Confess to, analyse & learn from your binge here
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Well here we go......
Binge #1:
Date of binge : 7/19/13
Time of binge : 7pm
Location of binge : Friend's birthday
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : At party
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : W/ friends
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1500
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... When dinner was served
Before I started to binge I was........... at the party
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... accepting of the fact that I had to eat the food they served me
During the binge I felt ...... disappointed, anxious
After the binge I felt ...... disappointed, hopeless
From this binge, I have learned ........I need to control my eating habits/sugar cravings when in an uncontrolled environment
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
Binge #2:
Date of binge : 7/21/13
Time of binge : All day
Location of binge : Restaurant, Movie Theatre, Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Socializing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Family, friends, alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 2400
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was .......... No time at all
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... waiting in a restaurant for brunch w/ my family
Before I started to binge I was feeling ..........excited
During the binge I felt ......guilt, disappointed, hopeless
After the binge I felt ......frustrated, disappointed, hopeless
From this binge, I have learned ........ I need to control myself during outings
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
Binge #3:
Date of binge : 7/23/13
Time of binge : 9pm
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : On couch, watching tv
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1500
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... about 45 min
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... watching tv
Before I started to binge I was......... craving sweets
During the binge I felt ......guilty, hopeless, worthless, frustrated
After the binge I felt ...... bloated, fat, frustrated at eating over my calories three times in a week
From this binge, I have learned ........that I need to control my sweet tooth!
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Aug 1, 2013
Time of binge : 10:20am-12pm
Location of binge : Metrotown mall in burnaby
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : while eating, slouched and sitting ... ordering standing, head down
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : by myself
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1665 Cals
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... about an hour to an hour and a half
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... riding on the train out to Metrotown (a mall), then walking through the mall to get to food court
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... lonely, bored, empty
During the binge I felt ...... disgusting, fat, evil, lonely, bored, empty
After the binge I felt ...... same as above
From this binge, I have learned ........ that the binge doesn't solve a single thing, it just makes you feel worse
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : July 30th
Time of binge : All dayyyy
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge : Sitting on my bed & then in the kitchen
Company kept : Alone for the majority, made pasta at night.
Approximate calories consumed during binge : Around 4,000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 5 minutes probably. I had my day all planned out and full of healthy foods. In the morning I decided I wanted cereal and kept eating cereal. It wouldn't have been so bad, but I just decide 'might as well cheat the rest of the day'. 3 bowls of cereal led to 3 peices of toast, which led to half a jar of peanut butter, and oreos, and a bunch of pasta for dinner
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Sleeping
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Hungry, maybe deprived? Before a binge I tell myself that I'm skinny and I need to eat a bunch of food, but it's so unhealthy I just want to eat like a normal person.
During the binge I felt ...... Like I knew I was going to feel gross after, but I enjoyed eating.
After the binge I felt ...... Bloated and gross. My stomach was in so much pain because I ate gluten.
From this binge, I have learned ........ I need some self control and to stay away from cereal.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. I'm also going to start a mission to start eating my maintenance calories by upping my daily intake 50-100 calories each week & I want to finish C25k! (:
Hopefully my last ALL day binge where I feel so out of control!0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : August 1st, 2013
Time of binge : 8:30 - 10 PM
Location of binge : kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : standing, tense
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone at first, my mom was then present watching TV
Approximate calories consumed during binge : around 900
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... throughout the day. sudden urges, but they'd pass because too many people were around.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... cleaning up dishes after dinner
Before I started to binge I was feeling ..........tired, headache, frustrated
During the binge I felt ...... comforted
After the binge I felt ...... disgusting, uncomfortable
From this binge, I have learned ........ That I NEED HELP controlling my binging urges and saying NO to them.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. *Even though I am relieved for confessing, I still feel bad about it, but tomorrow's another day. Must keep writing away in my Binge Diary!0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 1st August
Time of binge : around 9pm
Location of binge : my house
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : family
Approximate calories consumed during binge : around 600 (not as bad as some binges, but I did feel incredibly full and sick and stomach had doubled in size!)
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... I had an urge all day!
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... I had been driving all day and hardly eaten anything, then I was relaxed after dinner
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... hungry, "it doesn't matter if I binge tonight" is the usual
During the binge I felt ...... like I shouldn't be eating anymore!
After the binge I felt ...... disgusting, uncomfortable
From this binge, I have learned ........ to not go without food all day, and even low cal/fat foods can bloat you up more than pizza!
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. (I am beating myself up oops)0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 2 August 2013
Time of binge : 11.30 pm
Location of binge : Kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1800
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was 4 mins
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... sleeping
Before I started to binge I was feeling .....tired, i woke up
During the binge I felt ...... nothing, I new i was doing something wrong, I ididnt havr a clear head
After the binge I felt ...... Bloated, like a faliure, I was doing so well.
