prestonam, I sometimes want to binge when I lose. I might be sabatoging myself though.

I always want to binge when I lose weight and really have to fight it too

me too, don't know what's with that...maybe I don't feel as muc pressure to lose?

I just binged...my last final of my 3rd year of university finished this morning, this time it was...'relief' ?? usually it's anxiety....

I'm totally out of control right now...I feel gross

Thanks for the book tip!

I find that I do much better when I've eaten enough throughout the day....it really helps.

Donna L.

Hi Tsillz,
I just checked in and saw your post and , sure, that sounds familiar to me. I have never woken up from sleep to eat, but I definitely keep thinking about excessive eating from one day to another and it wears me down eventually most of the time once it gets started. If I struggled to stay under control the night before, I will definitely binge in the morning if I don't get awake enough to be logical before I start eating.

A trigger for me is pain, so I would have been vulnerable after the night of pain you had!! It does sound like your stomach was overproducing acid. Maybe in anticipation of a big meal. Mine does that sometimes and I can usually calm it down with Tums, milk, or cottage cheese. Also raising up the bed so my head is higher than my stomach helps.

So, yes, once it gets started, it often stays with me for days. I can't sleep it away.

I binged over 1000 calories before 6am this morning

I'm well past wallowing in self misery after a binge but I wonder if any of you experience this, as it was fairly new to me, and frankly, a little disturbing.

I couldn't sleep. I knew I wasn't hungry but I kept waking up during the night wanting nothing more than to eat everything. I kept waking up, like 3 or 4 times and I'm pretty disciplined these days so I told my brain to suck it and went back to sleep. I watched some cooking videos and one time I got up and talked to my boyfriend (hes unemployed so he stays up all night) for a few mins then went back to bed.

The night before this I couldn't sleep because I had abdominal pain, higher than TOM, but the same kind of cramping and release, and it was higher than erm "bathroom pain" too, like really high up under a nd below my ribs.. and I got up and had a bowl of rasin bran and the pain went away, but It really wasn't hunger pains, im sure of that, but eating the food somehow made me relaxed enough to deal with the pain. I wonder if my body was just expecting another carb-loaded sugary treat before bed because of that night.

Anyway, this morning at 5am I wake up for work, and what scares me is the feeling wasn't gone. I still needed carbs, any carbs! and I ate 1000 calories of them in a zombie state this morning. I just kind of had a "what the **** did I just do?" kind of moment, I'm sure you guys are familiar with it. I did eat my planned "breakfast" first, but it was like as soon as I started eating the animal took over.

Anyway, do you guys ever have binge urges continue to hound you into the next day? I've never had a binge urge a night of sleep didn't get rid of, and I never feel binge urges in the morning.

I never binge in he morning...I may have 2 or 3 coffees...I do tend to binge the day after a binge, I go for a few days. I binged yesterday, and I was supposed to go out for dinner tonight so I didn't eat very much today, now they cancelled, and I have no plan, and I hope I don't give in. I still have some library books here - so maybe I will look up 'what to do' - I had lost 15 pounds, and now with these binges it is creeping back on...I really really don't want that to happen.. I bought some nice new pants and everyting..I will make a tea right now

Hi, I have bulimia and for the past 2 days have binged on anything fatty/high carbs/sugary I could find in my house. Seen as my mum doesn't buy confectionaries I binged today and last night (2.30am!) on peanut butter, jam on bread, cereal, peanuts, cheese on toast, yoghurts, and tea biscuits. I ate so much and because it was mixing salty and sugary I genuinely felt sick. Problem is Im so used to gagging I now can't vomit anything due to my gag reflex. This left me feeling mortified and I stupidly drank salt water and baking soda to try and enduce vomiting.. which got me nowhere except feeling extremely dizzy and with bad stomach cramps.
I checked my weight and have put on 1 kg just within 2 days of b/p. Is there anyway I can lose this rapidly? Im becoming so desperate now I'm considering plastic surgery which I don't have money for but which I would get a loan for.
Definitely lost my mind, and losing my battle to bulimia.
Please if you are in similair situations and would like to overcome this add me with a message. I really want to talk to people about it and help people recover as it will be helping all of us. I can't tell my family or friends because they wouldn't understand.
Lets beat bulimia the bully together.
Bexta x

