Runners that need some nutritional accountability

So my mom needs to go clear out her lockbox because they are closing the branch. The key “has always been loose in the center compartment of my wallet in my purse” and of course is not to be found. I am just asking whhhyyyyyy why did it seem like a safe place to put a lockbox key in an open wallet that gets flipped upside down all the time in a giant messy handbag?????
whhhyyyyyyy

Anyway now I get to find out what happens when you lose the key to your lockbox I guess…

@rheddmobile May you be blessed with helpful banking personnel 🙏

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@rheddmobile Glad there is nothing major wrong, but wish they could figure out why you are in so much pain and have the twitches. Am glad to see those are easing off some. But, it has to be hard. Father's Day was ok-ish. Thanks for asking. Mom and I went to my church instead of hers, because mine will mention Father's Day, but normally don't make the entire service about it, which they didn't. Thankfully. I did go in the afternoon to visit his grave. It's the first time I have gone alone and just sat and talked to him about stuff and cried for like 30 minutes. That's what I needed. The rest of the day was fine.

@swenson19 watching the package. Its probably held up with customs. There is a 4 day backlog there atm apparently.

Glad beary is being big daddy! Yes get your passports - though lord knows when our boarders will open. Probably be Christmas 2022 at this rate.

@rheddmobile I am on ancestry. I really hope some of my half brothers/sisters pop up but so far nothing. My dad has several kids after leaving us when I was 4. I don't know them or even if they know I exist. So every time I get that notification I hope, but it's usually 2nd or 3rd cousins. Maybe when I'm 60? It's weird being in the place that I'm likely to surprise someone "hey im your big sister". Sometimes it's weird to think I have several siblings I don't know. Can't dwell. It makes me sad.

I'm really in a funk atm. Eating everything in sight and just feeling so down. I just can't be bothered with anything. So I'm going to go get a journal today and try that. I kinda feel like im spinning in place. Probably cause I'm eating nothing but rubbish.

Hang in there @Avidkeo . I wonder if there are changes with hormones that cause you to feel low and eat? Or could you be too strict somedays with calories? Maybe allow a day a week where you can eat what you want to recoup some calories? And of course, there are antidepressants if you need something of the sort. We can pretend that you and I are long lost siblings! Hi ya Sis! LOL! That way neither of us gets a family member we can't tolerate or is a hillbilly mooch. And we are half a world away so we can't just pop in whenever unannounced.

Cori is fixated on these baby birds. It is maddening that he meows at them constantly. I think after this batch of babies I am going to put a lattice made cage around them just to make sure he can't leap at the mama flying in and out. I don't know how I am going to keep him from them when they are fledgelings. Inside cat, I guess.

I gave my Garmin watch to dd...
I think this is the first thing I have ever offered her that she actually took. We'll see how long it lasts. So, I am going to look at getting the Apple Watch. I just want phone notifications. Not walking, running and if I cycle I won't need the speed & cadence sensor since I am so gimpy.

I did Ancestry. No surprises. I have debated uploading to GEDmatch to help solve crimes but haven't yet because it's pretty much open for anyone once it goes to GEDmatch.

Still here. Mostly trying. Started strength training slowly. Ordered a hyperice on prime day.

RunsOnEspresso wrote: »

I did Ancestry. No surprises. I have debated uploading to GEDmatch to help solve crimes but haven't yet because it's pretty much open for anyone once it goes to GEDmatch.

Still here. Mostly trying. Started strength training slowly. Ordered a hyperice on prime day.

I uploaded mine to GEDmatch. If it helps someone I'm all for it. I don't believe they'd use it to frame me for something or clone me or whatever.

What is hyperice? I can just google it.

swenson19d wrote: »

RunsOnEspresso wrote: »

I did Ancestry. No surprises. I have debated uploading to GEDmatch to help solve crimes but haven't yet because it's pretty much open for anyone once it goes to GEDmatch.

Still here. Mostly trying. Started strength training slowly. Ordered a hyperice on prime day.

I uploaded mine to GEDmatch. If it helps someone I'm all for it. I don't believe they'd use it to frame me for something or clone me or whatever.

