When I think about being thinner and healthier again...

It makes me sad. Sad that I allowed myself to get this unhealthy. Sad that I lost 10 years of my life battling depression, battling the compulsive eating and the kidney disease from filling my body with so many toxins. Sad that my kids had to grow up with an unhealthy mom. Sad that my family had to see me at my worst. Sad that I'm too self concience to wear a bathing suit or shorts. But....
I'm happy to know that I've finally realized that I have it in me to be healthy and happy. Happy and hopeful that one day I will be confident and know where I was and how far I've come. I'm a work in progress...and I'm happy I'm finally doing the work...even if the progress is taking a little longer than I want. I'm healthier than I was this time last year...and I'm confident and hopeful I'll be even more healthier this time next year.
"Today I CHOOSE to live with gratitude for the love that fills my heart, the peace that rests within my spirit and the voice of hope that says...all things are possible"...live, laugh, love...