LIVER ISSUES! Please Help!

Hello there! My name is Apryl and I am writing because I am in a desperate need for some help. So here goes a lil story, I promised to try and not to bore you!


I have been experiencing some stomach problems off and on since I was 18 (I am currently 25). I have acid reflux definitely. I also had/have bad anxiety and stress up until about a month ago. I have a 3 year old daughter. I had gotten gallbladder surgery due to having her. I had the surgery done in Nov of 2010. About a year after my surgery I started to experience more stomach related issues. I got married almost a year ago and lost 30 lbs (due to MFP) before my wedding of last year. But after my wedding that is when things started to get worse. I was working in a job for 2 1/2 years and had started to be treated horribly which made my anxiety much worse. I soon began to throw up frequently. Up to 2-3 times a week from my stomach being in pain (I would get emotionally upset, gas would stir up in my abdomen, I would feel nauseous, then I would well ya know...) This went on for about a month or two until I started to see doctors about my problems. I thought I was doing the right thing, by losing weight and keeping it off. Although, I know I can do much better from where I was at a few months back.

I went and saw 3 doctors. I landed in the E.R. about 3 different times due to my issues. I was give a ton of test. Lots of blood work and many different things. Well turns out from my gallbladder surgery that I have some scar tissue blocking my bile duct. Which makes things a lil bit harder to digest. Also I have Non-alcoholic fatty liver. I was told by the doc. that this was something I should address. But not anything serious. She pretty said it was stress from my job. So a month later I put in my 2 weeks. This is all the info I found out after I was in the E.R. and they admitted me. So I went back to my G.I. specialist and had a scope done of my upper G.I. tract. All they found was some inflammation from my acid reflux. They didn't test me for any liver problems..

Unfortunately, nothing much was done and I am currently still throwing up. I was given some acid reflux medication and was told to lose more weight.

I have been making baby steps towards this. I don't know. I just can't find the motivation to lose the weight like before my wedding. I have managed to keep the weight off but haven't really lost anything significant since Nov. of 2011. I am struggling. I weigh around 250 lbs. I know I need to get it off! For a while I was working really hard doing MFP back in March and I was working out like crazy. But my bday was in April and it fell off from there. All the doctor visits have been this summer.

To be honest, I am TERRIFIED! Idk how get myself back there. Of course I don't want liver disease and I want to do better for myself, my kid and my husband. But I just can't seem to get together. I am no longer eating meat, I only drink almond milk, eating fruits and veggie..etc.. I have made significant changes with my food. But I just can't get THERE. I want to eat it all... The taste of food is something that I crave. I love spicy, can't have it. I love JUNK but I don't eat and cant have it. And if I do.. well for example today. I had someone give me some girl scout cookies and I ate half of them on the bus with my kid on the way home from work and had some dinner and threw up AGAIN! I know this isn't good for me and I am finding myself falling into a depression tonight...

I eat well, I eat well, I eat well... then I eat bad and it all goes to ****! I just cant seem to log in my food like I use to and I cant exercise like I use to. I dont know what else to do. I am killing myself with food and I can't get a handle on it! If there is anyone out there with some kind words or words of encouragement please I need it. I am so tired of this... I know I need portion control and need to let go of all this fat on my body..

I did once I can do it again but I just cant! I started a new great job and then stress of my old job is behind me. But there is some resentment in that factor that I just can't seem to let go... and the stress of having a home to constantly take care of... its a lot.

I am getting abdominal pains where my liver is and this happens when I eat something I am not supposed to (i.e. the cookies and something spicy for dinner). I know I do it to myself but I just seem to shake the feeling of NEEDING food.. I have an addictive personality and I am truly addicted to food.... I am feeling very vulnerable with sharing all this so please be some what kind and honest...

Thanks for reading..