The New Water Cooler

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  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    Still no word for Zach. On anything - he sent a follow up email - nada. Not looking great. Sigh.

    So much meh.
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    Sorry Z is not getting a response. How discouraging and stressful. Is he willing to go further away from home?

    PT went well today. He had me walk up and down a full flight of stairs using the hand rails. It felt good and scary. I took a good nap this afternoon and then woke up to do exercises and stretches. 5 weeks post surgery. Hope I am feeling so much better in a couple of weeks. I still haven't been able to pedal all the way around on the stationery bike at PT. I hope I can manage it soon. The swelling makes it difficult to push through the range of motion.

    I went into Walgreens today with my cane and bought Easter and birthday cards for the grand kids. That was my first outing besides PT. Maybe I will try driving next week or this weekend. It may be time to do some mall walking by next week.

    Any word on Easter with your family? We aren't doing anything here. Russ will cook a small ham with sides for the two of us.
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    Doing better physically. Less pain. I've tried to sleep in our bed and have been successful only twice. My leg aches at night and the position of the recliner seems to make it less achy.

    Snow on the ground and more possibly coming. Ugh!

    Rory turns 29 next week! The time flew by.
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    It’s so good to hear that you are starting to feel healed. Hopefully soon to include sleeping in your bed more.

    I can’t get any of the pounds I put on over Christmas back off and am still going up. Getting so anxious and mad about it. I was feeling better about my weight and just a few careless snacks days and I’m out of control. Ugh. I actually filled out one of those online places to see about getting a glp 1 and made it come out but haven’t gone any farther. I saw a commercial that said it cuts out the food noises and that spoke to me. I think about, worry about food all the time. But I know I need to do it just with hunger and willpower but I don’t know if I can

    Happy Rory day!
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    What is glp 1?

    Unfortunately, peri menopause/menopause is a time when women tend to gain for no reason. Not all women but it seems to be common.

    Lazy day here. I'm reading, icing my knee, watching tv. PT tomorrow and I may be able to arrive without use of my cane. My goal is to drive the car this week at some point so I can feel confident going where I need to go.

    Tomorrow is suppose to warm up. It would be great if we were done with snow but that would be asking too much. Hopeful though!
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    the glp-1 are one of those injectable medications (really for diabetes) but has become an off-label thing for weight loss. I believe they make the stomach empty slower. Pretty much every other commercial seems to be for one company or another (like ro.co)
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    I take Ozempic for Type 2, one injection a week. Low dose so weight loss hasn't been attributed to my use. My doctor said you have to take a pretty generous dose for weight loss, combined with consistent exercise. I couldn't tolerate a higher dose due to the intestinal irritability, diarrhea, etc. side effects. I've also read it can cause vision issues but don't know what is true. What makes me mad is that doctors are prescribing it for weight loss but it can be difficult for those of us that use it for blood sugar control to get it at times (shortage).

    What do you think of all the ads for the Keto Gummies that are being advertised? Kelly Clarkson is really pushing them and has melted to a thin person. I wonder what the side effects are? I can remember many years ago, going on the Atkins Diet. The first 3-5 days was an eating plan that put your body into a state of Ketosis and burned fat quickly. However, at the time it was considered dangerous to be in that state for too long due to stress on organs, I think. Maybe research has changed that? Do you know much about it? From what I see, a person loses very quickly and I wonder what happens after that. Doesn't that stress the body and its systems?

    PT today. I'm making progress. I didn't hurt as much on the weekend and PT seemed easier and less painful today. My new heating pad has been nice to reduce the ache in my leg when I've been up and about.

    Whatever you choose to do, research the side effects thoroughly.

  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    I drove the car today and went to visit my sister. Yay! I will drive to my appts by myself going forward.

    Rainy weather here.

    Pizza night!
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    Great job on continuing to work hard and make progress!

    I am going to make a concerted effort to lower my portions this week. I also roasted a huge head of cabbage. So far I feel more bloated but probably because I haven’t eaten much for veggies in a while.

    My poor Zach has a full on almost bare area on the b back -top of his head. He is only 23! Stupid hair loss. I can tell he notices since he always wearing a hat these days. I know it’s “just “ hair but dang
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    Can a hat help the hair loss along? I wonder...

    Cabbage is a great colon cleaner but it gives me cramps. I like the WW's 0pt soup with the cabbage and all the veggies in it.

    I have an appt with the physician's assistant at the ortho clinic today. My ortho doc is sick and I would have had to postpone my appt until next week. I'm really hoping I get the go ahead to go back to the pool.

    Windy and snow flurries today. Yuk!
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    I hope you appointment goes great and you can get your swim on.

    We had snow here too this week!
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    Are you looking at those gummies that have ACV? I think there’s some anecdotal evidence that acv is beneficial and seems like an easier way to get it than drinking acv. I remember when keto was such a big thing, but I never attempted. I have never thought I could go long enough without carbs to get there.
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    I had some ACV gummies but they didn't do anything that I could see. I threw them away.

