Wishing you well in your plans, Kim...I still find myself wanting a steak but even chuck steak is a reach these days. I joke about putting a rib eye on lay away for my birthday. LOL...

Thanks Missy....you are right. It took a long time to reclaim a sense of self worth and love and that was done in my relationship with Christ. I didn't grow up with it and married a maniac and then hubby # 2 was a good man but neither of us had a normal, healthy base so didn't connect like we could have. I was so thankful that he got right with God before he passed away. They both died with cancer.

Two days in a row, I skipped dinner as I'd had a heavier lunch than normal....so yesterday, I had 3 meals. I was actually hungry so that was good. B: was a sausage/cheese sandwich on LC bread, L: Salad with some beans and ground pork/cheese with peppers/onion...and Egg beaters w/cheese and toasted bagel w/light margarine and 3 candy slices. I suppose I like cheese?

I got my fridge sorted again yesterday so it's tidy once again. Today, I need to get trash out, tend to my floors, dust and maybe sort laundry.....and deal with the dishwasher.

Be blessed in this new day...prayers for us all, missing Marilyn...continued prayers for all of the places devastated by the storms and flooding...it's heart breaking. Be good to yourselves today....Love you!

I am so very thankful....With God's help, I managed to get my trash out and to the dumpster...I had two weeks worth and one was a very heavy bag. I got the dishwasher unloaded/reloaded /running. Those are two of my bigger tasks that require a lot from me....I always feel so much better when they are done.
Today....I'll deal with the laundry prep and the floors....and do some decluttering. My imaginary maid needs to drop by and do some things...

I sent a note to my endo guy....I need a refill on my Tresiba and an appointment scheduled. I don't "want" one but it's been almost a year now...so I need a run by I suppose. This year is hitting the 4th quarter tomorrow. Our time slips away so quickly.

Hope you all are OK at your spots on the map....Prayers for us all for this new week and the time ahead...Love you all and am so glad you're here.

Today was day 1 of my daughter going back to work. I enjoyed watching my sweet granddaughter. I have to be at her house by 7. My daughter gets home around 5:30.
I'm tired lol I didn't get but around 3 hrs. sleep last night. I slept on the couch, because my hubby was screaming and yelling in the bedroom. He woke me up several times. He screamed like that the whole day. My nerves are about shot!!!
When he becomes confrontational...I just walk away!
hugs and prayers

Keeping you in prayer today Kim, as you go for your CT scan. May God go before you and hold you close and comfort you.

...and you, Missy ...in the midst of your trial and heartache.

My Vexus internet went out yesterday...this morning at 2 AM, I thought to try thru Optimum connection I still pay for but didn't have for so long, hence getting hooked up with Vexus....and praise God, it worked. I had to find the last box they left when changing my modem, that had the code on it. At least Vexus sends a text message to let folks know when there is a problem.

I have a bunch of meds and insulin to pick up this morning and an order from HEB... Wal-Mart will no longer deliver my ice...so will do an HEB pick up when I grab meds and have to be out.
I got my endo follow up scheduled for Nov. 27th so all three appointments are made....now to "keep" them! The team has been patient with me...

Love you all....

Oh good! Having your Aussie bite, taming the tummy and still having the 6 hour fast time....you did good! Praying you come away with some answers to this current issue soon!

I have to make myself notes for appointments etc. and am so glad the patient portal thing sends reminders! All my care team are great, about getting my scrips in, setting appointments etc. as needed....I am thankful for them. Doesn't make me want to go in, but I am thankful!

I had 5 prescriptions to pick up...can't deliver insulin so waited until they were all ready...then got my order at HEB...It's been a good while since I did a pick up order and my tummy was acting up this morning so I was in need of prayer! Thank you! I was so glad to get that done and things tucked away. I sit on my stool some to put my fridge items away as my back screams in pain very quickly. That thing helps a lot! I do have to move it around a lot since my space is so limited in my teeny kitchen but it's a blessing to have it.

