Obesitywarrior, sorry for your struggles I hope you can find relief soon!

Today was fine - i chose to give myself a little break today, but still stayed under calories & logged. I'm happy with that

Went over by 400+ calories today, so not too pleased. I had a really great week last week though, and lost 3.4 pounds so I'm trying not to let today discourage me.

Went a little crazy at supper, but still came in under budget.

Sunday was good, came in a 10 calories over budget---not bad considering dinner was spaghetti & meatballs!

Totally screwed up a good day with on bad choice . I didn't eat breakfast and now I'm starving. Ugh .. On a good note I am finding it easier to hit my water goal

Came in under budget today but I'm nervous about the next few days. I'm going out of state and there will be a camping trip. Here goes nothing

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Stocked up on imodium at chemist on way home just incase though. I don't tend to use that because prefer to let body cleanse itself but I really wished I had some left last week just so I could go to shop safely. I want to get out walking again so I think I will keep some in my bag just incase.
I was put on variouse contraceptives for PCOS but they made my spot outbreaks worse and got break through bleeding on all of them, one made me bleed all the time so I gave up on those. I have asked doctors about Metformin in past but none would give it me because apparently they don't hand it out in my area unless are diabetic.

I hear you about Imodium. I don't use it if I'm just at home and don't need to leave, but I ALWAYS have it in my backpack or purse. And I always take one before boarding a plane or going on long road trips, just in case, as Germany doesn't really do the whole public restroom thing and there's this awkward period between closing the plane doors and getting to cruising altitude where you're no allowed to use the restrooms, which with my stomach is NOT an option or something I can control for more than 5 minutes when it's acting up. It's really awful having no control over your system sometimes and it's even worse to not always be able to predict it.

I've also noticed in Germany that doctors here are shocked that I'm on Metformin and none of them have ever even heard of people using it for PCOS. It's basically the second line of defense in the US, after contraceptives, which is why my doctor prescribed it. Even after I sit there telling the German doctors for 10 minutes, "I can't use hormonal birth control. It and my mood stabilizers make each other neutral," they are just like, "We don't do that. I've never heard of that." Fortunately... well, somewhat, the GP that I happen to go to is really lazy and I literally just have to say, "I need 2000mg daily of Metformin," and he hands me a prescription. However it does say on my chart that I'm diabetic (he didn't ask, he just issued the prescription, and I told him anyway)... so that bugs me... but at least I'm getting my meds.



Check-in related: I did well today. Under my calorie budget.

First day of vacation and I ended up WAY under. I missed my last meal of the day but didn't want to hit drive through and once we got to the hotel I just wanted sleep. Hopefully tomorrow is more balanced

Fairly decent day & have ended it under my limit.

I have had a bad few days, struggling to stay focused. I am being good so far today, but I know my mind is not in the game and I might struggle :-( Will post at end of day to see if I managed to stay on track.

I did good today (Thursday). I've been so focused on work that if I didn't set my timer (for my blood sugar measurements) I forget to eat until it's time to go home and by then my appetite would be ravenous.

Thursday was a baad day! Had an ok day, but b/f requested red beans & rice for dinner and I completely lost all control..sigh! I'm determined to get back on track today.

I went on a camping vacation. The Oregon beach was beautiful and secluded. So I had no reception. I kind of used that as an excuse to be indulgent. I got home and just had to log it all. I felt like I was trying to lie to myself by not logging. I went over 3 out of my 4 days. I doubled one day and more than doubled my last day. My daily goal is 1500 and my vacation brought my average for the week up to 2044.

I'll admit I'm a bit upset I haven't gone over like this since I started. I've had bad days where I've doubled my calories but I went right on track the next day. Three days in a row I kinda feel like a failure....

I struggle with giving up every day and I know I'm back on track but it's difficult to forgive myself.

Friday was ok... A planned meal that I indulged in but stayed under if I included my exercise which I normally don't do. Today is going ok.... I've just been feeling like I've been barely hanging on the last couple of days.