Fourth times the charm (I hope!)
xXsweetMiseryXx
Posts: 22 Member
I've battled with weight loss my whole life. 23 years of being overweight takes it's toll. Until recently, I just thought I was fat and that was that. I tried to get in a routine last April, and I did! For about a month.. Then I fell of the wagon. Those 20 lbs I lost? Yeah, they came back with friends.
In September, I started again. I did well for a little while, and then I had to get surgery on my foot and could barely walk for 7 weeks. My husband did a lot of cooking, and I did a lot of sitting. Needless to say, those two things in combination were NOT good. Right back to square one I went.
In January, I had a health scare. They thought I had uterine cancer, and I underwent a couple of tests to be sure. Turned out that I didn't (Thank goodness!!), but they did find that I have PCOS and insulin resistance. Hellooooo diabetes at 40..... I was informed that PCOS can make weight loss difficult and could be one of the reasons that I have always gained lots of weight on the first few months of any kind of birth control. They said if I could work really hard and get my weight under control, the PCOS would be less severe and the insulin resistance would go away.
On to attempt number 3. In March, I started trying again. Supreme 90 with my dad, husband, brothers, and their friends twice a week and cardio on Sundays. I was modifying my eating a little, but not as much as I should have been. I only lost about 5 lbs in 3 months, but my body fat % decreased, and I could lift over half of my body weight (298). Then my brother and his girlfriend moved in together, the friends went to the military,got jobs, etc... and the group dispersed. My husband and I tried going ourselves for a few weeks, but it drug on and we eventually stopped.
Last week, I hit the highest weight I've ever been. I saw 300.2 on that scale and decided it was time to put my big girl panties on. I have 3 little boys, 5 and under, who depend on me... and I want to be able to be the best mom I can be. I NEVER want to see 300 on the scale EVER again. I'm tired of avoiding the camera. I'm tired of being embarassed of the way I look. I'm tired of always being tired.
So, here's to the fourth time! Here's to hoping I can finally do this! Here's to new friends, a long journey, and a new life!
Feel free to add me... I kinda lost all my friends amidst dropping off the face of the Earth 3 times..
In September, I started again. I did well for a little while, and then I had to get surgery on my foot and could barely walk for 7 weeks. My husband did a lot of cooking, and I did a lot of sitting. Needless to say, those two things in combination were NOT good. Right back to square one I went.
In January, I had a health scare. They thought I had uterine cancer, and I underwent a couple of tests to be sure. Turned out that I didn't (Thank goodness!!), but they did find that I have PCOS and insulin resistance. Hellooooo diabetes at 40..... I was informed that PCOS can make weight loss difficult and could be one of the reasons that I have always gained lots of weight on the first few months of any kind of birth control. They said if I could work really hard and get my weight under control, the PCOS would be less severe and the insulin resistance would go away.
On to attempt number 3. In March, I started trying again. Supreme 90 with my dad, husband, brothers, and their friends twice a week and cardio on Sundays. I was modifying my eating a little, but not as much as I should have been. I only lost about 5 lbs in 3 months, but my body fat % decreased, and I could lift over half of my body weight (298). Then my brother and his girlfriend moved in together, the friends went to the military,got jobs, etc... and the group dispersed. My husband and I tried going ourselves for a few weeks, but it drug on and we eventually stopped.
Last week, I hit the highest weight I've ever been. I saw 300.2 on that scale and decided it was time to put my big girl panties on. I have 3 little boys, 5 and under, who depend on me... and I want to be able to be the best mom I can be. I NEVER want to see 300 on the scale EVER again. I'm tired of avoiding the camera. I'm tired of being embarassed of the way I look. I'm tired of always being tired.
So, here's to the fourth time! Here's to hoping I can finally do this! Here's to new friends, a long journey, and a new life!
Feel free to add me... I kinda lost all my friends amidst dropping off the face of the Earth 3 times..
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You didn't lose all your friends, I'm still hanging around. I know how you feel. I don't feel as if I've fallen completely off the wagon but when the weight loss slowed down and stopped and I wasn't eating over calorie I began to throw little tissy tantrums then I started eating things I just can't eat because I want more more more. Then I started gaining and me still eating under calorie (but not making great food choices). LIFE!!!
I too have PCOS. I don't know how it affects me but I know I crave sweets like nobody's business. I think about them often and I do not want FOOD to be running through my random thoughts. I'm tired of it. I have completely eliminated pasta and I try to eliminate sweets but I just don't have the strength. I know people with PCOS that have been successful with their weight loss so it can sure be done even if it is a little harder. You can do this and it sounds like you're ready. Good luck
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The sweets are my weakness!! The more I try NOT to think about them the more I do. Then it becomes an obsession, and I can't think of anything else. I told my husband that it had to be equatible to the nicotine cravings he got when he quit smoking. Then, when I do get some.. I eat way more than I intended to. Almost like my body is going "gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme"... I thought that was just me. Lol0
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Find sweet things that you CAN have! Gum (there are even desert flavors), SF Baskin Robins hard candy (mint chocolate chip is best), Greek yogurt with SF boysenberry preserves, any berry with a bit of cream and splenda, cherries, baked apple slices with cinnamon and splenda, iced coffee with a bit of milk and splenda or SF syrup like caramel, chocolate protein brownies made with protein powder, light frappuccino in a bottle (100 cals not sure how much sugar, its mostly splenda), canned pumpkin with a bit of cream cheese, splenda, and cinnamon tastes just like pumpkin pie and adds to your veggie intake, juice powders like crystal light or Hawaiian Punch are sweet and zero calorie, make a shake with milk and frozen berries........... The options are endless. Satisfy the sweet tooth before you go and binge on something that you REALLY shouldn't have.0
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Feel free to send me a request sweetie...YOU CAN do this!!!0
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