Wanted: Someone/thing to help me find my lost motivation!

This winter, I finally decided that it was time to make a lifestyle change. I started going to bootcamp twice a week and working out on days I didn't have bootcamp. I immediately noticed that I had more energy but I knew something was missing. So I decided to join a weight loss program that didn't focus on counting the calories (which I hadn't had success with before) but instead focused on getting in a lot of protein and really limiting the sugar intake. For the first time in my life, I started loosing weight and it was fairly easy. I didn't feel like I was going out of my way to eat healthy and I enjoyed going to bootcamp. After just two months I had dropped nearly 35 pounds and I couldn't be happier with how things were going.

I found that my biggest problem when I wasn't watching what I ate was that I ate just to eat. I ate when I was happy, ate when I was sad, and ate when it was a Tuesday. I wasn't hungry, but I ate. This time around I vowed to listen to my body and only eat when it told me it was hungry. Somedays, I ate 1400 calories because I was starving, and other days, I might only eat 800. It sounds bad retrospectively, but I wasn't hungry. I wasn't going to let my mind beat me in my war on the bulge!

Anyhow, I had almost reached 50 lbs lost (something I NEVER thought would happen) and I went on a family vacation. I didn't go crazy in terms of eating, but I did allow myself to have some desserts and glasses of wine here and there. When I came back from vacation, I hadn't gained a pound and I was so proud of myself.

Then the real challenge began. I found that I was craving things (and still am) that I didn't even eat during my fat days. It became harder and harder for me to get myself motivated to work out on the days I didn't have bootcamp and because of that, I didn't push myself as hard during bootcamp. I recently had to give up bootcamp due to lack of funds, but I'm really finding it hard to make myself go to the gym and if I do make it there, I'm not there nearly long enough. Or I find I'm exhausted by the thought of going on any longer. What's up?

And why am I hungry all the time? It's not like I don't eat! I've been trying to fill myself up with proteins in the morning, but they don't seem to be helping. I don't understand how I was sometimes forcing myself to eat the 1200 and now 1200 doesn't seem to be nearly enough food.

I have no idea where my motivation has gone, and I want it back! I can begin to see myself fall into some old habits and it's just a bad downwards spiral that I don't want to deal with again.

How did you regain your motivation?

Any and all help would be appreciated!