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I think the q covers everything and it sounds hopefully speaking as someone bi curious and fairly gender fluid. And that os very me. For someone so strong headed i go all out to avoid confirm with my friends. The whole supplements thing makes my head spin i can barely remember my medical tablets. Work are making life hard…

Damn phone is lagging so bad, found my computer Sorry hon 'crap' was not me demeaning what the American people have just gone through = my personal opinion is that you guys were onto a loser from the start with both candidates. Crap is 'not worth losing an 8 year friend ship that has seen through mental illness, marriage…

Well not a brill cpl days ive just lost a long term friendship. My friend in canada, its all over this stupid election. She tried to discuss it with me the other day and i shut her down bc her views are pretty far to the right and im a liberal but i left a comment on a friends post who is fairly moderate and shes just lost…

You are right in that multiple diagnoses are not that unusual. Once the mental health team had cycled me through PND, MDD and SAD for over 6 years they finally settled out on -Bipolar -Anxiety -OCD -PTSD and keep trying to pin an EUPD/Borderline label on me which I am resisting quite vehemently. I am awaiting the outcome…

Thanks Carly. Ive fallen off it the last couple of days. At best I am hoping to maintain. Going to restart in the morning and try and take on board what you have said. Also gonna make some soup so I have a go to snack as I love soup and have some meat and veg to use up. Had my work meeting today I am returning 3rd december…

Struggling badly. This plan seems eminently to make sense to me and be the way I should eat. Yeeeeeet I found myself yesterday ramming a load of french stick bread and 2 mini rolls into my mouth and tonight ate a bowl of pasta. And I am hungry now. I know its going to take some time to make these changes. Maybe I am trying…

On the food front the group was interesting and eye opening. Yesterday I did ok. Im meant to have 50g carbs outside of meat, veg and berries and I did about 52. Enjoyed a large wedge of ham for breakfast lol. I was hungry I wont lie but I suspect it was a reduction in soda which usually fills me up. Today I have had…

Right finally got my husband to reset the laptop so I can type properly, answering on my phone does my head in because of the screen size and the lag. Thought you were a brit Laura, I live in Swindon, Wiltshire, South west. We are on the M4 corridor. Its alright here I guess, probably wouldnt move as Im not one for change…

Hey. Sorry hope i didnt offend you. Bob is my go to name for when i Cant remember someones name, that or bernard it was essentially a poor attempt at humour. I will remember laura its my sister in laws name. I remember you as persistent soul just couldnt recall your real name then realised later its on your thread in the…

Thanks wendy. Please do post on here its become as much a check in thread as anything else now. Saw my occy health dr today who has said i can go back to work when my current note ends assuming all is well on a phased return. I also overcame my anxiety and went on my own to a new weight loss group. Its low carb fairly…

Actually, better day today. Not done anything special but first day in a long time i could say im having a good day

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Hiya My usual absence apologies. I guess i did go into hiding after all. It was the safer of the options i remain harm free for 25 days and stayed sober throughout so did not raise any obstacles between me and my husband. I made the decision to jump the prozac up to forty mg two days early so am off effexor totally and on…

Id be suggesting she engaged with school. Usually most have access to services like counselling. Id also talk to your ex openly with out any blame apportion to come up with a game plan. If you Cant would she be amenable to talking to you herself maybe less as a parent child but more peer to peer. Last i reccomend Mood Gym…

Im Seriously giving consideration to it. As it stands at the moment im having withdrawal from the drop in venlafaxine. Ive been shaky and headachy with an upset stomach. And am super low and anxious. And in four days it drop again to nothing but will be a week after that before i can go to a full dose of prozac at forty mg…

Sorry Cari im not ignoring this just not in the best place to reply. Glad you are back on a plan and being helped. But am sorry you are feeling so low. Hope the cymbalta helps. Personally that and olanzapine were the worst drugs i ever took but could end up being exactly what you need. So much huge congrats on the job you…

Thanks everyone. Well its been nearly a week, six days. Am still not brill but better than a week ago for definitely. Still get the thoughts but am managing to keep a grip of them for the time being. My cpn came out monday and rang yesterday. I am being referred for art therapy and dbt. I have my psychiatry Review on…

Sorry not been amswering its been a little raw, made an error of judgement friday night. Its been a tough month as ive explained. We are in a lot of debt and its been slowly strangling us plus all the stuff with awen is taking its toll. Prior to crating the dog he was causing some issues and work and neil are their own…

Sorry M not ignoring you

Sorry i kept coming and reading this and not knowing how to form an answer. Its pretty bad here. Took some pills spent last night in hospital. Just trying to regroup

Oh i spent it all on food id never do that to her. Just feel bad its just a picture. At the moment i Cant even afford to frame it. Gonna see what i have in the loft instead. People are definitely talking at work. I was stupid to go in manic because i jitter so bad. Three ppl have been hitting my mates up for gossip in the…

No it makes sense. Ive been told by my counsellor and my best friends i am both a control freak and harder on myself than i would ever allow one human being to be to themselves or another if i saw it happening. So i dont cope well with the lack of control mental illness afford me. Well today i went to art and am learning…

Weighed in this am. Am 17-6. At least its not 17-12 again when i stopped weighing last time (or my max of 19-4) but im angry at myself. Im waiting for my dr to call me to decide about work. First time ive ever admitted this ever but i cant do it at the moment. I just want to hide and disappear. So i cant log and weigh and…

Made a bit of a start last night as was feeling very down but unable to get to sleep so took some diazepam and while waiting for it to kick in filled in all the kids school paperwork i keep avoiding as well as filing anything i was done with, compiling a to do list and organised the paperwork i still have to finish

Thanks. Might be rambly am waiting for diazepam to kick in as i have insomnia and am nowhere near sleepy and cant get comfy in my own skin tonight. I hate these nights. Im going to gp monday and asking for another week. I hate it but im reallylow and anxious at the mo. Gonna ring my nurse and ask him to ask my shrink for a…

Sorry its been a while. Thankyou both for sharing your stories. It honestly does help. We made some small progress on getting the puppy crate trained which has made life easier there and means im enjoying my furry baby rather than yelling and being angry with him all the time. But at same time things are rough. Im feeling…

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Sorry not answered been trying to work things through. So i am due back the third october for a night. I am no longer manic bit still having the odd auditory or tactile hallucinations but nothing i cant cope with. I have to go have a blood test fri or sat. Last few days i have gutted my daughters room, a job ive been…

Having a total freak about going back to work as it is tbh thanks to the gossip mill

Thanks Cari. Well i knock the diazepam on the head totally yesterday and feel way more functional. Today movements totally back to normal, only minimal racing head, did spend a bit of Money but probably more because i gave myself leave to than in a manic way. And only a couple of bugs. And i could think and function…