eating disorder recovery

since the age of 9 years old I battled an eating disorder where I would not only undereat but also eat in secret. I had kept it hidden for a long time. I decided that I needed to get help for it so I enrolled myself in an eating disorder rehab program. so far I am 3 days in and its going pretty well. i am learning that I need to eat more but wiser choices and smaller portions. since eating properly I am losing this unwanted weight but gaining confidence. i have my diary open to public at first I kept it secret because I was ashamed about what I ate and was afraid of being judged but I found in doing so it did not help me. keeping eating secret at least for me makes it worse. I log everything I eat the good, the bad and the ugly. I know I run the risk of sharing my story a lot of people do not understand eating disorders think its easy you just need to eat more or eat less but its not as simple as it sounds. theres a much deeper issues than that. for me it was an escape mechanism not having to show my feelings on what was happening to me and the hard life I have lead its only now facing those things head on and dealing with the issues deep inside me that I am becoming a success. perhaps in sharing my story I can encourage those here who are struggling with eating disorders like me that there is someone like you who understands. for anyone struggling with eating disorders feel free to friend me:) sometimes you need to know someone out there understands what you are going through.