JULY Challenge - Me vs. The Binge
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July 2013
Diane: 3
Binge: 50 -
Me: 2
Binge: 6
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Me: 5
Binge: 30 -
Me: 0
The Binge: 1
If I could remember how awful I feel afterwards B would never win again
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I feel ya girl, sometimes a binge is easily triggered by whether or not I get a text! I've definitely realized how my emotions are attached to stupid things like that...running and long walks have helped get my mind off of it. Still working on keeping 'better' guys in my life so I'm not always feeling so unstable.
7-8-13
Me: 6
B: 2 (7/5, 7/6)
Record: Nov. 9B, Dec. 9B, Jan. 4B, Feb. 8B, Mar. 9B, Apr. 6B, May 10B Jun 5B
Leaving for Greece tomorrow! I'll be back 7/16..and will continue the challenge.
Yeah... thanks Duck and Jul. & this was a text message. I binged, and binged more than one day. I've binged three days in a row. And the guy I like just wants to be friends.
Maybe it's best I'm not in any relationships -- the constant binge days are making me feel worthless and unloveable. I know in reality feelings aren't a good indicator, and can't always be true, but how do I get my negative thoughts to go away when they destructive behavior is making me feel depressed?
Does anyone else ever just get that worthless feeling whenever you have a binge day? Some binge days I feel like hiding away and not talking to anyone (I can't however do that, lol.. but i can cancel some plans)
It effects my relationship with others. There are days I feel confident and happy and I want to talk to people (usually days ive been binge free for days and doing good on my diet/fitness. . . then there are days I feel really depressed, talkative, and gloomy -- binge days. I feel so messed up.)
Anyways.
The binge : 5
July 10th .0 -
I've binged 2 more times since my last post here. 5 Binges for July so far. Ugh ...
I can relate to feeling worthless. The more I dislike myself for whatever reason, to easier it is to binge it seems and then that just starts the cycle over and over. "I feel like crap" --- eat. "I feel like crap BECAUSE I ate" --- eat again. Over and over.
Each time it feels awful (mentally, emotionally, and yes physically)
I have no one to talk to about this. I don't think DH gets it, not sure he cares to be honest. I don't trust anyone in my daily life to actually confide in about this and the ONE time I did, the person I trusted, they threw a bunch of crap back in my face.
Everyone just thinks I am so perfect at all of this, eat right, work out, yayyy go me!! They have no eff-ing idea how much of a daily struggle this is. They don't know what I go through, what I put myself through, they don't know the emotions I have. Maybe some of that is my fault BECAUSE I DON'T tell them. Sometimes I do just want to be alone, away from everybody. I feel so alone most of the time anyhow so why not, right?
I'm rambling...
Have to go to work now.0 -
July 9
Karen 4
The Binge 4
Over Calories 1
Days Left 22
Binge Days
7/4
7/5
7/6
7/7
Over calories
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July 2013
Diane: 3
Binge: 60 -
Me: 3
Binge: 6
Getting back on track.... slowly. One day at a time....0 -
me 8
binge 20 -
July 10
Me: 5
Binge: 5
Gotta get out of this funk.0 -
July 10
Me: 8
Binge: 2
Already worse than last month. Need sleep.0 -
July 10
Karen 5
The Binge 4
Over Calories 1
Days Left 21
Binge Days
7/4
7/5
7/6
7/7
Over calories
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Well, I went on vacation and overate all throughout the week. I knew I wouldn't be eating "healthy" and did pretty well at keeping the binge at bay until Sat. Then, I just went nuts
Me: 8
Binge: 20 -
July 2013
Diane: 4
Binge: 60 -
July
Me: 9
Binge: 1
June: 3 binges0 -
Me: 4
Binge: 60 -
July 11
Me: 6 *
Binge: 5
Back on track today.0 -
July 11
Me: 6 *
Binge: 5
Back on track today.
Nice work!
Me: 10
Binge Monster: 1
and back on track calorie wise after the splurge around the 4th...0 -
Me:7
Binge:5
Not doing so great this month. I was so depressed that I even looked online for appetite suppressant and diet pills that would suppress my appetite. Then I realize its' not about controlling the appetite, since when I binge, I'm not even hungry to begin with! Really need to dig deep and realize WHY I need to sit there and binge when obviously I am not even hungry.0 -
July 2013
Diane: 4
Binge: 70 -
Me:7
Binge:5
Not doing so great this month. I was so depressed that I even looked online for appetite suppressant and diet pills that would suppress my appetite. Then I realize its' not about controlling the appetite, since when I binge, I'm not even hungry to begin with! Really need to dig deep and realize WHY I need to sit there and binge when obviously I am not even hungry.
EXACTLY. Good point. I've thought about those too, but they aren't going to do anything because a lot of times I'm not hungry at all when I start eating, or I know I'm "full" but keep eating.0 -
Me: 5
Binge: 6
This board is really helping me!!! Thank youuuu0 -
Me: 5
Binge: 6
This board is really helping me!!! Thank youuuu
Nice! It really has been helping me too! So glad to have discovered it!
And yep - getting super hungry never HELPS me not binge and can often be a slippery slope... but most of the time I'm not even really hungry. I'm getting a lot better at stopping myself before too much damage has been done by trying to really figure out why I am eating. (Even if I usually dont like the answer...)0 -
I'm new to this group and would like to hop on board with this challenge. It's July 13 and I need to start somewhere. I'm hoping that's okay with the rest of the members. I'm in a vicious cycle! I like to work out and usually get in 5-6 days a week. However, my binging in killing my efforts! So...here goes! This group seems very supportive and I'm hoping this will be the start I desperately need!
Me: 0
Binge: 00 -
Me: 7
Binge: 6
I'm determined to beat binge!!0 -
Man, hard to believe how much my binging has curbed. I think the extra protein has really been helping.
July
Me: 11
Binge: 1
June: 3 binges0 -
I've lost count - starting over and relearning how to log EVERYTHING
Me - 0
binge - 00 -
July 13
(* stands for my latest activity)
Me: 8 *
Binge: 50 -
July 2013
Diane: 5
Binge: 80
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