate! I told myself it was ok, and that I could have it tomorrow. I actually remembered something Diane said: "JUST GO TO BED!" And I did. My body needed the sleep more than that chocolate fix!! :-)

I tend to ramble, so thanks for listening, ladies. Hope to get to know more of you soon!

Behavior_Modification

Ramble on Colleen, I enjoyed reading it!

IsMollyReallyHungry

Welcome Colleen and thanks for sharing. You do have a FULL plate! Good job on going to bed! I did that last night because I started getting the urge to nibble and was already over my calories (points) for the day.

Keep coming back and ramble as much as you like! :flowerforyou:

IsMollyReallyHungry

Overall yesterday was a good day for me. I ate 2 more GS cookies before I went home yesterday. No binges despite some splurges with cookies and a candy bar I could not resist when I went to grocery store. The candy bar took me over my calories but still with exercise yesterday I felt great.

Have a good day all!

Marig0ld

Thanks everyone! Mollie, I am impressed that you were able to keep it down to 2 GS cookies! You really can teach yourself those habits. When I was on Medifast, someone in the online community said "I know I'll never be a normal eater, so I can't let myself have just one cookie." I think that's a defeating attitude and telling yourself that there is something wrong. There's not. We may have different tendencies, but that doesn't make us "abnormal" and meaning we have to eat lettuce forever.

Even when you go over, just being able to log it is impressive. I would have huge binges and just be too ashamed to log. Keeping my diary private has helped with this.

IsMollyReallyHungry

Thanks Colleen but I had 2 MORE before I went home yesterday. The total for yesterday was 8 all together with the 6 I had at lunch time. But considering I could do a box or 2 before I still count yesterday a good day!

richardsrm

:grumble: over ate....no binge.......but overate. Sams Club rotiserre chicken ah well............tomorrow is another day. will down a bunch of water and hope that the fat will wash away........didn't eat the skin that is progress......but feel stuffed. Did so good all day....just never should have stopped there. Mollie all I can say is you have improved and so have I .....didn't eat the whole chicken but still should have stopped when I had a "normal" serving. Thanks to all who share it helps me when I am honest. Richie.

jade_85

Overall yesterday was a good day for me. I ate 2 more GS cookies before I went home yesterday. No binges despite some splurges with cookies and a candy bar I could not resist when I went to grocery store. The candy bar took me over my calories but still with exercise yesterday I felt great.

Have a good day all!

well done u thats fab if u feel great thats the main thing xx

jade_85

good morning all (or afternoon/evening if ur not in the uk ) just wanted to wish u all an amazing day whatever you are doing. i dont think i can do any major excersise today as i ache like mad so just going to go for a swim and relaxing steam before i go to work i think. what are your plans xx

Marig0ld

Mollie, that is still great since I could probably binge on 1-2 boxes of GS cookies, too!

Richie, one step at a time--I love rotisserie chicken so it would be tough for me to take the skin off! Nice job logging it.

Jade- Hope you get some rest today so you can be back at the exercise in full force soon :-)

I made a rookie mistake yesterday--I had some snacks within reaching distance while I was having a financial discussion with my fiance. We do that about once a month to make sure we're on track with saving for our wedding, etc. It's a great idea in the long run, but who doesn't get stressed out talking about money? Silly me had some peanuts nearby. I went over my pre-logged day but I still moved on. I exercise a lot so it is hard for me to eat below 2,000 calories a day, but one day at a time.