Start day of IF 3/23/19
Start Weight: 223.2 lb
Current Weight: 210.2
Today’s Date: 05/01/19
Today’s Plan: Clean fast... black coffee, water, black tea, green tea
Weight Goal May: 199
Height: 5’5”
Today’s Water Consumed: Plenty
Sleep: 3 1/2 to 4 hours (took a trozadone with 2 valerian root pills that contain melatonin)


My end of May goal is to lose 11 pounds, which would put me at 199. I’m so ready to leave the 200’s behind, and for good this time—it’s happened to others who’ve lost and regained a gazillion times over the years where they finally keep it off for good, so why the hell not me? 🙂

I said, “So long” to April last night and also indulged in a craving I’d been having for 3 days--which totally wrecked my plans for a mini fast day lol... I had to have a Little Caesar’s Hot N Ready pepperoni pizza. I hate nearly all of the pepperoni and cheese with a couple bits of the crust (normally how I eat those anyway because the rest is too dough-y for my liking, but I love the flavor of the sauce and toppings), as well as a 20oz Pepsi. This was at 8pm last night. I dreaded getting on the scale this morning, but I shouldn’t have. I weighed the same as yesterday and I’m still in ketosis. 😂

I give myself to permission to indulge without guilt, I just limit the indulgences so they aren’t close together. It’s not something I even do weekly. When you don’t feel guilty and know you can indulge again, you’re far less likely to throw in the towel and say, “Well, I messed up eating a ton of x, y, z so back to eating *kitten* again I go; I’ll start again on Monday!” On the contrary, at least for me, it’s more, “That was great! Time to carry on with my healthier lifestyle”

I’m still really struggling with my sleep. The trazodone has worked a couple of times, not consistently though. She told me to give it a week before upping to 2 pills at bedtime. I feel really depressed and sad about it. I feel good in my body, but lack of sleep is taking its toll on my energy and such. I really hope it starts working. I know I’d feel like a new woman if I had proper sleep. I'm ordering a weighted blanket tomorrow, I hope that helps!

mistymeadows2005 wrote: »

I love thatttttttttt - I'm the same way with Little Caesars! I have ZERO interest in the crust, but I'll eat a whole pizza's worth of toppings LMAOOOOO ESPECIALLY if I'm on low carb! NOM NOM NOM

LOLOL, I'm glad I am not alone! Yeah, it was pretty much all of the cheese and pepperoni of their standard size pizza, so not really as nearly as I made it seem. Not sure I got all the cheese near the crust line though. hahah I thought for sure the Pepsi would push me out of ketosis though, but it didn't, so... YAY!

mistymeadows2005 wrote: »

hope your sleep gets better That's just the worst! Great mentality on your indulgences, and I see May giving you your 11 pounds!!!!

Thanks all around, my friend :-)

@mistymeadows2005 lololol, same exact thing my way :-)

Back To It Stats-It began on 23 March, 2019
May Start Weight: 210.2
Current Weight: 207.1
End of May Goal: 199
Overall Goal Weight: 130 lb
Today’s Date: 05/02/2019
Today’s Plan: Clean fast... water, black coffee, green tea, black tea, herbal tea if desired
Height: 5’5”
Today’s Water Consumed: Plenty
Sleep: 6 hours using advil PM and valerian root based pill with melatonin and other stuff in it
Description/Photo of Meals:description below
Total cals – I don't count calories

Clean fasting FTW as I lost 3.1 pounds overnight! At least in my case. Seriously, I didn't even have that kind of result when I did a 70 hour fast last month where I allowed myself some bullet proof coffee and heavy whipping cream in regular cups, I maybe had 3 cups in total between all of them.

I'm off trazodone now since I couldn't take the swelling anymore, yesterday was the worst. I do not get swollen feet unless I've hurt myself, so for them to swell like they did led to me to believe there was only one culprit. I also felt really sad the past several days, and that's not my normal personality, even though I suffer from chronic insomnia. My doctor called in a prescription for another non-addictive sleep aid called doxepin, which I already am dreading since it's another anti-depressant/anti anxiety med and she prescribed the full dose; I read earlier for insomnia they usually only prescribe 3-6mg, not 10mg. I won't wait if any weird symptoms pop up.

I'm doing another clean fast today and I know any weight loss is mostly water weight, but when I eat again it will be predominantly be, if not solely, healthy foods.

Thank you all very much

@mistymeadows2005, thank you, thank you! I shall ride the wave as long as I can :-) I instantly fell in love with Killing Eve within the first five minutes, I love those gals--even though one is a broken M16 agent and the other an evil psychopath lol. And, yep, the barriers will go back in place hehe

@volgirl1322 thanks so much! Seeing onederland next week would be awesome, I won't be heartbroken if I'm not, but it would be sweet. :-) True that to no strangers in the mix! lol