Today I'm proud of myself for....
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Congrats! Happy anniversary0
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Today I'm proud of myself for being able to say no to eating my full dinner plate in order to stay below my calorie allowance. The recipe I had planned had more calories than I had planned in the end, and it was great! But my boyfriend encouraged me to just eat half and see if I was still hungry, and I was not, and for that I feel proud. Because I could say no. I just hope that I will have it in me to do that on my own next time, I really really do!!!0
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Great job icflyinmonkie! And the support from the bf is good to hear - positive and encouraging!
Most know my struggles with night eating. 2 days ago, I got up and ate and didnt even remember it.. So I took a drastic step yesterday. I put all my night go to snacks (cereals mostly) in a box and secured the box with tape. It worked - no waking up to unconsciously eat. I am going to keep doing this with the cereals and granola bars until I break the habit.0 -
Here is a victory for me: Went to a race expo today. These race expo have dozens of booths, and most booths have fun size candy bars, suckers, etc. Basically chocolates and sweets. Runners can walk through an expo and easily pick up a couple 100 calories of snickers, M&M's and other bars. This has been very tempting for me in the past - and have even started at least 2 binges. But today, I walked through the entire expo and did not pick up anything. Noticed them, told myself "Be careful," and I got out without any food, and of course, no binge and no regrets or shame.
I also got a really cool runner tattoo today. "26.2" on my left calf! Love it!0 -
Wow Dennis, you are just kicking butt lately! What an inspiration
Today marks one week free of binges for me. I've been reading Brain Over Binge and its really struck a chord with me. I've still gone over cals sometimes and included treats or junk but all I care about right now is no out of control eating.0 -
Good for you that's great! I know that especially when the temptful foods are free it makes it a lot harder sometimes to fight the urge. I always find it weird and somewhat hypocritical that expos for fitness like that often times have unhealthy foods like that and sugar-filled energy and protein drinks? I get that the fitness part allows for the higher intake of calories but the point of being fit and exercising is to have a healthy body and yet they encourage you to put bad stuff back into your body by giving it away for free :huh: such a shame.0
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Here is a victory for me: Went to a race expo today. These race expo have dozens of booths, and most booths have fun size candy bars, suckers, etc. Basically chocolates and sweets. Runners can walk through an expo and easily pick up a couple 100 calories of snickers, M&M's and other bars. This has been very tempting for me in the past - and have even started at least 2 binges. But today, I walked through the entire expo and did not pick up anything. Noticed them, told myself "Be careful," and I got out without any food, and of course, no binge and no regrets or shame.
I also got a really cool runner tattoo today. "26.2" on my left calf! Love it!
Good for you that's great! I know that especially when the temptful foods are free it makes it a lot harder sometimes to fight the urge. I always find it weird and somewhat hypocritical that expos for fitness like that often times have unhealthy foods like that and sugar-filled energy and protein drinks? I get that the fitness part allows for the higher intake of calories but the point of being fit and exercising is to have a healthy body and yet they encourage you to put bad stuff back into your body by giving it away for free :huh: such a shame.0 -
I've been reading Brain Over Binge and its really struck a chord with me.
That book kickstarted my real recovery. Must read for anyone struggling with bulimia or BED. Good for you!0 -
I always find it weird and somewhat hypocritical that expos for fitness like that often times have unhealthy foods like that and sugar-filled energy and protein drinks? I get that the fitness part allows for the higher intake of calories but the point of being fit and exercising is to have a healthy body and yet they encourage you to put bad stuff back into your body by giving it away for free :huh: such a shame.
I agree. All those sweets. I know they are trying to entice you to their booth, but it does seem out of place at a runner expo.0 -
Wow Dennis, huge congrats to you! You sound like you're doing amazing and I'm glad to hear your therapist agrees.
And great work on the week-free of binges Pudding! Very happy for you
Icflyinmonkies, excellent win! It's so nice that your boyfriend is so supportive of your goals too.
MadDog, the fact that you keep trying day after day is definitely something to be proud of. Hope you're feeling a bit better this week.
I'm a little upset at myself for having a binge yesterday. It wasn't the worst one I've had, but the guilt is hard to overcome. However, I will and I'm moving on.
Today, I'm proud of myself for starting over. I am also proud that I was active over the weekend, which is probably why I was over-hungry and over-tired yesterday and lost myself to the B. I will prepare for my activity this week and make sure I fuel my body the way it deserves.
Happy Monday everyone. Hope to hear some of your successes soon0 -
WillLift4Tats - I know all too well about that guilt the day following a binge. I am actually going through it today. I binged yesterday after a fairly long binge-free streak. Like you, it wasn't the worst I've had, but it's still hard. Hang in there!
