Former (?) anorexics

I say (?) because I don't believe that I can ever be a "former" anorexic. I think it's creeping around in my subconscious no matter how healthy I feel I've become.

I'm looking for others who battle their demons and feel like they win some, lose some. I didn't own a scale for years, because I didn't trust myself to own one. I confessed all my bad behaviors to my husband on purpose, so he could help me curb them (counting my bites, weighing myself 18 times a day, not eating for days if I had one bad day) That's also why I started logging my meals and made my diary public. Because, if I am 200 calories over my limit, I don't want people to see that I eat nothing the next day to make up for it. I am striving for honesty with myself...by using internet strangers. Slightly strange, but healthy for me.

I'm new here and don't know if there are groups on here for this kind of support. If so, I'm happy to join if you'll point me in the right direction. Just FYI, I am currently at a very healthy weight and am just looking to lose 15 lbs (have lost 7 so far) and am just looking for some support to stay in a healthy range. I'm not looking for anyone to validate me slowly killing myself. In the past, I have gotten to my goal weight and then gotten overzealous. I'm fully recovered, over 35 (i.e. metabolism slowing down), and don't ever want to look like that again. I just want some support in maintaining a healthy weight without going silly.