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JFT, 10/16/21 - up by 4:20✅Got up at 4:10 actually. 4:20 is my Oh *kitten* I gotta leave in 5 minutes alarm - meds/coffee✅ - work 5-1 - PICK UP THE DAMN WALMART ORDER!!!! - Dash(time permitting) - Matt psychiatry appt 3pmHe said last night that he's actually feeling a lot better. Not so Doom and Gloom and has more…

10/15/21 - up by 4:15✅ - meds/coffee ✅ - work 5-12✅ - dash 2:30-3:30/4-5 - pick up Walmart order🛑 - JFT✅ - buy decaf coffee/milk - finish laundry - put one basket away - chicken and veggies - call lawyer - look into government programs - lists - meds/teeth/shower - bed by 8:30

Matt's starting to feel a little less stressed out and depressed which makes me very happy. JFT, 10/9/21 - up by 4:20✅ - meds/coffee✅ - work 5-2 - write on break🛑I'm just too fricken tired. 4 5-2's these last two weeks. And overtime on top of that. I'm just so beat. - pick up meds(if they're available) - take afternoon…

So to put it bluntly...Life has been a *kitten* show. A complete and total trash fire. A rolling ball of flaming terribleness. And it's been affecting my mental health. My doctor sent a script for Adderall to the pharmacy yesterday but of course, they haven't filled It yet bc they're seriously short-staffed. So the one…

I'm in a bad place right now. Got some unanticipated medical bills and have no money to pay them. Matt's depression is getting worse and so is mine. I turned 33 at 2:16 this morning... Happy birthday to me. JFT, 9/28/1988 - up by 11✅ just about 9 - meds/quiet time✅ wasn't much of a quiet time considering the storm that is…

JFT, 9/26/21 - up by 10 am :# - coffee/meds <3 - church service 12pm <3 - update JFT <3 - DISHES <3 - flea bath for Panda! - change ALL the trashes in the house - laundry <3 - BREAK DOWN ALL THE CARDBOARD!!!! - WHQ courses - WHQ forums - 6:30-7pm outline - cook dinner! - PICK UP THE DAMN MEDS! - 6pm/nite meds - lists - bed…

It's been a few days. Lol. I'm smack dab in the middle of my vacation right now and I've been having a wonderful time. I've been semi productive. Some days I do a lot(like yesterday) and then some days I don't do much. Like today. I spent a lot of today working on my outline and various writing related things. It felt very…

@MLHC1 I'm glad life is getting back to normal! Surgery is hard, especially when you have a family! When I had my ovary removed last year I was laid up for 6 weeks and Matt had no idea what to do. Lol. I can only imagine how much more difficult it must be with one kid, let alone three! Lol

Yesterday was pretty stressful. Matt had a really bad day and was pretty raw emotionally. I need to have a money conversation soon but he just couldn't do it yesterday. And honestly, I'm not sure if he can do it today either. But we'll see, So far today has been going really well. It's the early afternoon but I have a…

I think I've only just recovered from the hell that was Thursday-Saturday. Between my exhaustion/overstimulated fueled breakdown while 30 minutes from home to incredibly busy days at work to Matt's many doctor appts. It took the first 3 days of my vacation to actually feel rested. But at least I now have 8 more days to…

@clicketykeys @beachwalker99 @mytime6630 Thank you SO MUCH for your words of encouragement and affirmation. I really needed it. Yesterday was a much better day then the last couple. Matt spent more time laughing and smiling, which was really nice to see. JFT, 9/15/21 - up by 4:20✅Yes, but Matt was on the couch playing…

So the weekend and yesterday were a complete *kitten* show. We finally got the letter Friday night that explained that Matt got denied any more unemployment because his previous employer finally got around to looking at the claim and realized why Matt was let go in the first place (an angry, public outburst about something…

JFT 9/10/21 - up by 4:20✅ - Work 5-1✅ - Mindful eating on break✅ - return AC unit✅ - Ask C about leaving early on 9/16✅Got the okay - pick up walmart order - 1 batch(preferably Costco) - buy chicken for dinner - check out Jury Service Portal for Matt

Missed a day and it's pretty late in the afternoon. Lol. Oh well. Here we go. JFT, 9/9/21 - up by 8 am✅ - mindful coffee✅My therapist wants me to start practicing mindfulness and I've had a really hard time keeping it consistent. But the last few days I've tried mindful eating. Which is paying close attention to what your…