What is hyperice? I can just google it.

Hyperice is one of those massage guns.

When I was testing it shadow checked it out and I used it on her hind quarters. Now she barks everytime I turn it on and won't stop until she gets massaged.

I feel like I shouldn’t even post because my life has gotten to the point of not being credible. But sometimes a picture says it all:

Not visible: my 50k magnet, blasted off by the impact and found 100 feet away on the side of the road.

Was he texting? How does one miss coming up on a big bright green xterra driving down a straight stretch of road in broad daylight and just plow right into the back of it? I dunno. I can’t even be mad at him because he collapsed from heat stroke while talking to the police and had to be taken away by ambulance. His vehicle was a giant ram truck with a attachment for a winch on it, which might as well have been a spiky Mad Max car when it hit me. How is it even legal to have two metal bars sticking out instead of a bumper?

I really liked my car and I can’t replace it with one I like as well. To get another green Xterra of the same vintage would cost me three times the price I paid and I would need to pick it up in Colorado.

Good news, my husband and I are mostly okay. My knee is sore from being thrown into the dash and I think my husband may have a fractured elbow. Good and also funny news: I guess I am hot since five different handsome older men stopped to ask if I was okay and weren’t even slightly interested in whether the other two parties were okay. One invited me to wait for the police in his house. Dumb guy who hit us has insurance, although I am sure they are going to want to total the car for pennies on the dollar.

Anyway, stick a fork in me, I’m done.

OMG @rheddmobile! I'm glad you and your husband are ok. Ugh, that sucks. Why can't people pay attention and follow traffic laws?!?

shanaber

I am so, so, glad that you and your husband were not injured more seriously @rheddmobile!! That is just crazy! Was he drinking maybe? I mean really why would he collapse from heat stroke? Are you sure your back and shoulders are ok? When my dh was hit (he was stopped at a light and a lady hit him from behind going 45mph) he was fine until the next day and then, oh my was he bruised and sore.
I hope the insurance will pay out enough to replace your car. If not maybe talk to a reputable attorney - just like medical insurance they will try to limit their outlay as much as possible if they can, and usually that means making you think you have no leverage.

@rheddmobile oh I'm so glad you are both OK. You really need a new year already. And yeah how on earth did he not see you! Make sure your husband gets his elbow checked out

@swenson19 yeah im starting to worry a bit about my mental health. I know my anxiety it a bit up and down atm. Though it's not too bad. I've asked for a routine blood panel looking at thyroid, iron, cholesterol, glucose etc and will see my GP on the 20th to go over the results and have a chat. I have looked at counselling as well, though I'll check everything else. I wonder if I'm in a bad cycle. I'm binge eating a lot of sugar, and my moods going down, which makes me crave sugar which leads to another binge. And this is daily.

Today I started listening to a podcast Brain over Binge. It bugs me because they keep saying the same thing over and over, just get to the point already! So I googled and got the pertinent points. And tomorrow I'll get a proper journal and start journaling. So far the main thing I have is don't argue with the cravings. Think of them as a 2yr old child asking for lollies. There is no reasoning with them. Just say no and move on. It might keep going on and on, but you can just say no. I'm the adult, I'm in control.

Well it worked today. I'm taking it a day at a time.

Dealing with insurance is terrible. DH was hit a couple years back and the other insurance didn't want to pay for anything. We got everything covered but it took months.

@avidkeo Interesting way to think of cravings. I find sometimes they'll get real intense but if I chew gum or go for a walk they'll subside. I can't do the if you're craving sugar eat fruit or whatever because then I end up eating fruit and whatever Inwas craving.

I'm working on not eliminating treats but controlling portions. Last night I had some ice cream. I scooped some out and went oh there's not much left. I should finish it. But then I looked at my bowl and said no, I have enough and put the container back.

@rheddmobile So glad you and DH are mostly okay. That is horrible! Did you both go to the hospital to get checked out? I hope your husband's elbow isn't fractured. I did that once and the recovery was long. You have so much going on. It has to get better soon, doesn't it? Big hugs to you both and glad you could find some humor in the situation with the handsome guys checking on you only. Big hugs to you!