    I have to wait two weeks to swim due to a couple of small openings in my suture caused by internal stitches that are pushing their way out. I will go work out in the gym area next week.

    Rory turned 29 today! Wowzer!! Time flies...

    No snow here. I'm hoping to walk outside tomorrow on our long driveway. I need to practice bending, squats, marching, and walking without a limp. I want to ditch the cane by Monday.

    Hope your week is going well.
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    Cold and brisk but sun is shining. I walked our driveway loop twice (pretty big) with my cane. I went to see what Russ was doing in the pole barn and he showed me the bird houses and benches he built this winter. He should get a booth at a farmer's market and try to sell them. I have a feeling our property will be full of feeders and bird houses and more than one bench.

    TGIF!!
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    You can have quite the birds paradise!

    Good job walking. Keep at it.

    Did a grocery run this morning. We will be going to eat at my folks Sunday. Mom said she wants me to bring asparagus. 😬. I guess I’ll have Bernie grill it. It’s not the type of vegetable that I think carries well, but whatever.

    My dad got all excited about some facebook post that a cousin of mine was tagged in and he insisted I reach out to him because he wants a bunch of it. I don’t even know what stuff he wants, not that he needs anything but I messaged him and ended up talking to him. It’s not his stuff but a friend of his had tagged him. So. Trying to middle man getting my folks more crap.

    He’s being so agitated about it. Ugh. I hate being involved in this stuff with him because of the way he acts. Bleh

    Watching some basketball. Creighton struggling with Tennessee. Will the Jays move on?
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    Happy Easter for tomorrow! I hope you have a nice family dinner.

    We portaled with the AK and FL grand kids today. So fun to see how they change. Halen wanted to call us and thank us for the Easter card. We wanted to wish Miles happy 3rd birthday for Monday.

    I walked around the circle in the driveway 3 times today, did two sets of squats and tried to bend my knee beyond what it does naturally. I'm so frustrated with the pain and swelling. It got progressively sore and was throbbing. I'm icing before bed but feel like I will never be normal or riding a bike again. Pity party!

  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    It will get better! Good vibes

    Can’t believe Miles is three already.

    Happy Easter
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    My niece pulled me aside today to let me know that she had been seeing some different doctors due to what had started with some odd vision changes. She had a brain MRI They found a mass on her pineal gland. They don’t think it’s fully benign since at least some of it appeared to be solid. She has an appointment with a neurosurgeon on Thursday at Nebraska Medicine. Please pray for her. She is possibly facing chemo, radiation and surgery. She hopes to get more definitive answers Thursday. But wow. This is a lot.

    And Michele still won’t talk to me. I’m sure she’s a wreck and please pray for her too. I tried to talk to her but she didn’t want to.

    I’m scared and heartbroken for them all.

    Please pray for her healing
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    I will pray for your niece and sister. Your niece is so young. I hope there is treatment and she will be ok. Your sister must be so worried.


    Were Z and C home for Easter?

    Russ and I had a quiet day. I walked the driveway, did my squats and high knee walk, then iced a couple of times afterwards. I'm so frustrated with the up and down days.

    Tomorrow I have PT in the morning and then am going to try volunteering at Power Book Bags in the afternoon. It's time to get back to my life. This pain and swelling could be my permanent state for awhile so I have to deal with it and move on.

    I hope all went well with your parents.
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    I will say prayers for your niece and sister. She is still in her 20's isn't she? Wow, how scary for all of you. Has she known for awhile and that is part of your sister's withdrawal? She must be so worried too.

    Has your sister said anything about her new job? I wonder since she put more than 100% into her past job if she is struggling with feelings of failure and doesn't know how to deal with it?

    We had a quiet day. I did my walking, squats, and high knee marching in the driveway. I iced a couple of times as the day progressed.

    Tomorrow is PT and I am going to try to volunteer in the afternoon at the literacy program. I feel like I need to get back to my life no matter how my knee recovery progresses, if it does.
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    Yeah - Caitlin (niece) is only 24 (25 in August). I'm guessing maybe it's part of Michele's withdrawal, but honestly I don't fully get that either. Or I guess you could say it just adds more daggers that she views me as not someone to be able to share her pain and fear with.

    Michele has basically said nothing to me. She did share a text message she had gotten from someone from Behlen about someone from work who had a brain aneurysm and was life flighted to Omaha in a coma. And she had made mention of a couple of other work things that I had no idea about, but she is obviously getting updates from Peggy (in our team) that she is still only sharing with Michele. I mean Dan (her husband/my brother-in-law) still works here too, but I know the stuff she mentioned didn't come from him. So, it's weird she is still more dialed in to other people than me. Yeah.

    I shouldn't even allow myself these thoughts of hurt, with what she must be going through, but yeah - it really stinks to have zero connection/able to lean on each other with someone I thought was my ride or die.

    I hope PT goes well and Power Books too.