Dennis - First of all, congrats on your wedding anniversary! 26 years.. that's fantastic! And congratulations on your amazing progress, too. It's so great that you've come this far and that your counsellor feels you no longer need therapy.
As for me, I am proud that although I binged yesterday, I have no desire to do it again today.
Also, I ran 10k for the first time! A while ago I signed up for a 10k that takes place in late October, although I had never run that distance. These past couple of weeks I've been loosely following a training program that did not require me to run that distance this week, but I figured.... why not try? And I made it! Took me 1h02m.0 -
I'm proudly of myself today for admitting to myself I have a problem and joining this group. Have had hideous binge, in secret. A few years back I lost two stone and kept it off for 18months! Then slowly the binge crept in and now I am at least.4 stone heavier. None of my clothes fit, and every Monday i say this time I'm gonna do it...then something goes wrong...I'm at the food again seeking comfort and solice...only to find I feel worse...and so cycle begins again.
I have recently had surgery and hoping in a couple of weeks I will get the all clear to start exercise regime. I am proud of myself for getting off my butt and increasing my walking today.
Any advice and support would be greatly received .
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...being able to wear my work shirt again, with no buttons gaping, with it not feeling tight.
I feel like a million dollars0 -
Also, I ran 10k for the first time!
Good for you! Running is so awesome.0 -
...being able to wear my work shirt again, with no buttons gaping, with it not feeling tight.
I feel like a million dollars
Amazing job!0 -
BoubouChan, awesome run!! What a great surprise and unexpected accomplishment for yourself!
Momospin, welcome! Glad you found our group. I'm sorry you also struggle with this, but I hope you find the support you need here. There's tons of resources, tips, and story-sharing here. You are definitely not alone. Great job on your walk! I hope your recovery is going well
Libby, huge high-five!!! You must be walking on air
Today I'm proud of myself for sticking to my commitment. I had a great day yesterday fitness & food-wise and am feeling great for it today. I ran (okay JOGGED lol) a little over 3 miles to and from the river, and had a nice swim with the pup in between. I was completely exhausted but didn't let that drive me to overeat or binge.
It's days like these that remind me how good it feels to be in control and make healthy decisions. This is the feeling I need to remember when I feel overwhelmed and want to give up. I need to remember how much better I feel not only avoiding the binge, but replacing it with healthy activity. Not only do I feel better mentally, but physically too.0 -
Just signed up for the Pittsburgh Marathon in May. Motivation to stay fit. And of course, getting a tattoo of 26.2 on your leg is kinda motivating also!0
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Two things: one that is food-related and one that is emotional.
I'm proud of my myself for going to get a coffee and only getting a coffee (skim milk, no sugar) rather than getting an egg sandwich or a bagel and maybe even hashbrowns. I wasn't looking forward to eating that packet of oatmeal-- the last packet in the box of the flavor I hate--but I did it.
I'm proud of myself for challenging some pretty bad negative self-talk when I was looking at job postings. I have a job, but I'm looking to make more money and get into a field that I really enjoy. I kept telling myself that I have no skills, that I'll be stuck at this job forever, that I'll always be unhappy, and that I'll be drowing in student loan debt forever simply because I couldn't make up my mind sooner of what I wanted to do with my life.
I took a step back, took a couple of deep breaths, and reminded myself that I do have skills and good experience. I'm well educated in a variety of fields that actually complement each other very nicely. If the right job for me isn't there today, it'll be there someday and in the mean time I'm working really hard in volunteering to fill some of the gaps. Oh, yeah, and the volunteering is very likely to turn into a job in the next year or so. Jeez, self, be patient.
I guess the emotional one means a lot to me because it's the negative and often incorrect self-talk that leads me to binge or not log or not exercise.0 -
Free Donuts in the Printer Room - I abstained I wasnt even tempted.
Now why can I abstain from donuts and cookies... but cant stop myself from eating 2 bowls of cereal in the middle of the night?0 -
Dennis, I saw that you changed your pic and was wondering if this was your tattoo, how cool! I love it Definitely a great motivator!! As for the midnight cereal, I can only pull from my own experience and say, there's something about being alone and fighting off those demons by yourself. 99.99% of my binges happen once I'm alone. I think it has something to do with releasing that energy (whether it be stress, anxiety, frustration) in a manner that we're used to, but away from the judging eyes of others. What I'm trying to learn to do is release that energy in a positive way - go for a run, angrily clean the kitchen, heck, even rant to my husband about my work stress. Anything. Idk, a little bit of a ramble there, sorry.