Hugs to you too, @Avidkeo . I like the way you dealt with the binges yesterday and hope you can manage to continue to do so.

You did great with the icecream @RunsOnEspresso ! I don't think I have EVER been able to do that. That's why those things I can't control are rarely in my house. Even though, I am doing really good with the big box of Oreos that my neighbor bought me. I open one of the sleeves, get out 3 (the portion size), put the rest in a ziplock bag, and put them back in the box. The box is in the pantry, so I don't see it every day. I think I've only eaten 2 sleeves and I've had them over a month.

@shanaber oh, it was definitely heat stroke - heat index was 104 and the police kept us all waiting in the direct sunlight for over an hour while they checked registration, filed paperwork, and so on. I was trying my best to be civil the whole time while my husband was getting on my last nerve pacing and shouting and carrying on. I finally told him I was his wife, not his mother, not responsible for talking him down and taking care of his feelings, it was my car that I love not his, and if he didn’t shut up and act like an adult he could go elsewhere.

Anyway, guy was a youngish but overweight redneck sort of guy, in a work truck. What happened was an otter of all things ran across the road. I glanced at the rear view mirror, had plenty of room, tapped the brakes and the otter made it past, then I notice guy in the rear view mirror isn’t even slowing down, he’s not paying the slightest attention. The speed limit there is 50 but it’s a straight shot of country road and I figure he was doing about 80. So, I figure I dropped to about 30, that’s essentially being struck at 50 mph. I had time to try to swerve into the other lane which is why the back is unevenly crumpled, and to say out loud, according to my husband, “Oh no, here we go.” I don’t think he literally ever saw me before he hit me, no brake noises or anything. I’m not entirely sure he wouldn’t have hit me even if I hadn’t been braking for an otter!

So, I hop out and he apologized and was very upset that he nearly killed everyone. His truck would have been driveable if not for the hood bending back to impinge on one of the front wheels, so he gets out a crowbar and starts messing with it in the heat. Policeman arrives shortly (we were five minutes from the station) ascertains that no one needs medical care, and starts filing stuff. An hour later I notice guy is leaning against his truck vomiting and think oh boy, he’s got a head injury and didn’t realize it. But what he says is he has only one kidney after donating one three years ago and it’s really easy for him to get dehydrated. I believe him since I helped carry out a runner at a trail race a couple years ago who had the same issue. It was only modestly hot but the runner overheated, went down and was completely incomprehensible and had to be transported. So, I feel bad being this mad at a kidney donor. But I am still mad. We had water in our car and poured it on his head and made him sit in the shadow behind the car and try to drink something until the emts got there. I know they called an ambulance and transported him but I haven’t followed up, will call today and find out if he’s okay I guess.

Meanwhile we are in my mom’s car which she isn’t using.

Btw I am working on getting my husband to check his arm out. It hit the window.felt mostly fine at the time but has since swollen and bruised and gotten painful over the distal humerus and it seems pretty likely there is a compression fracture in there. I am not running today because the dash hitting my knee has left it sore, and also I have a purple bruise on my forehead from my head hitting the sun visor, which I didn’t even notice at the time. Cars have so much power, it’s amazing any of us poor monkeys survive driving around at speeds we were never designed to understand!

I read somewhere that way more people would die if it weren't for all the safety things that are in cars now.

We don't think about it now but cars in the 20s and 30s were basically death traps and they couldn't even go very fast!

I was listening to a podcast yesterday and they were discussing the issue with calling new tech self-driving or hands free. People hear that & don't think they need to stay aware and take control when needed. In Europe they aren't allowed to use thosw terms and they don't have the issues the US has. It's going to get worse before regulations come here.