Hi, I have bulimia and for the past 2 days have binged on anything fatty/high carbs/sugary I could find in my house. Seen as my mum doesn't buy confectionaries I binged today and last night (2.30am!) on peanut butter, jam on bread, cereal, peanuts, cheese on toast, yoghurts, and tea biscuits. I ate so much and because it was mixing salty and sugary I genuinely felt sick. Problem is Im so used to gagging I now can't vomit anything due to my gag reflex. This left me feeling mortified and I stupidly drank salt water and baking soda to try and enduce vomiting.. which got me nowhere except feeling extremely dizzy and with bad stomach cramps.
I checked my weight and have put on 1 kg just within 2 days of b/p. Is there anyway I can lose this rapidly? Im becoming so desperate now I'm considering plastic surgery which I don't have money for but which I would get a loan for.
Definitely lost my mind, and losing my battle to bulimia.
Please if you are in similair situations and would like to overcome this add me with a message. I really want to talk to people about it and help people recover as it will be helping all of us. I can't tell my family or friends because they wouldn't understand.
Lets beat bulimia the bully together.
Bexta x

I have intermittent bulimia. By this, I mean that the binge/purge has become a lot less common for me. It has only happened twice this month so far and the binges were not extreme ones. I went through an appalling 6-7 week phase last year when I binged daily, often several times a day, and purged. It was always the sugary, fatty foods, like biscuits, doughnuts, muffins, cheesecake, chocolate, ice cream, cream cakes, brownies, flapjack. I would buy the whole lot. I wanted everything because I was feeling horribly depressed and worthless after someone I liked a lot and who had offered their support, turned their back on me. I did not exercise either. I gained about 14 Ibs in that time. Still trying to get the rest of it off 6 months later too.

They key for me has been quitting the scale for the most part, and focussing on just doing the best I can do put healthy food in my body, and to create a lean body by doing strength training. I focus on the mirror and not the scale now more. I also find I have to exercise as early in the day as possible to ensure the rest of the day goes smoothly. I started intermittent fasting a few weeks ago, which has also helped me. I eat all of my daily calories in the evening, basically. That seems to have got me more focussed on getting in a good set of nutrients. Almost a challenge to see how nutritious I can make my main meal now that I have all those calories to play with.

I allow myself a few squares of very dark chocolate each evening, sometimes some chocolate custard, frozen, to curb off any cravings, and I remind myself of what is in the junk I put into my body during a binge and how I am feeding the corporations who produce it, knowing people like us get addicted to it. I visualise my body as the living thing it is, and what I am doing to it when I stuff in excess food.

I also ensure I eat enough. You will binge if a) you are eating too little b)you are aiming to weigh too little. The body does not like that. The body does not like being constantly punished, fullstop.

Bexta -

I have been right there where you are.

I no longer purge, but I still have problems with binging (which is obviously why I'm here) so I know how awful that cycle can be. I have gagged myself, abused laxatives, over exercised, HEAVILY restricted calories, you name it.

If you want to get better/become healthy (both physically and emotionally) THE VERY FIRST THING YOU MUST DO IS STOP PURGING.

Okay, I KNOW that sounds impossible, but take it from me: You have basically no chance of stopping your binging behavior unless you stop purging FIRST.

Purging creates a cycle and it also reinforces the idea that even if you binge you can "always make it up later." You can not. All you will do this way is set yourself up for a future binge.
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The second step is to battle the binge! There are a lot of different strategies that work for people, but some general tips that help most people:

1) Don't be too restrictive with yourself. It is better to set a small deficit and make it daily, then to set a HUGE deficit, make it for 6 days and spend your seventh day alternating between the refrigerator and the toilet... : )

2) Try to identify what triggers you to binge. Is it because you are bored or lonely? Are you feeling stressed out? Are you not putting enough food into your body the rest of the week, triggering an instinct to overeat? You can figure this out by keeping track of what you were doing, where you were, how you felt, who you were with, what happened earlier in the day, etc. for days when you binge.

3) Log it ALL. Being honest with yourself is the best thing that you can do.

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Other than that, there are a LOT of differing opinions on what works. The answer if different for everyone.

You've definitely come to the right place. Everyone here is SUPER supportive, and there is so much valuable information in these forums!

Angel that's a beautifully written post, thank you.