Sherambler, congrats on BOTH! You're right, a food-related win is awesome, but the emotional wins are even better. Defeating that negative voice is a huge step in the right direction!! That voice is exactly why I wanted to make this thread. It can be so powerful, but in the worst way. Good for you, keep that up!!
Today I'm proud of myself for facing the gym after 5. It is not my favorite time to go and certain people acted exactly as I feared. But I made it through. I'm even a little sore this morning0 -
Dennis, I saw that you changed your pic and was wondering if this was your tattoo, how cool! I love it Definitely a great motivator!! As for the midnight cereal, I can only pull from my own experience and say, there's something about being alone and fighting off those demons by yourself. 99.99% of my binges happen once I'm alone. I think it has something to do with releasing that energy (whether it be stress, anxiety, frustration) in a manner that we're used to, but away from the judging eyes of others. What I'm trying to learn to do is release that energy in a positive way - go for a run, angrily clean the kitchen, heck, even rant to my husband about my work stress. Anything. Idk, a little bit of a ramble there, sorry.
Yes, I got the 26.2 tattoo last friday. Besides the obvious running connection it also marked 26 years and 2 days of being married the day I got it. My wife thought that was ironic.
I am frustrated with the night eating. I just seem to do it unconsciously. And yes, I am alone at the time, my wife sleeps very soundly. I put all my cereal / oatmeal / bagels in a box and taped it shut the other day, and that helped. I may have to do that everyday for a couple weeks until I break that habit.0 -
Dennis, great job on resisting the doughnuts! It's hard to stop yourself from cereal in the middle of the night, though. You're in a different mindset, still sleepy, more easily influenced, and at a more difficult time for you. Don't be hard on yourself! That's an awesome tattoo, btw.
Sherambler, what you did for yourself in that negative self-talk is incredibly important. There's nothing more important for your mental health than you learning to love yourself as you are. Your self-appreciation will help motivate you to continue improving. Good job in recognizing how great you can be!
WillLift4Tats, your pup was probably loving it! Great choices.
I'm proud of myself because I realized that I cannot control myself if I'm home alone and have access to delivery and have done something to help prevent myself from ordering. I put my credit cards in little plastic envelopes that have letters to myself and the reasons why delivery food is a bad idea (I tend to eat enough for 3). I then took duct tape and taped each entire thing over so it's just a few cardshaped pieces of duct tape. If I want to binge on delivery, which is my go-to, I would have to patiently sit there and carve out my card, all while thinking how ridiculous it is that I'm doing that. Then I'd be met with the letter to myself that I probably won't get past. I carry an allowance cash for emergencies but I prefer to never use it.
I know it's extreme, but I've been spending about $30 a day on binge food and find that I limit myself from having fun with my personal funds because everything has to be saved for binges. This is a new step in the right direction, I hope!
Edit: Just saw the comment from Dennis about the tape! Tape helps!0 -
I'm proud of myself because I realized that I cannot control myself if I'm home alone and have access to delivery and have done something to help prevent myself from ordering. I put my credit cards in little plastic envelopes that have letters to myself and the reasons why delivery food is a bad idea (I tend to eat enough for 3). I then took duct tape and taped each entire thing over so it's just a few cardshaped pieces of duct tape. If I want to binge on delivery, which is my go-to, I would have to patiently sit there and carve out my card, all while thinking how ridiculous it is that I'm doing that. Then I'd be met with the letter to myself that I probably won't get past. I carry an allowance cash for emergencies but I prefer to never use it.
I know it's extreme, but I've been spending about $30 a day on binge food and find that I limit myself from having fun with my personal funds because everything has to be saved for binges. This is a new step in the right direction, I hope!
Edit: Just saw the comment from Dennis about the tape! Tape helps!
I love this comment about taping the credit cards. I'm glad I'm not the only one going to such extremes. Yes, I am taping a plastic storage box. But you gave me an idea - add a letter to myself inside the box.
Seriously - I was looking for a box I could put a keylock on, and give my wife the key to hide.0 -
Dennis and Crepes - I've also used that method! Actually, I even bought a little gadget a couple months ago called the "Kitchen Safe" that takes it to another level... haha. It's a box with a lock and a timer on it, so if I feel vulnerable, but still think clearly enough, I'll put certain food items or my credit and debit cards in there and set the timer for any number of hours. There's no way to open it once the countdown starts. It was a bit expensive, but I thought the idea was great! Anyway, if you guys are interested, the website is www.thekitchensafe.com. Not affiliated!