I haven't been scheduled yet for the exterminator but am OK with that...They will take care of it....
We are having highs in the 90's all week with one day at 89 expected. I check weather for my appointments and don't schedule anything for the winter months at all! I just tuck away in my inner sanctum and praise God that I can!

I'm off to have some lunch....be blessed!

I've got my room reserved, will stay 2 nights...my list is ready for pack up/checking, and will take a food bag so not all meals will be fast food. They have a light breakfast at the Motel, a fridge and microwave in the room and hopefully a coffee pot to play with. My room is ground floor and has a walk in shower...hooya! I told the guy I'd like that with my mobility issues and ground floor was a necessity. I'll tidy up a bit in the morning before the bug man comes.

My heart and prayers are with you dear friend! Glad the CT scan is done...and hope for results soon and perhaps a plan of action, some relief...I wonder if your rounds with COVID have a part and now another round of pneumonia? God does know...and has all the details...and He has us all in His loving care!

Bug man told me I could come home a couple hours after they were done so I needed just the day and 1 night at the motel. Came home this morning at 5:15 to mass destruction!
However: It is what it is and while I expected some...just not this much, I will clean up as I can, as God gives me strength. A task at a time, a day at a time...and am praying for total eradication of the beasts that have tormented me for so long!
I will need help with some heavy things. They got my mattress and box springs in the really nice encasement bags...that thing weighs a ton so am not sure I can scooch it back in place once I clean behind it. Oh well....one thing at a time. I was glad my computer was still plugged up and ready to go.

I will survey the damages and make my plan of action....and be so very thankful the worst was not as bad as it could have been! God is SO awesome! First...I will make more coffee and give God thanks!

The motel: I had to pay $40 extra for checking in at 8:30 AM but that was fine. I needed a place to hang out for the day! The walk in shower was great. I'm just really sad to be in such pitiful shape that showers are so very difficult! I know you understand!
The beds were comfy, but too high for my short legs. BUT....what joy to not have a bug at all...except the cricket in the bathroom.
I was very thankful they had a little coffee pot/coffee for this morning, no CC on the TV so was glad to get home to mine. I had my Kindle, so read some, napped some, got up at 2 AM...my normal time. I had one meal out....Chicken Express: the fish filets/coleslaw and fries. Was so delicious. I did lust for Burger King all day but didn't have any, Thank God.

I'm off to have my coffee and put together my pan of action for today....and will get up and do it again tomorrow. Love you all...

I hear you! I too, like knowing what's going on with me...what contributes to an issue, what I might do to alleviate some troubles. My weight is a major issue right now...has been for awhile, but getting a gander at myself in all those mirrors at the Motel was a wake up call...and a call for repentance! I'm thinking 25 pounds of my gained weight is all smoked sausage! LOL....oh I do like it a lot!

Thanks, Doll! I am....doing wee bits at a time and asking God to give me the strength and will to "deal with it all"! I'll get help with the bed when needed...I do know things could have been a lot worse!
There's a huge bag of my bedding and stuffies from the sofa, chair cushion and the like in the living room that will need to be washed. I'll check with my laundry service to see if they will handle it...they've been doing my laundry still, just have me on the permanent bed bug list. I can let them know I'm being treated.
I'm working on the living room and bedroom first...the kitchen wasn't bad as they didn't have to throw things around in there! I'll need to make my bed before I can get a nap. I should rest better tonight, being home and all.

The bug guys lost my TV hearing aid! Oh no! It has to be somewhere in the living room, as it was on the TV tray I keep by my recliner, that had been moved quite a bit, so I feel sure it may be under the recliner. God knows where it is! I use the right one in my left ear, to save wear and tear on my left one which is the side I have about 30% hearing on...none on the right. I did order one from Amazon as a fill in, just for the TV time...praying it works as needed. Due to come in the 8th.

I'm going to get the bed made up so I can rest/read awhile since I got up at 2 AM and am ready for a nap. Be gentle with yourself today! Love and prayers...

