Needing a bit of help

Jazjazjaz
Jazjazjaz Posts: 20
edited September 20 in Health and Weight Loss
hey :)
basically i've suffered an ED for a year
and decided about a month ago that i wanted to get back on track and eat healthily
since, eating "healthily", i've put a stone on and don't fit in my size 4/6 anymore
i now feel so sick at my weight but don't want to trigger my ED/ana again
what would you suggest? xx

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  • Jazjazjaz
    Jazjazjaz Posts: 20
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  • PJilly
    PJilly Posts: 22,144 Member
    I don't feel qualified to give you advice about an ED, but I didn't want your plea to go unanswered. Do you have a doctor or nutritionist you could go to for help? My main concern is for your health and well-being more than your clothes size, so I hope you get the help you're asking for! Please try to remember always to be kind to your body. :heart:
  • lawkat
    lawkat Posts: 538 Member
    Have you sought counseling for your ED?

    Are you trying to lose any weight while eating healthy? Have you been working out? Do you keep track of your calories or just eat healthy?

    You metabolism could be damaged due to your ED. If you haven't recently, I would suggest going to your doctor for blood work to see if there is another reason for your weight gain.
  • pettmybunny
    pettmybunny Posts: 1,986 Member
    I don't know any of your stats... I think your best bet would be to go see a doctor and speak frankly with them. Let them know your past history with ED and what your concerns are. Ask him/her to help you assess what a healthy weight goal/size would be for you. I know my doctor told me that I was underweight when I was wearing size 5 jeans. (lol, now I'd be happy to be in a size 10).

    I know I wasn't much help, but I really think you should seek professional help, whether it's your doctor or a nutritionist (and not trying to offend here) perhaps a psychologist to help you with your eating/image issues.
  • madmama
    madmama Posts: 123 Member
    I am in agreement with everyone else here, please take time to go an see your doctor and have a frank discussion with him and ask for a referral to a nutritionist.

    You say that since starting to eat healthy you have gained weight and I notice that you want to lose, maybe it is your body telling you that you don't have any more to lose and may need more than you have, it is hard to know without knowing where you are right now. I know I can be a 6 as I currently fit an 8, but I would be too skinny at that size.

    Remember our body will tell us what we need if we listen close. Don't give up the healthy eating and good luck.:happy:
  • Jennplus2
    Jennplus2 Posts: 984 Member
    I don't know what ED means, but I do know that when I was first starting to work out I gained. But I did lose inches. Maybe you should get out a measure tape and write down your stats, then again in 4 weeks and see if you are more toned. The number on the scale is just a number. The size on your clothes is just a number. But a toned healthy body is the end goal (at least for me that is). I am doing this to stay healthy and be fit. Some people are fit and healthy at size 10, some are at size 4. But I do agree that you need advise from a Dr who knows what your health goals are. On here it is mostly guess work because we can't see your Health history chart. Good luck to you.:flowerforyou:
  • pettmybunny
    pettmybunny Posts: 1,986 Member
    ED stands for eating disorder.
  • Jazjazjaz
    Jazjazjaz Posts: 20
    thank you for the replies
    i havent got any help from a counsellor of physcologist. partly, because i'm ashamed. and i don't really like speaking out about, hence i turn to online friends/pro ana sites
    lawcat, in reply to you, when trying to eat healthy, i kind of wanted to stay the same size. and the thing is, maybe my body is telling me to put on more weight, but, i sort of don't want to because i'm now gradually getting to the size/weight that triggered this.
  • Jazjazjaz
    Jazjazjaz Posts: 20
    Have you sought counseling for your ED?

    Are you trying to lose any weight while eating healthy? Have you been working out? Do you keep track of your calories or just eat healthy?

    You metabolism could be damaged due to your ED. If you haven't recently, I would suggest going to your doctor for blood work to see if there is another reason for your weight gain.

    I've been doing the same amount of exercise. I also have OCD, meaning that I can not deal with change, and therefore I feel I need to stick to the same routine of 1 hours horse riding, 1 hours walking, and 1 hours dance.
    I do count calories yes, when I was at the worst of my ED, i was eating between 0 - 400 calories a day, whereas, I'm now eating between 500-1500, mainly consisting of 3 meals a day, including 5 portions of fruit and veg.
    I have been suggested eating 5 meals a day, to increase my metabolism, however, I'm worried that this will be a mixture of "grazing" or "binging", which could trigger my bullimic tendancies.
    I used to drink hot water a lot to increase my metabolism, shall I try this again?
  • lawkat
    lawkat Posts: 538 Member
    The first step toward recovery is admitting you have a problem. The next is getting some professional help. You should not be ashamed of talking to someone about it. Confronting your fear is hard because you may have to admit something about yourself that you don't want to face.

    Why does reaching a certain size trigger your ana? You don't have to say if you don't want to, but you might have to dig deep to figure out what about a certain number brings about this fear.

    I would strongly recommend you see someone in case you start backsliding into old unhealthy ways.
  • Jazjazjaz
    Jazjazjaz Posts: 20
    OK thank you. I will look into getting some help (:

    Umm basically because my ED started when I fell out with a best friend, who then called me a fat ***** or something.
    That always stuck in my mind, and whenever I gain weight, I worry I will get to the size I was when she called me that.
  • lawkat
    lawkat Posts: 538 Member
    I know it must be a struggle.

    It is hard to let go of what people say to us. I still struggle with the voices from my past. All we can do is take it one day at a time and try our best to believe in ourselves and give ourselves positive reinforcement. Just think how much power you have allowed her over your life. She doesn't deserve that kind of control since she is no longer your friend. I don't know why she said what she did but it was wrong of her and she wasn't a very kind person.

    I wish you the best of luck.
  • Jazjazjaz
    Jazjazjaz Posts: 20
    Thank you :) Really does mean a lot. x
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