I totally feel that way, Better_Balance.

Yesterday, I read somewhere when someone said "when I'm 80, I'll eat ice cream...."

....and this morning, I think to myself, "I'm going to eat ice cream when I'm 80, too!"

And then I thought, "what about 70?" "60?" "50?" I mean, 50 for me is 4.5 years away!!

Am I REALLY going to keep denying, denying, denying????? At some point, I think, FOR SURE I'm gonna say, "what the hell, NOW I'm gonna eat!!"

And then I think, "so what the hell am I doing ALL OF THIS FOR, right NOW?!??!?!?!"

Aaaaaghghhhgggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

The roundy-roundy thoughts DRIVE ME NUTS!

For now, I KNOW that I want to look good, feel good, be good (on the 80/20 rule....not 100% perfection, but MOST of the time I'm trying to get in work-outs and eat fewer calories). But, WHEN do you FINALLY give up the ghost??

You babies are in your 20's and 30's....of COURSE you aren't gonna GIVE UP! But, MOST women around me, already HAVE.....and while I'm 100% sure I do NOT wanna "be them"....I'm wondering when I'm finally gonna say, "today, Beeps, and forevermore, you can eat what you want, when you want. Yep, you're still gonna be a gym rat, but EVERYTHING else - the scale, the tape measure, the camera - IS GOING BUH-BYE!!"

Very bad day Tuesday + 2 Cadbury eggs = way over on cals for the 2nd day in a row - CRAP! I will have to make up for it the rest of the week. I have way over-scheduled myself this week & it is causing major stress. I have a massage scheduled for next Thurs & it cannot come soon enough. Rant over, back to work. I hope the star challenge is going well for everyone.

ARGH, I never seem to find time to post and fall WAY behind. Seems like now I'm missing out on this star challenge thing. I am shooting for 1200 net a day and doing pretty well since I am doing IF. I may be a little over on some sedentary days but I'm usually under by a few hundred when I exercise. I fluctuate due to water weight but have lost at least a pound or 2.

Beeps - DAMN you look amazing in that dress! Doesn't look like you have a pound to lose! Great job getting back on track with the STAR thing

Abigail - lol on the cadbury eggs. I know it's cliche but I find exercise really does help with my stress

Better balance - I am totally torn sometimes on how lean I really need to be. Sometimes I feel like I'm dieting just to diet and people tell me I shouldn't lose anymore weight. But I was like 7lbs lighter a few months after I had my son so I guess I just want to get back to that just to be at my leanest. But I don't really have a good reason like a certain body part that bothers me - i don't know that I need a 6 pack. And now no one to look good for. So I dunno

sorry to just randomnly jump in. That's all I can see/remember

Sorry for those of you who are having bad weeks. :flowerforyou:

I've done....just okay this week. Yesterday was a pretty high day, but I ran 3 miles, so had some wiggle room. Had dinner out and plenty of wine so was a little over. But I enjoyed it and did not feel bad about it. I ordered semi sensible (rotiserrie duc, didn't eat the skin,with greens) and didn't eat but maybe half the duck. The scale stood still yesterday for the second week in a row, and I was actually a little pleased. Once I'm back from AZ, I need to have a couple seriously good weeks to a) lose some bloat from my mini vaca and b) get back on the weight loss train and get motivated. I do think I'm going to really try to lose fat during February, March, and April. I'm not going to cut out all things yummy (i.e. wine and chocolate), but I do want to try to stick to something like an 80/20. I pulled out my New Years resolutions yesterday (they've been in teh bottom of my purse....oops) and one of mine was to have 3 cheat meals a week. I'm not sure how I fit my wine into that. :drinker: Anyways, I think I can lose about 3 pound relatively quickly, well sort of..... but after that is where it gets hard. I think below that is my "under comfrot weight". So we'll see. I just want to be happy. Part of that involves eating good food and drinking wine and part of that involves feeling good about my body. I feel pretty good about it now, but would feel better with a little less fluff around my middle.

Have a great weekend ladies!

Better_Balance - there's no need for "perfection". ever. I like your plan and I'm sure you can dump 3 lbs of bloat in a week, no problemo!

BOOM!

Happy birthday Amy!

I *finally* broke through my fatloss PLATEAU!

Geezuz....that took NEARLY a MONTH!

Anyway, was 143.2, today....I'm officially in the LOW-140's and so, maybe <140 *is* possible.

For sure, I haven't weighed <139 since age 18............FOR SURE. And, with all the muscle I have, WHOOEEEEEE, do I look DIFFERENT!

Anyway, I think I should be around 138 lbs by summer and, then I can see if I *still* need to go lower (hope not!).

I am in the last 5 lbs club, I think....

BOOM!

Happy birthday Amy & that's great news about the clothes fitting looser!

Beeps - you look fantastic in that dress, very classy & congrats on the break in your plateau

I am very excited, I am signing up for a mudderella event with my sister & a group of friends. She found one in the Boston area so it's not too far. It's not until next fall, but I bet it will be a ton of fun. We are going to try getting together a couple of times a month for a run just to connect and keep each other motivated as we train. I think that this will be a good way to motivate me to get back into shape & shake things up a little.

Have a great weekend everyone!

3 fasts this week. I'm doing just fine for *star* challenge!

Please report in, challengers, for week 1 - Monday through Sunday.

I got a *platinum*!

** Star Challenge Report **

251 Calories over weekly goal. (Goal = 8400)