BE Support Group Conversation Thread - 2013

karendee4

I binged yesterday. I was ready to just give up. the scale was not moving and I was feeling sick and I just ate my feelings. I still felt bad after too.

I am looking at scooby's workshop this morning. I may ignore MFP calorie ranges and make my own for a while.

karendee4

I started the process of finding a therapist. I saw one 6 months ago and did not like her.

I found people that deal with eating disorders. They even have dieticians etc. I hope thise works out because I need more help. Yesterday's binge was the last straw. I am getting help. I was worried about the $ but binging could cost me so much more than kust money.

rincoglionita

Good for you, Karen! So much good in your post, despite the awfulness of the binge. You're NOT giving up, and you ARE taking care of yourself, calling in reinforcements when needed.

And that was smart to trust your gut on the first therapist. You can't force a connection because the relationship involves so much trust and intimacy. Do you know what you *are* looking for in a counselor?

Really liked reading your resolve!

karendee4

Good for you, Karen! So much good in your post, despite the awfulness of the binge. You're NOT giving up, and you ARE taking care of yourself, calling in reinforcements when needed.

And that was smart to trust your gut on the first therapist. You can't force a connection because the relationship involves so much trust and intimacy. Do you know what you *are* looking for in a counselor?

Really liked reading your resolve!

Thanks I am looking for experts with binge eating. I found a place that has all kinds of wonderful servies. They even have nutritionists, exercise experts and more. I asked them to find someone that fits my needs. I have body issues and food issues. The owner called me back right away! The person she chose specalizes in compulsive overeating and more.

I wanted a therapist that specalizes in eating disorders. My old one did general therapy. She did not understand where I was coming from. I may have found the right fit now. They will call me today so I can "interview them"

I hope my experience can show you should keep looking if a therapist does not "fit"

rincoglionita

Fantastic!
I really like the idea of that multifaceted approach--sounds very wholistic and supportive.

kadoozieK

Hi all,

I'm kinda new to MFP, but not to BED. I was diagnosed 4 years ago and was in counseling for 3 years and saw a nutritionist for 2 yrs. Did a stint with Prozac but that just made it all worse. My BED started when I was in recovery from anorexia (apparently that transition is very common). I'm currently only 5-10 lbs above what I was in high school, and am a size 6-8. I'd like to lose a few more pounds and just tone up a bit. But its not completely about the weight for me. I've lost 25 lbs from my highest and usually bounce around 10-15 on the spectrum each year. Its more about the emotions, guilt, self-hate, and wasted $$.

Tonight (and most Mondays lately) was a binge night. It is one of two nights a week BF isn't here, so less structure in my after work schedule. I always have the best intentions to workout before dinner, but find my mind playing games and agree to eat "just dinner" and then workout. We all know how that goes. Soon I'm over 3500 for the day and in pain. (I also have IBS so binging kills me with pain...SF stuff does too so I can't chew gum to ignore cravings). My boyfriend (of 4 yrs) knows all about my issues. He can't understand how I can't "just stop" but does everything to be accepting and supportive. We are currently house hunting and I really don't want my binging to "move in" with us.

We have a big formal party to go to in 12 days. My dress will fit and look great, and BF will tell me so. But I really want to lose the bloat I've got from the past few days. I'm going to do a modified low-carb to get out of "sugar mode" (as BF calls it) and detox. Bring on salads and lemon water! Two days usually detoxes me and I can go back to whole grains.

Looking forward to support (giving and receiving) in this journey!!

helenld1

Wow - only joined this group on Sunday and already feeling a bit better.

No binge yesterday after employing a few tricks (eating my lunch before I left the office at lunch time, no money in my purse and not buying chocolate when I went to the supermarket last night).

I've read this thread and just knowing other people are out there and willing to provide support is a big thing. Thank you to all of you.