Today I'm proud of myself because last night I was alone and started overdoing it on some sweets. I stopped before it got too bad and went for a walk.0 -
Dennis and Crepes - I've also used that method! Actually, I even bought a little gadget a couple months ago called the "Kitchen Safe" that takes it to another level... haha. It's a box with a lock and a timer on it, so if I feel vulnerable, but still think clearly enough, I'll put certain food items or my credit and debit cards in there and set the timer for any number of hours. There's no way to open it once the countdown starts. It was a bit expensive, but I thought the idea was great! Anyway, if you guys are interested, the website is www.thekitchensafe.com. Not affiliated!
What a brilliant idea. I'm checking the website out. Thank You.
Last night, I put my night snacking foods in our dog cage, and put a keylock on it. I then took my dog out while the wife hid the key in the house. It worked!0 -
Crepes, I totally know what you mean about spending too much on binge food. Money was tight at the end of the month and I'm ashamed to say, it was completely because of me and my binge-fests. I think I might have to try your letter method. It's not so much the at-home food I'm having trouble with right now, it's definitely stuff I drive out to get. Maybe I need to lock away my car key...
BoubouChan, good for you for stopping! That can be so hard to do. Congrats! I've seen that Kitchen Safe thing too, it's a great idea. Although my husband might not think as highly of it lol
Dennis, nice plan! It's so nice that your wife is so supportive of you and can help you fight those battles. Do you get the key back in the morning or how does that work? I'm just gathering ideas.
Today I'm proud of myself for allowing myself a treat and a little bit of a rest day yesterday. I kind of get gung-ho when a new month starts up, and decide I want to do "all the things!". Inevitably, I can't because, well, time, energy, and whatever. So I'm proud that I didn't do everything I had planned, but still did a little something. It shows me that every day doesn't have to be 1,000% percent to still be a good day. I can make progress with a little every day.0 -
Dennis, nice plan! It's so nice that your wife is so supportive of you and can help you fight those battles. Do you get the key back in the morning or how does that work? I'm just gathering ideas.
My wife & I get ready and leave for work at the same time. So while I was in the shower, she unlocked the cage. And I just ordered a dog cage from Amazon relatively cheap. It will be here on Saturday. That way I have a way to lock up the cereals every night, and I dont take my dogs bed I'm just desperate to defeat this.
http://www.amazon.com/Midwest-1524-Single-Door-24-By-18--By-19-Inch/dp/B000OX89VK/ref=sr_1_1?s=pet-supplies&ie=UTF8&qid=1412266293&sr=1-1
And yes, she has been wonderful. Once I was put off work and put on disability, she stepped in and has been so supportive. I made not have made it without her.0 -
Dennis and Crepes - I've also used that method! Actually, I even bought a little gadget a couple months ago called the "Kitchen Safe" that takes it to another level... haha. It's a box with a lock and a timer on it, so if I feel vulnerable, but still think clearly enough, I'll put certain food items or my credit and debit cards in there and set the timer for any number of hours. There's no way to open it once the countdown starts. It was a bit expensive, but I thought the idea was great! Anyway, if you guys are interested, the website is www.thekitchensafe.com. Not affiliated!
Thank you for sharing that!! I love the idea. I'm browsing through the website right now!
Today I'm proud of myself for packing a work lunch despite being tired and not having many options. The taped-up credit cards seem to be holding! I had no temptation yesterday, because in my mind, I had no money. It was either packing a lunch or not eating. It's so satisfying to transfer that would-be-binge money into a savings account. I want to buy a car, but with a ridiculously expensive binging habit, that's been hard! Now I'm seeing the numbers add up and I'm so happy about it!
I did weigh myself and found that I gained 29 lbs since March, when my binging went out of control. I'm proud of myself for not crying, firstly. I'm also proud of myself for not making myself feel 29x less valuable because a number on the scale does not control me. I'm proud that I am still focusing on my eating habits and trying to improve myself, not because I want to weigh less, but because I want to feel more like myself. Depression has been terrible, but I think I'm nearly at the finish line of this bout.0 -
I'm proud that I am still focusing on my eating habits and trying to improve myself, not because I want to weigh less, but because I want to feel more like myself.
Today I'm proud of myself for really focusing on my activity this week. When I do that, I feel great. Let's hope I can continue that into the weekend, despite being out of town PLUS being with family, which can be stressful in and of itself.
Hope ya'll have a fantastic weekend. Do something fun! The weather is changing and autumn is right around the corner Take advantage and report back Monday!0 -
Have fun WillLift! Working out while our of town is always hard but you can do it!
I hit two weeks binge free yesterday0