dieting vent

I'm not really looking for any advice, just need to vent a little. I'm new to MFP and I'm 7 weeks post partum - just had my second baby boy in July. At 10 months pregnant I was about 195lbs (I'm 5'3'' and small boned) and now I am at 167lbs just from having the baby, getting rid of all that fluid and from breastfeeding. I'm not exclusively breastfeeding; I'll give my baby a few ounces of formula maybe 2 or 3x a day, just depends on how much milk I have. My milk production seems to be lagging, I don't know if that's because I'm not getting all the nutrients I need throughout the day or what but it's the reason I'm using some formula here and there. Anyway, I just started doing Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred 4 days ago and I've been using MFP to track what I'm eating/how many calories I'm consuming and burning off through the Shred. So here's where I'm gonna start venting...I LOVE food. I honestly think I am a food addict. I can easily eat 5 full size candy bars and still want more even if my stomach is telling me I'm full. I'll have seconds and third helpings at meals and snack all day. When I met my husband, I was 135lbs (only a little bit overweight but still very happy with my body!) and after 3 years of marriage and 2 kids later, my body has changed drastically and I eat to deal with absolutely every problem in my life (bills, marriage troubles, bills, home sickness, bills, kids, bills...). My stomach is a hot mess from having 2 kids in 2 years, stretch marks like zebra stripes and a gut thats threatening to start sagging pretty soon. Since I started using MFP, I've LOVED keeping track of the calories however I'm not into what I'm eating to try to keep it at my allotted calories or under, and I struggle with deciding if I should be taking in a few hundred extra calories or not because of the breastfeeding. If I take in more calories, will it take me longer to lose a pound? If I stick to my allotted 1550 cals a day, will my milk production slow down even more? And, I hate this, NO diet programs such as Nutrisystem or eDiets allow breastfeeding women to do their programs. My biggest annoyance with dieting is prepping my own food and cooking delicious, fattening dinners for my husband and our 18 month old. (okay okay they're not fattening, they're good dinners but if you eat 3 helpings like me then they're fattening!). I loathe seeing my pathetic 1/2 cup of fruit next to my husband's bag of TGI Fridays chips. I just think that if I could go on one of those programs, I wouldn't hate dieting so much cause they give you so many options and some of them are fresh so they're not packed with so much sodium and other bad crap. The other problem is, I can't seem to find ANY recipes for low fat/low cal meals to make just for myself that I actually like and would eat. I also can't afford to spend more than X amount of money on myself each month because money is reaaaaallllly tight and we still need stuff like diapers, wipes, toiletries and food for my 3 guys of course. And did I mention that I had 2 c-sections so I can't even do all the exercises that I'd like to be doing? I feel so LIMITED in everything!!! Okay. I'm done venting. Like I said, I'm not looking for advice or someone to throw me a pity party. Just needing to get some stuff off my chest cause I don't have any real friends close by to talk to about this. Plus the majority of my friends are thin and don't have any children so they just wouldn't understand where I'm coming from. Alright, thanks for reading. Tootaloo.