Raquelhuan

Hi i'm new to this group...finally trying to lose weight the healthy way. I've had an ED for about 5 years now and sometimes it leaves and sometimes it gets really bad. Having a really heavy workload this semester and I'm struggling with the stress. Trying to be positive, but i find when i'm not careful i slip back really quickly. Had a binge last night and had urges in the morning. I kindof eased them by asking myself what will happen after I binge, if it will really actually do anything. I think i get afraid of going into this downward spiral which scares me but really...food is food and its not going to jump out and attack me. its just my perception of it that makes it evil to me. i'm trying to just be more clear and calm...focus my thoughts elsewhere.

lesterj64

Good news!
Went to my Nephrologist 2/13 and found out that my kidneys have improved from Stage 3 to Stage 2. GFR 61.
Last time it was checked was 4 months ago. At that time it was GFR 38. That's really great news for me. I'm so happy.
However, my sodium level was low. I was told by my doctor not to drink so much water. Most of the time it's cut down on sodium for better blood pressure. Now, it's consume more, (or don't dilute it so much. Can't win!

Graelwyn75

Good news!
Went to my Nephrologist 2/13 and found out that my kidneys have improved from Stage 3 to Stage 2. GFR 61.
Last time it was checked was 4 months ago. At that time it was GFR 38. That's really great news for me. I'm so happy.
However, my sodium level was low. I was told by my doctor not to drink so much water. Most of the time it's cut down on sodium for better blood pressure. Now, it's consume more, (or don't dilute it so much. Can't win!

Yes, i often think the whole water thing is pushed way too much here. Drink when you are thirsty. You can play havoc with electrolyte balance by drinking too much. I get 6 cups of water and a couple cups of herbal tea a day and a cappuccino, and that does me fine.

helenld1

Having a bad few days since I last posted (famous last words and all that!). Trying to get myself back on track.

Will have a good sit down and think what has triggered me down this last episode as I'm not sure.

I have a more "normal" week at work next week (apart from a trip to London for a meeting) so my exercise should get back on track which will help me massively I think.

Just reading a few threads here is helping.

LesterJ63 - my neurologist told me to eat more sodium a couple of years ago. I still find it hard to add extra to this day!!

karendee4

Good news!
Went to my Nephrologist 2/13 and found out that my kidneys have improved from Stage 3 to Stage 2. GFR 61.
Last time it was checked was 4 months ago. At that time it was GFR 38. That's really great news for me. I'm so happy.
However, my sodium level was low. I was told by my doctor not to drink so much water. Most of the time it's cut down on sodium for better blood pressure. Now, it's consume more, (or don't dilute it so much. Can't win!

YEAH, that is great news. Funny your doc said to drink less water. I hope that works out for you.
You must be doing something right!


I have had some bad days. I am looking for therapists and it has been a struggle. I have an apt for Feb 25th with someone that has dealt with eating disorders. The place I wanted to go was not on my insurance. Oh well.

My plan for now is to set a fitness goal. I do better when I focus on goals like that. (rather than the scale). Maybe work on a 10k and get a good time or improve my 5k time. I am not sure just yet.

Graelwyn75

Good news!
Went to my Nephrologist 2/13 and found out that my kidneys have improved from Stage 3 to Stage 2. GFR 61.
Last time it was checked was 4 months ago. At that time it was GFR 38. That's really great news for me. I'm so happy.
However, my sodium level was low. I was told by my doctor not to drink so much water. Most of the time it's cut down on sodium for better blood pressure. Now, it's consume more, (or don't dilute it so much. Can't win!

YEAH, that is great news. Funny your doc said to drink less water. I hope that works out for you.
You must be doing something right!


I have had some bad days. I am looking for therapists and it has been a struggle. I have an apt for Feb 25th with someone that has dealt with eating disorders. The place I wanted to go was not on my insurance. Oh well.

My plan for now is to set a fitness goal. I do better when I focus on goals like that. (rather than the scale). Maybe work on a 10k and get a good time or improve my 5k time. I am not sure just yet.