PS: I just laid down and the boys flipped my mattress when they put the encasements on! Hooya! The hole I've slept in is now far from me and it feels like a new mattress! It is awful high tho!

I have been enjoying taking care of my sweet grandbaby.
On my days off I have been Fall Cleaning inside of my house.
Today, I actually pressure washed one side, the whole front, and 1/4 of the back. I still have to finish the siding, and then I plan on doing my driveway and sidewalk.
I have been dealing with a very painful boil. Please pray it will heal. I have had it for about a month!
My hubby has been having very loud outbursts. Getting in my face and screaming. Yesterday he got in my sons face and mama bear kicked in!!! I will not let that happen!
It is so hard. He knows exactly what he is doing! He will do it and then apologize and then 10 minutes later he is doing it again! Today, he has talked to his "voices" all day long! Please pray God will heal him.
love and hugs

I liked this, a lot!

I got laundry sorted for pick up and my big bag of trash started. The mattress cover and set of sheets from my bed are in it. I can't salvage the cover and the sheets are pretty horrid as well and I'd rather trash them than send them to the laundry service. I have 2 sets in reserve and that's enough.
I'll deal with the kitchen and put my living room back in order....and hope to vacuum and spot clean the bathroom. As always, I am so very thankful to be an apartment dweller! Hooya! I couldn't handle a house and yards....tho I do miss having a washer/dryer in my spot! I am thankful for my laundry service 4-5 times a year and that is a great gift to me!

Are there any places you could get some help, Missy? When others are beyond our influence, care, control, love....the focus has to change to our own care in my experience. What can Missy DO for Missy?

It took me years to collect all the pieces of myself I'd given away or discarded in my two "marriages"...I had one super abusive and one cold and withdrawn tho he wasn't abusive in the sense the maniac was, it was still abuse...where I felt he had one foot out the door at all times....I say I ran away my first one and the second one ran away from me.

These people are not interested in changing their views or behavior and there has to be an opening for God to get a grip and turn them...as He has turned us in our lives.
I pray for the conviction of the Holy Spirit, for release of bondage, for strength, wisdom, protection and provision in your life and theirs. God knows the depth of your sorrow and pain, Sister....Hide in Him and rest....God bless you in this trial by fire. Love you....

I am in so much pain from my "little labors"....My hips and back have been complaining loudly. I just took a couple of my Tylenol 3....and will rest awhile. I'm not feeling so spiffy today.

I see my cardiologist's NP tomorrow....will use my walker. I had to do a hunt in my walk in closet for the carrier bag for it....It has pockets for my wallet, phone and the like. It will give me more stability than the cane.

Take care...rest easy and be blessed best where needed most. Love and prayers for us all.

I'm planning on a nice uptown salad for dinner...I love the raspberry vinaigrette. I use Newman's Own. I'd like the chicken and cheese too....I'm supposed to keep protein lower due to my kidney function but we know I've not behaved well in that regard.

Well, these things linger longer than what we deem necessary. You've picked up pneumonia several times, covid a couple of times etc. You've been thru the grinder! I\m glad you're getting YOUR tests done! I need a proxy for mine!

I was in so much pain this morning that I cancelled my appointment....again. Ack....This is day 2 of recovery and I'm still not there yet.

I got a bit of bad news....Mary came by...the exterminator recommends I dispose of my recliner, desk chair and my bed. To comply seems wisest. She said they will haul things off for me and she will let them know I am agrreable....so I need to find replacements, have them delivered and uhm....pay for them.

She said my desk was infested as well, but I may not have to replace it. My bed is so comfy now, with the hole gone, the great encasements on....and the bugs are way fewer than they are on the two chairs. I'd be happy to keep the bed if the bugs were gone but I'll do as he says and deal with it....I have been resting so much better the past few days, in spite of the pain. Looking at some furniture sites online and the prices are nuts! Oh well....it could be worse, for sure!