@rheddmobile Glad everyones okay. Sorry about the cute little green car. My dh is someone that could have done something like that. His ADD can be so bad, he'll get fixated on pairing his phone with the radio and flipping through it which takes his eyes off the road for far too long. I thought the same thing @shanaber did, about him drinking. A friend and I were rear ended sitting at a stop light. Everyone was fine. But the guy had been drinking. I had my head turned talking to my friend from the passenger side and have some residual neck pain. That's been maybe 20 years ago. So watch for injuries for a while. Hope your Dh's arm gets the attention it needs, on the drivers insurance. Did your dh ever get the PVC's under control?
It's funny you mention how unbelievable your life circumstances are. I've been, er still find people I don't believe with all they have going on, and look at myself which is a heap of stuff. Dh says I am a hypochondriac. I told him that I hope there is a pill for that. LOL! Anyway, yes sometimes we find ourselves in a life storm. The driver seems to be having his own.

@avidkeo I like addressing those cravings as a little kid having a temper tantrum. I will also tell myself that I already ate junk (when I haven't). it helps too. I found that refined sugar tends to make my emotional state worse. So I try to use that as a means to not give in; ice cream and cry all day or feel low. We have been keeping halo fruit bars for a cold sweet treat. 40 calories per bar and no guilt because its fruit.

My day
boring I hope. headache, allergies, bean has a vet appointment because she has stinky gas. I walked into the bedroom and the whole room smelled. can't be good. I ordered an Apple Watch, pick up at Walmart today. I am officially a convert. I need to get my paper for the week done and fix the dog fence. Maggie has found that she can roam. I may extend it to the front yard. We are on 2.5 acres and they have the whole back half, but I like the idea of them coming around to the front door. although Bear won't like sharing it.

@rheddmobile I hope your husband will have his arm looked at. When mine was fractured, I was fine for about 2 hours. It felt like I had hit my funny bone, and slowly got stiffer and stiffer, until I just couldn't move it at all. Because of where it was, they wanted me to use it as much as possible, which wasn't much for a long time. I had PT and did exercise band curls for 8 months before I could completely straighten my arm out again. I hope that is not the case for him. Also hope you and the young man are okay. Good idea to give your knee a rest.

You would think, logically, that if you only have one kidney that you would pee less and therefore have less trouble with dehydration, not more. Hummm. My MIL found out late in life that she was born with only one kidney. She could go all day and never pee. I figured that was why.

Has anyone heard from @ddmom0811? The recent condo collapse had me thinking about her. I don't know where her condo was but hope all is well.

Well i got through yesterday, and avoided the cravings. I listened to more of the podcast this morning. Typical self help, they spend 15 mins telling you about what they are going to tell you, and then the last 5 minutes finally telling you the point. Grrr. But again a couple of good nuggets.

My binging is from habit. I had a week off and ate what ever I wanted and that triggered a habit, that I'm now in a cycle of. So I need to rewire my brain to stop the habit. And every time I say no to the craving, I'm rewiring things. I kinda like looking at it that way. It's a way of looking at it as positive reinforcement.

@rheddmobile I hope DH gets his elbow looked at soon. Can he flex and extend it? Never force it though! I had a car accident a few years ago and tore the labrum in my shoulder. Took months to diagnose due to my own stubborn nature. Healing was a matter of time, but knowing it was torn forced me to give it that time.

@RunsOnEspresso I am MFP friends with @ddmom0811 . She posts almost every day. She has been doing a lot of biking and running. Their condo is further north - Coco Beach or Daytona Beach, I think. I know it's more toward the middle of the state.

quilteryoyo wrote: »

@RunsOnEspresso I am MFP friends with @ddmom0811 . She posts almost every day. She has been doing a lot of biking and running. Their condo is further north - Coco Beach or Daytona Beach, I think. I know it's more toward the middle of the state.

Oh yes, that does sound familiar now that you say it. Glad to hear for her but still sad for those that were involved

shanaber

@swenson19d - I had to laugh that you are now an Apple convert... I really love how they all work together. There have been a few times I have considered getting a Garmin watch but I love my Apple Watch too much. Not sure what band you got but you can get fun replacements on Amazon for less than $10. I have my original 'nice' band and several cheap ones that I switch depending on my mood.
I hope Bean's Vet appointment went ok and it is nothing serious.
@RunsOnEspresso - I thought of her too and had to look up the location of the condos that collapsed to see where they were. As soon as I saw it was near Miami I knew it wasn't anywhere near her. She lives in the Orlando area and the condo is in that part of the state, likely between Daytona and Coco Beach...
It is so sad about all the families and people in that building, I can't even imagine. I hope they can figure out what caused it.
@avidkeo - so glad you are managing to get things back under control. Hopefully the more you feel in control the better your anxiety will be.