Dread to think what my 5k time would be outside as i have not worked up to running outside much yet. But my fastest on a treadmill was 24.33. And think it was about 25.30 when set to a 1.0 incline which was really hard as i have emphysema.

karendee4

Graelwyn75
25.30 is a great time!!! My first 5k was mostly walking and it took me 50 mins. Then I got to 43 then 41 then 39:47 and yesterday was 38:06

Yesterday I jogged/ran the whole thing. I have done a 10 before so maybe I will try to improve the 10k time. Fitness goals help me. I feel like I can succede even when the scale is stuck.


I did not binge yesterday. YEAH. I have an apt with a therapist and I am going with an open mind. I hope this helps!!!

IsMollyReallyHungry

Graelwyn75
25.30 is a great time!!! My first 5k was mostly walking and it took me 50 mins. Then I got to 43 then 41 then 39:47 and yesterday was 38:06

Yesterday I jogged/ran the whole thing. I have done a 10 before so maybe I will try to improve the 10k time. Fitness goals help me. I feel like I can succede even when the scale is stuck.


I did not binge yesterday. YEAH. I have an apt with a therapist and I am going with an open mind. I hope this helps!!!

Good luck Karen!! When is your appointment? You are to be commended for seeking help so you will not gain lost weight back. Good job!! Keep us posted on how it goes with therpist. Is this your 1st time seeing a therpist?

karendee4

Thanks Mollie!

My apt is Feb 25th. I am actually excited! I have seen therapists before. The last one was not a good fit. I saw her 4 times and just quit. She did not treat eating disorders. I tried to go it alone and I know I need help.

I saw a Psychiatrist and he just gave me pills. They did help a lot though.

The whole reason I share that I am seeking therapy is to hopefully let others know it is so very helpful. There is such a stigma with therapy and I hope talking about it takes that away.
I also want people to know that if the first therapist does not fit keep trying.


I hope everyone is having a great day!!!

I am going to exercise now. YEAH

IsMollyReallyHungry

So true Karen. You went 4 sessions. There have been times I know in 2 sessions if not a good fit. The thing is not to give up if you really need one.

I have ones I go back to when I really start to have a relapse.

Yes it is very useful to seek a good therpist when dealing with any eating disorder program. The program I was in in 2011 at Alexian Brothers was an excellent program for me. Thanks for support and spreading the work on therphy being beneficial.

Enjoy your workout!

rincoglionita

The whole reason I share that I am seeking therapy is to hopefully let others know it is so very helpful. There is such a stigma with therapy and I hope talking about it takes that away.
I also want people to know that if the first therapist does not fit keep trying.

Could not possibly agree with this more!! :drinker:

I've been seeing the same counselor for several years. As I may have mentioned in a different post, therapy is the best gift I can give myself. It's done wonders for my self-esteem, my ability to get to know myself, and to help with BED.

When I first started, I switched between two therapists for a short while, until I figured out that one of them was a better fit. Have not regretted it since, even when therapy is hard (which it often is).

Good luck, Karen!

poppy

IsMollyReallyHungry

I agree Poppy. and yes therphy is not easy! There were many times I would binge after a tough therphy session.

Graelwyn75

Never had any success with therapy. Or with seeing psychologists, for that matter. I was never even sent to any specialists during my worst anorexic period when I was down to 70ibs at 5'11. The doctor simply told my parents I would be dead within 24 hours if I didn't est. maybe had I been sent to someone back then, I might have avoided decades of subsequent battles with various forms of Ed.

I am quite cynical though, which does not help. I know that therapy is big business and tend to see my issues as someone's paycheck which doesn't sit well with me. I also never liked the sense of having to talk to a stranger about my issues as it just added to the sense of being abnormal and flawed. I concluded that only I can sort myself out, in the end, and that wont happen until i find some peace with myself as a human being.