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Hi my name is Tracie I am 27 years old soon to be 28 in November I am 5'8" weighing in at 242. I have pretty much always struggled with my weight but now after getting married and having a baby I am at my heaviest. I am the most uncomfortable and unhappy I have ever been. In my younger days I was super athletic bigger but always fit. Now I struggle to even do 30 min of cardio. The thing that sucks the most is that I like to work out I just can't seem to get the energy and time to do it like I need to. It seems like everyone around me is loosing weight like crazy and it seems to be so easy for them but I can't seem to loose a pound and keep it off. This time I am trying to be more reasonable about my goal and going to work on being more patient. I would like to loose at least 25-30lbs before my birthday Nov14. That gives me 14 weeks to get it done.

One of my biggest struggles is not having enough time with my family and feeling like I am a bad mom and wife for having to be away so much I work full time and once i get off work i come home make dinner for my family clean up the mess get my daughter ready for bed try to spend a little bit of family time with her and the hubby and then try to have the energy and motivation to get to the GYM. When all I really want to do is sit down and play a game with my 2year old or read a book to her or even just lay on the bed and rough house as a family.

I am despirate to be successful this time as I fear if I don't get serious about this I could end up like a number of my family members and deathly over weight diabetic w/high blood pressure and on multi meds and forced to have a surgery to lose the weight to get off the meds. Anyone that has some advice or motivational words for me please don't hesitate to send them my way. Oh and not to mention my husband has been talking about wanting to have another baby in the next year or so and I don't want to be this big get pregnant and add to the massive amount of weight i already need to loose. I told him no baby until i loose the baby weight from our first. Not thinking he is to happy about that. Good thing is he isn't wanting to start trying until this time next year so i have time to get it off and not to mention if i get health now and make a life style change maybe when i do get pregnant the next time it wont be so hard on me and then maybe i will be able to keep my weight down