From this binge, I have learned to try and go to sleep earlier and not allocate all my dessert food so late at night because thats when I usually binge.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : August 1st, 2013
Time of binge : throughout evening
Location of binge : bar, 24-Hour grocery store, fast food place
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting, slumped, walking around, fidgety
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : at first I was around coworkers, then I was alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge :
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: I had been thinking about and fantasizing about bingeing for days. I knew I probably would because I was going out drinking with friends/coworkers.
Before I started to binge I was doing: drinking, socializing with friends/coworkers
Before I started to binge I was feeling: excited, anxious, urgent
During the binge I felt: urgent, embarrassed
After the binge I felt: like I wanted to keep bingeing, wanting to find a way to purge, embarrassed, uncomfortable
From this binge, I have learned: fantasizing about a binge, restricting, and drinking sets me up to binge
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
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Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 7/29/13
Time of binge : 4-5:00 PM
Location of binge : In my kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone (I'm always alone during binges)
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1200
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 5 minutes. I just thought I was getting a quick snack at first.
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... cooking a nutritious dinner for the next day.
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... anxious, upset, overtired. I was getting ready to go to a birthday party that wasn't going to include dinner, just drinks and cake. I was trying to figure out when to fit in dinner, or at least a quick snack, plus how to get everything done (cooking, cleaning) for the work week. My boyfriend was at a family gathering (which I wasn't invited to, so feeling slightly resentful), and I wasn't sure when/if he was going to show up for the party. It was stressing me out.
During the binge I felt ...... resentful and full of self-loathing, yet justified. I had a biscuit, then a handful of tortilla chips, and suddenly I'm eating a ton of crap, none of which I really wanted to eat. It didn't matter anymore, because I'd already gone over my cal limit for the day.
After the binge I felt ...... bloated and gross. I wanted to just go to bed, but because I was bringing the cake, had to drag myself to the party instead.
From this binge, I have learned ........ to try to be less anxious about everything. The party turned out to be a lot of fun, and my boyfriend made it to the party.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. I know my triggers, after the fact. I just have to recognize them before a binge happens, and calm down long enough to keep myself from binging.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Aug 7, 13 Binge day
Time of binge : Afternoon
Location of binge : home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Walking around a lot
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Mother in Law here
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1000+-
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... I knew it almost right away but still did not stop
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... nothing ?
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... stressed!!
During the binge I felt ...... Still stressed but better
After the binge I felt ...... Horrible and guilty
From this binge, I have learned ........ I do not handle stress well
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Last night, 17 August 2013
Time of binge : 10-11pm
Location of binge : Kitchen bench and sitting on the Lounge
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Kitchen - standing; Lounge - sitting back, legs up
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone of course!! Secret!!
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 5,000 in 60-90 minutes
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 10 minutes
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Watching TV by myself
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Fine. Although looking back, I think I was lonely.
During the binge I felt ...... Nothing. I was not thinking or feeling.
After the binge I felt ...... Disgusted in myself, sick, physically sick, guilty, ashamed, self-hatred, remorse, disbelief, angry, fat
From this binge, I have learned ........ I'm not as in control of my eating as I thought I had become. I can't have junk foods around, I need to keep them out of my kitchen. I need to bring my behaviours back into my consciousness so I can get a handle on this again.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.
I wrote about it in my blog.
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/blog/SkimFlatWhite68/view/who-needs-enemies-when-you-have-self-sabotage-5670760 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 8/19/13
Time of binge : 9pm
Location of binge : my kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 500?
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: 5 min
Before I started to binge I was doing: mindlessly scrolling through online blogs
Before I started to binge I was feeling: tired, anxious
During the binge I felt: irritable, out of control
After the binge I felt: defeated
From this binge, I have learned: I feel out of control many times in my life and this creates anxiety, binging does not make me have more control in my life and does not fill this void.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 8/20/13
Time of binge : 11pm
Location of binge : kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : standing
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 500
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: very short - about 30 secs.
Before I started to binge I was doing: browsing sites online, waiting for text response
Before I started to binge I was feeling: angry, resentful, abandoned, lonely, threatened, insecure, vulnerable, out of control
During the binge I felt: frustrated with myself, sad, angry, isolated
After the binge I felt: hopeless
From this binge, I have learned: I know that I binge when I feel lonely or like I can't control a situation. It's the way I punish myself when I feel like I'm not good enough. It becomes my comfort, my friend, my constant companion.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 8/22/13
Time of binge : about 1pm til 9 pm
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Standing and sitting
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : I haven't had the courage to even estimate...
The amount of time between realizing I wanted to binge and starting the binge was very short, maybe, a few minutes
Before I started to binge I was doing house cleaning while watching tv
Before I started to binge I was feeling probably bored
During the binge I felt nothing. I don't think about anything.
After the binge I felt uncomfortable, disgusting, let down yet again, a failure
From this binge, I have learned ........ I don't know if I've learned anything. I keep binge eating. I keep failing at controlling my eating. I don't know how you're supposed to stop. Every time I feel like I've had a good streak, I lose it.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Gah... had a binge...
