Out of Control...and Terrified

I think this is waaaay out of the scope of the general boards here. I'm wondering if there's a compulsive overeating sub group here?

It sounds to me like you could use some professional help. Please don't take that wrong.

You are worth treating your body with love and kindness, and you can find other ways to sooth yourself besides using food, but it's going to take some real soul searching and professional help to do so.

Peace!

It sounds to me like compulsive binge eating. Chances are there is something going on inside of you that make you want to comfort yourself. I would visit a counselor, because from what you posted it's not just about food anymore.

I am sending you a friend request along with a message. I hope you respond sweetie!

I'm going to have to agree that whatever is driving your binges, it's not in your stomach. Finding someone who can help you identify what's going on, and work through it, is the best way to stop the cycle of self-sabotage.

IS it possible that your typical diet is too restrictive? you've been dieting for too long? you've lost too much weight in a short amount of time? all of these things can lead to binging.

You are very young. If I could talk to my younger self now (at age 44) I would tell her that she would save a lot of heartache and struggle over the years by doing something about bingeing NOW. I have lost weight multiple times over the years, have clothes from a 10 to 20W in my closet and always gain the weight back. I think I need the reinforcement of losing to motivate me. Maintaining is never as much fun and therefore does not last long before I begin bingeing and eat everything in site. I echo the person who mentioned that your eating may be too restrictive. This time I am losing so slowly that I need to deal with no reward while I am losing and see how I can be frustrated and stay on my healthy eating plan. I am getting off topic. 1) I was to give you a hug and 2) I want you to go to get some help. The counselor who specializes in disordered eating sounds like a plan. If you are worried about the expense - he/she may offer a sliding scale for those with less means. Please do not let cost be an obstacle- your health ifs worth so much more. I had a stroke at 42 and I will never know if a sudden weigh gain due to prednisone contributed to it or years of yo-yoing had an impact.. I have a tangible reminder every day how important health is. Best of luck!
PS- you are very brave to ask for help part of my issue was hiding the behavior (but not the result) so you are already ahead of the game for reaching out.

I'm freaking out here. Totally, sincerely freaking out. I have absolutely NO self control anymore, and it's killing me. I literally just ate an entire jar of Better'n Peanut Butter. Plus half of another jar. Plus all my other meals of the day. I'm going to end up looking like a whale again. And every time I tell myself this, it's like it just doesn't register anymore. No matter what I tell myself ("Your clothes don't fit anymore," "You look awful," "Your stomach feels like it's going to explode," etc.) I just. Can't. Stop. EATING. I'm so scared, guys, you have no idea... Can anyone help me?

I've checked your food diary. It's looks fine to me but there is something I've noticed. Maybe you are a little addicted to suger and that could be a reason why you're out of control on the sweetness.

I cant control myself with food so I'm very strict when it comes to food around the house. I've gotten rid of everything in the category junk-food. If I dont see it, I'm not tempted. As soon as it's in my sight I can manage for a couple of days untill I break down and eat the entire jar...Like you did.

So, 1) it could be a sugar addiction; try to cut down the sugar intake and replace it with protein rich foods that make you feel more full. 2) get rid of all the junkfood. It's going to stare at you untill you break down and eat it!! Or ask your SO to hide it (mine does that and I cant reach OR see the top shelf).

Good luck honey!!