I see many faces that have come back! That makes me so happy! I have to go back through and read/update you wonderful ladies when I get home from work bc my break is pretty much over.😩 JFT 9/7/21 - up by 520✅😂someone changed the schedule at work and didn't tell me. So I was 45 minutes late. Thankfully my manager called me…

It's been a few days. Just been busy and such. Lol. But I'm back! JFT, 9/6/21 -up by 4:20✅ - take AM meds✅/🛑I forgot the new one bc it's on my kitchen table instead of the bathroom sink. - make it to work early✅Technically. I ended up dozing in the car in the parking lot. Lol. I've been so so so tired recently. - update…

Do you guys know what happens when 3 people with ADHD try to have a conversation together? Lol. It's not productive AT ALL. But it is pretty funny when I look back on it. Lol. I spent the afternoon with D and her son Z. Both of which have ADHD. It was interesting. But a good visit. I got home at like 6ish and spent some…

Oi...Yesterday...Oi! So I get a call from the the local hospital but I'm on the sales floor so I can't answer it. I see the number and start freaking out. A message is left so I'm standing there, staring at my phone waiting for the transcript of the message to load and it's taking forever. So I just hit the play button and…

I got a lot done yesterday and I had my therapy appt! Which I totally almost forgot about. But it went well. My therapist is really impressed with me and how I handle myself and deal with my mental health. So that was really nice to hear. JFT, 8/26/21 - up by 4:20✅4:10 but only bc Matt made me coffee. I was trying to sleep…

So yesterday was a complete and total nightmare with three bright spots,. I fought with the cable company ALLLLLL DAY! I talked to 8 different agents 5 of which straight lied to me. I took screenshots of three of the conversations I had with them over chat. It's a stupid simple fix too. They need a 2 man team to come out…

Good morning my dears! Sorry I've been absent the last three days. I was working midshifts(11am-7pm) which threw my routine all out of whack. But those are over now and I really hope I never have to do those again! I have today and tomorrow off and then I'm back to my normal 5-1's. I set goals for the first two days and…

JFT 8/19/21 - up by 8:30✅ - update JFT✅ - shower - spend 15 minutes in office - work 11-7 - drop off Jeep at dealer - make sure Matt takes antibiotics - teeth/PM meds - lists - bed by midnight

Had an incredibly relaxing day yesterday. It was very nice! I made burgers for dinner. Well, heated up frozen burgers. Lol. But I only ate one and was satisfied. I didn't eat a snack before bed either. I contemplated it and then checked in with my hunger signals and decided not to. I spent the last two hours before my…

JFT 8/17/21 - up whenever I wake up✅11:22 - Am meds✅ - update JFT✅ - update Matt's to-do list✅ - make yesterdays Ta-Da/todays To-Do list✅✅ - dishes - spend 15 minutes in office - spend 20 minutes reading - log food - eat sensibly(food choices and portion sizes) - afternoon med - meditate - teeth/Pm meds - Ta-Da/To-Do lists…

So Saturday Daddy got in a car accident. He's okay but totaled my parents only car. So they're using ours. He actually went to the hospital which amazed me bc he is very anti-hospitals. They didn't admit him but he was there a while. Well past dark. And Mom doesn't drive in the dark. So I picked him up at 11:30. I was wake…

JFT 8/14/21 - up by 4:20✅ - eat/AM meds✅ - work 5-1✅ - update JFT/log food✅ - meditate(break/ after work) - spend 15 minutes in office - baked chicken for dinner - read something fiction - finish The Novel Factory tutorial - teeth/PM meds - shower - To-Do/Ta-Da Lists - sleep by midnight Not much time to update and kind of…

Today has been super chill. I ran a few errands in the morning and made a few phone calls. Matt had some issues at one point but actually managed to self regulate and didn't let it spiral tooooo much. I'm beyond proud of him for being able to do it! He has a very very hard time with it due to his cogative disability. Just…

Why do I always seem to just disappear for a few days? I don't understand it! Lol. Well I'm back here today! The last two days have been nice though. The day before yesterday I had off. I don't think I really did much. I had an interesting sales call with a gentleman about an incredibly expensive writing program. Not…

Yeah...yesterday was a fail kind of day. By the time I got home from work yesterday I didn't want to move. And I doubt today will be any different tbh. I'm completely exhausted and drained. I worked 6 days straight and 5 of those days were 5am starts. 8/9/21 - up by 4:20✅ - eat/take AM meds✅ - work 5-1✅ - update JFT✅ -…