    Hugs.
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    I hope your niece will be ok.
    Could you take your sister out for coffee or dinner and tell her you need to talk? Ask her if she is mad or just stressed that she has withdrawn from you? It seems you need to try because it is taking its toll on you and your stress not having her in your life like before. If she snubs you then the ball is in her court but you tried. Hopefully your effort will break the ice.

    PT was a downer. I've regressed in range of motion this week. I'm going to the Y today to work on the recumbent bike, leg press, and treadmill. Power Books was fine but I could only sit for 1.5 hours (getting up to stretch). At least it is a start and some normalcy.

    I will visit my friend in the skilled nursing facility today. She moved down the road from me last week but then there was a flu outbreak in there so I stayed away.

    Happy Tuesday!

  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    It feels selfish to even have these thoughts, but I love all of them and would want them walking that road with me if me or mine were in the that situation (and would have done it) but to know that there is something lacking in me to be able to be viewed as someone she can lean on - just like with the not telling me she was leaving - HURTS. Is it because she is the oldest? Did I do something to continue to make me seem too immature? I honestly don't think I can ask her again, because she has said 'no' several times already. I really think it's just her coping mechanisms to be unable to give voice to the things that are too awful to think about. But it's not going to make the journey any less painful to shove it all down.

    For now I pray. I pray for a miracle. Pray for mercy. Endurance. Hope. Healing.

    2 Corinthians 4 16-18
    16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    I'm sorry PT has hit a valley. Persevere! You can do this.

    Hope you have a good visit with your friend and maybe she has made some progress while you have been recuperating.
  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    I didn't realize you had extended invites to get together with your sister with no positive response from her. That must be painful to you. The ball is in her court at this point. All you can do is remain supportive from afar and be available if she reaches out. Could you send her a Thinking of You card and tell her you miss her? Tell her you are praying for Caitlin? Be the one to make gestures even if she doesn't.

    I went to the Y this morning. I did some bending of my knee on the recumbent bike but wasn't able to pedal all the way around. I walked briefly on the treadmill. The leg press machine was taken. The walk in from my car and back out is far so that was exercise. I will go again tomorrow. I did see my aqua fit teacher and chatted with her briefly. She had back surgery in December and looks great.

    I visited my friend Sarah at the nursing facility. She was getting speech therapy when I arrived so I was able to watch. Sarah looked rough, tired and I thought I saw some regression in her memory, ability to bring her cup to her mouth, and comprehension. I will see what I think after a few more visits. She may just be tired after PT and adjusting to a new bed, room and facility. It's a busy place and 3 times the size of where she was before.

    I'm stopping by the orthopedic clinic tomorrow morning to have the nurse pull the stitch out of my incision that is pushing its way out. They say I can do it myself, but no thanks!

    Hang in there and try to stay as positive as you can. If you are the one to initiate gestures (card, phone call, etc.), then you are doing all you can do and can feel good about that. Give it time...



  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    Maybe you will feel better getting some of those stitches out.

    Had hair today, my bangs look not quite right. That’s a bummer.

    Well, tomorrow is the day for Caitlin to meet with the neurosurgeon. Praying for a miracle.
  • jrbanta
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    Praying for Caitlin! I hope the news is positive.

    I have my hair cut appt next week. I just want to hack it all off to a short short cut but I know that will be more work so I need to calm down.

    PT today, took a long nap this afternoon and then walked in the driveway and did some stretches for my ham strings which are tight in my surgical leg.

    I will try to get to the Y tomorrow to get back on the bike and treadmill unless weather is nice and I can take a nice walk on our road.

  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    I haven’t heard anything from Caitlin. That is making me start to fear for not great things. Easy/positive news is easy to share. Not easy means trying to meet with people to talk about it. And of course the taking of time to digest it yourself before trying to talk about it because it will spread fast. Please keep praying.

    Did you have a good walk?

    The temps here are ok, but the wind is blowing like crazy

  • jrbanta
    jrbanta Posts: 4,367 Member
    I'm sure she will tell you when she is ready. She must know you will worry. I am definitely one of those that need to process and share only when I'm ready.

    I've been walking the driveway every day. Today I did a morning and afternoon walk to the end of our driveway
    ( 150+ feet long) and around the circle. I walked it once each time. The bottom of the driveway is down hill and probably a 30% incline coming back up. It's in the 40's and 50's here, no snow and will creep up to 60 in the next days if they are right.

    Russ and I went to our favorite burger place for an early dinner. That was my first restaurant since before surgery. Gradually entering the world again...

    I'm still sleeping in the recliner. I can't get comfortable laying in bed yet. Frustrated!

    I will visit my friend Sarah tomorrow and see how she is doing now that she has had over a week to settle into the new care facility.
  • mizpaden74
    mizpaden74 Posts: 3,826 Member
    Caleb came home to go fishing with Bernie. Hopefully the weather cooperates. Looks iffy tomorrow.

    Keep working on your rehab. One day it will just click