@pacsnc6 yes I did use tunnel vision. At first I followed Molly’s T-shirt then she got farther away. It was very high up. I start getting panic attacks but I tried to breathe and calm myself down. I just wanted to get off my bike but that scared me too. The 36 trestles before this we’re not a problem so it took me by surprise. After that Molly slowed down so I could focus on her. Mind over matter. We just keep going.
@nstephenson01 i know how much you want to hit that goal. You can do it. During my year I had to stay super focused and determined. I feel like I went “inward”. I didn’t participate like normal times. Sometimes I had to eat dinner earlier than others. For one year my priority was “me” and it worked. All my decisions were built around taking care of my needs. Sleep, exercise and nutrition. No one will care about us as much as we will. It’s up to us to take care of us. For me it was and still is about my health. Not just a number on a scale. But that scale number was my chosen tool to let me know I have hit my goal. It was a long year but it went by fast.
This is our time ladies. I can tell you from 63 years of experience if you don’t do it now...1 year from now you will still be “trying”. There will always be a holiday, anniversary, wedding etc.
I daily look in the mirror and marvel how skinny I am. I am so proud! And above all I am so incredibly healthy.
When I was riding the creeper I thought “this is it! I am living the life of my dreams”
My affirmation was “I am slender, toned, radiant and full of energy “. I said this daily even when I began at my highest weight of 202. Now at 142 maintenance give or take a few pounds, I am slender, toned, radiant and full of energy.
My life feels technicolor now compared to 1 year of black and white. But it was just a little year and so worth it. That doesn’t mean I was deprived you all saw my celebration pictures of amazing meals. But sugar, alcohol, salty, high fat...did not make many appearances that year.
You do what you have to do.
How much do you want it? Where will you be 1 year from now? What will you weigh January 1st! November 1st? Next week?
You all have the power to take control of your lives and make those choices each and every day.
It feels so good to succeed and frustrating not to succeed. Fortunately we have the power to make that choice now for ourselves.
You can do it!

@Cafelelia I love cookies! What kind did she make?
@nstephenson01 you can do it!
This morning I ran 50 minutes with a 10 minute warmup/cool down. I have started my training for the turkey trot. I am planning to place in the top 3. I was very happy with my run since I was still recovering from the creeper and the winery yesterday. Everyday has been so much fun. We played cribbage and rummy with a bottle of wine, a picnic we packed and a view of a gorgeous creek.
We are packed and ready for home. We stopped at their local farmers market. Car is packed to brim with 6 different types of potatoes, Russian kale, chard, mustard greens, heirloom cowpeas, heirloom no spray apples, sweet potatoes, bean sprouts, acorn squash, spaghetti squash, jujube an Asian fruit, 3 types of lettuce, baby currant tomatoes and I think that’s it. I feel so rich. Can’t wait to go home and start cooking. Probably greens, cow peas and cornbread for dinner.

@julie8468 how frightening. I’m glad your on the other side of that. Sending prayers. Hope you heal quickly.
@Barbb1557 your doing great! I did a lot of charting too. We will take every success we can get. Great job!

@nstephenson01

Thank you, I'm glad you liked my post. I hope it inspires others. I'm going to read it often as a reminder for myself.

I like your post about "just for today, I will"
You're right it is definitely one day at a time. One day will be great, one day not so much. Yesterday I planned on being over my goal. That wasn't in my plan for today. However, I did go over at a birthday party. Tomorrow I need to keep myself in check.

We can do it!!