Most of my day was spent trying to get some answer on the ortho referral and/or what they think the plan should be going forward. The MRI showed a high grade partial tear. I left messages for the PA I have been working with, no response. So I tried to make an appointment with the ortho doc I saw for my hamstring as tendons and such seem to be his thing. She found the referral (I don't have it in my file for some reason) but it was written for the main ortho center and no specific doctor and he is technically part of that group but in a different office. I couldn't get in to see him anyway until August. So I called the main ortho office and I asked to see the doctor who had treated me years ago when I fell and broke my arm. They found the referral too but she was so confused as to what it was for and couldn't decide who I should see. Put me on hold for 20mins while she checked with others and then came back and got my call back number and said they would call me when they decided who I was going to see... no call back ☹️ I can't figure out what the issue is. I know there are docs there who specialize in hands, feet or knees and hips but there are also general orthopedics and those that treat arms and shoulders. Just pick someone who can see me relatively soon <sigh> I also told her the MRI results are in my file if that would help.

To get my frustrations out in the middle of all that I went out for a walk/run. Left Hobbes at home because it was already too hot for him. He didn't seem to mind or care really. I did a 30/30 run/walk interval with my app set up for 30 mins of it. I had to stop a few times when my arm started aching but it felt good to run what I could. I am not wearing the sling because it seems to make it worse holding it in that position.
Dinner tonight was leftover BBQ ribs and pulled pork from yesterday - so good! Unfortunately there were no fruits or veggies in my diet at all today. I really need to do better with that.

@shanaber Glad you have a diagnosis, but how frustrating trying to get in to see and ortho. That seems a little ridiculous. Glad you were able to get in a run/walk and had a good dinner. I hope you get into the ortho soon to see what is next.

@shanaber Well... two steps forward and one step back. Hope come Monday all of that is sorted and they can get you fixed back up. Sure your dd has words of wisdom, maybe get copies of everything and look for someone?

Apple
I got the sport band. I haven't picked it up yet or told dh. he's on about saving money and the perception will be that I am spending it. I bought it out of my school money account. I'll check out those bands. thanks!

Beans vet was fine.
no worms. no pain. no fever. Just bacterial overgrowth in her intestines. She did have tapeworms a few weeks back and I think they are just trying to get sorted and in need of yogurt (which she won't have). Amoxicillin and Flagyl & Rabies vaccination with the stool examination $88. LOL! heck ya! I didn't get charged for the stool and will let that slide since Bear had a vet bill for the snake at the emergency rate.

Glad @ddmom0811 's condo is okay. I don't watch news or anything, head in the sand over here. I know its terrible but all the problems I can't solve bother me.

@swenson19d Hope you enjoy your new watch. Glad Bean was okay. I don't watch a lot of news either. If I'm here, I might have it on as background noise and pay attention if I hear something interesting. My issue is that you just don't know what to believe anymore. The news used to be the facts and you got to decided what to do with them. Now, it seems like it's all just commentary and trying to manipulate how people feel about things - hard to sort out the actual facts from propaganda.

@swenson19 glad beary is OK. Exciting about the watch!

Well had 2 days now. Listened to more of the podcast yesterday when driving to and from work at 2am lol. They actually got to the point this time! Talking about higher and lower brain. Lower brain makes the urges but has no control to enact the urges. Lower brain is also very good at convincing your higher brain that the urges are real. One thing she said that really stuck with me is your lower brain will tell you during an urge that binging doesn't matter, you don't really want to stick to your plan of not binging. Just once won't hurt. That hit me because that's exactly the thought process I have when I binge. Before the urges hit, I'm absolutely definite I want to stop the binges. Then when the urges hit the thoughts are definitely it doesn't matter. Just Try again tomorrow. So the trick is to write down your thoughts when. You are in an urge, and read your thoughts when you aren't. To remind yourself of why you are saying no.

I'm becoming a self help convert...