Date of binge: 25/08/13
Time of Binge: Pretty much all day while there was food in my room
Body language during binge: Sitting in front on my computer
Company kept: Alone
Calories consumed: 2400 (for the whole day)
Amount of time it took to realise it was a binge: Kinda just realised at the end of the day when I actually logged all I'd had.
Before I started the binge: I was looking forward to having my favourite scone style bread for breakfast after having eaten a lot the previous day but balanced out with lots of exercise.
Before I started the binge I was feeling very very tired and sleepy, but I got up anyway.
During the binge I felt: Empty, as though there was an empty space nothing could possibly fill.
After the binge I felt so stupid, as if I have to go through this every single week.
From this binge I have learned that it has become my habit for good or bad to eat large amounts of food then fast for long periods of time. If I eat a lot, I should understand that it means I won't be able to eat as much the next day.
I can now move on without beating myself up too much.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Aug 28/2013
Time of binge : Approx 12-2pm
Location of binge : Quiznos subs and Grounds for Coffee
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting, distracted by my computer
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : All by my lonesome
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1000 Cals
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... About 1 hour
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Went to the gym/to a yoga class, then riding the bus aimlessly
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Bored and lonely
During the binge I felt ...... Empty
After the binge I felt ...... Bored, lonely, guilty, ashamed, and stupid
From this binge, I have learned ........ Binging never solves anything, it always still leaves the same original emotions, and just adds more negative emotions onto it.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
I really hope getting this out in open will help me. I feel like an addict, ashamed to tell anyone and regretful of my actions...
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : Friday, August 30th
Time of binge : 9:30pm - 10:30 pm
Location of binge : Starting in the car and ended in the kitchen
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : sitting down driving, then sitting at the table
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : alone, as usual
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 1800
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... about twenty minutes
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... working out, then shopping for my binge food
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... alone, bored, deserving to eat whatever the hell I wanted since no one cared to be around me
During the binge I felt ...... euphoric, satisfied, loved
After the binge I felt ...... ashamed, worthless, bloated
From this binge, I have learned ........ being alone doesn't mean i am ultimately alone. I know I should have just picked up the phone or logged onto MFP to find someone to talk to
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Since my daughter started working until midnight, I've been having the urge to binge a lot more. Sitting at home alone. Lonely. Bored. Depressed. When I feel that way, I just want to eat everything. It's an "I don't care. I just want to be full." kind of feeling. When I feel empty, I feel the need to fill that up with something.0
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Ok, I admit it, I had a binge last night before bed.
Date of binge : Sunday, September 1st
Time of binge : 9:30pm to 11:00pm
Location of binge : My kitchen and living room
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Standing for part while preparing the food. Sitting mostly though. Wouldn't say I was tense, actually I was feeling pretty good. Yes, the binge was pleasurable (during the binge).
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : My wife was in the other room or upstairs.
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 2,000
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was 10 minutes.
Before I started to binge I was doing something I'd rather not talk about.
Before I started to binge I was feeling ashamed and anxious and hungry.
During the binge I felt really good. It's so weird how pleasurable the binge was.
After the binge I felt confused.
From this binge, I have learned that I can put this binge in a box and move on without bingeing again the next day (well halfway through the next day).
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up. I would add that having told other people not to beat themselves up and to love themselves has helped me tremendously with this binge.0 -
Ok, I admit it, I had a binge.
Date of binge : 9/30/13
Time of binge : 8:30pm
Location of binge : Living room then my own bedroom
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : lying on my bed, working on a paper for class
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Friends then alone in my room
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 5K
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was ........... 30 minutes
Before I started to binge I was doing ......... Homework, eating a healthy dinner
Before I started to binge I was feeling .......... Bored, deprived, rebellious
During the binge I felt ...... So good and so bad
After the binge I felt ...... Sick to my stomach (wanted to puke)
From this binge, I have learned ........ I can not keep bags of chocolate in my room. I should not eat more than a few pieces because it makes me feel bad, even though it did taste good, it honestly wasn't worth the bloat afterwards. I know that I am so proud of myself on days I don't binge. I love the feeling of thinking I am free from my binging behavior.
I am pleased with myself for having confessed to my binge, I can now move on from it without beating myself up.0 -
Date of binge : from October the first till October the fifth
Time of binge : 5 days
Location of binge : Home
Body language during binge (e.g. Sitting, standing, slumped, tense) : Sitting
Company kept (alone, friends, family, partner etc) : Alone
Approximate calories consumed during binge : 8000 a day
The amount of time between realising I wanted to binge and starting the binge was: a second
Before I started to binge I was doing: I was trying to avoid going to school because i was terrified to go there alone without my sister so i pretnended to be sick
Before I started to binge I was feeling: Lonely, scared, upset, confused
During the binge I felt: Fullfilled and happy
After the binge I felt : Confused
From this binge, I have learned that i am indeed compulsive overeater and need to do something to stop this behaviour.0
