Recovering From an Eating Disorder Need Support

Cae_Troi
Cae_Troi Posts: 66 Member
edited December 2024 in Introduce Yourself
Hi!
My name is Cae
I'm 18
I live in Western MA
I'm a lesbian and a Christian.
I'm a part-time stable hand and ride horses.
My goal is to become an eventer.
When I grow up I want to own my own barn to work with young adults (ages 12 - 21) that battle with self-harm, suicidal tendecies, depression, eating disorders, ect. with the help of horses.
I'm currently in recovery for Anorexia and Bulimia on top of self-harm.
I'm trying to do this the healthy way, but am finding it hard to do so, so some support would be great.
I'm a part-time librarian.
Somewhere in between work, I'm also a full-time student.
I need to use my college gym more often and need to make more time to workout as the barn is just not enough.
I was to lose about 84 pounds within the next 6 months - year.
Once I reach 125lbs I'm going to reward myself with a belly button pericing.
I'm currenly 183lbs and 5' 8"

I'd love to have some friends and people to support me on this site :)

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  • KristaJeanMFP
    KristaJeanMFP Posts: 70 Member
    Hi Cae! Welcome. Im new to the site too. My goal is to lose 40 pounds. Feel free to add me if youre looking for support! :)

    best of luck- krista m
  • kit8806
    kit8806 Posts: 222 Member
    Welcome Cae! Feel free to add me for support!! Having supportive people will really help you! My goal is to lose 80lbs! :)
  • cbrrabbit25
    cbrrabbit25 Posts: 384 Member
    welcome! working out is the first step since exercise will reduce your depression and give you a feeling of self-worth. set a goal and work for it and when you get there, the feeling is amazing!
  • KristaJeanMFP
    KristaJeanMFP Posts: 70 Member
    Best feeling in the world!
  • ErinBeth7
    ErinBeth7 Posts: 1,625 Member
    Hi Cae (cute name!!!), I'll be adding you :-)
  • laurenellenmarie
    laurenellenmarie Posts: 331 Member
    I've been recovering from Bulimia throughout the past year. I suffered for about ten years. The biggest thing I can tell you is you may gain a bit at first because your body isn't used to food. I wouldn't rush the weight loss either. If you're like me, you'll just trade one obsession for another. I messed up and continued to binge, just not purge. And then I wouldn't eat for days to make up for it and then be so hungry I'd do it all over again and again and again. I've been there. I can help you along the way!
  • wolfwalker67
    wolfwalker67 Posts: 24
    Welcome! I'm new here too so feel free to add me (I'd add you if I could figure out how, lol). In a small way, I know how you feel. When I was a young teen I had body image issues, weight problems, and was bullied. Fortunatly I am unable to make myself throw up or I would have been bulemic as well. As I've gotten older I have realized the only persons opinion that matters in mine. If I am happy with me then it does'nt matter what the rest of the world thinks. My parents have always been very supportive of me and anything I have wanted to do, so that has been helpful. Hold your head high and know that you are worth 100 times more than any of your detractors.
  • lilawolf
    lilawolf Posts: 1,690 Member
    I would highly suggest choosing friends who eat at least 1200 net cals. If you don't, you may see them lose a lot of weight the unhealthy way which may trigger negative thoughts or actions in yourself.

    I eat about 1500 cals a day and I am on every day. I will mention something if I think your cals are too low, and will give advice about your diary. I will also cheer you on every step of the way. If that is what you want, please feel free to add me. Good luck!

    Oh. I am bisexual (though married to a wonderful man now), athiest, love horses, and had a scary time with self harm in my past.
  • runs_in_heels
    runs_in_heels Posts: 97 Member
    there is nothing harder than trying to lose weight in a healthy way when you are used to the unhealthy way...

    welcome.
  • NewAngel35
    NewAngel35 Posts: 182 Member
    Hi there.
    wow am glad I found these posts. I suffered from an eating disorder from about 14. I was a girl who started puberty very young..periods at 9...while my friends were all late at 13/14.I had a size 10 body with a 34dd chest at 11.I quickly learnt that I would b curvy...and have muscels too. I hated it all i wanted was to be skinny like all my friends. who also ate whatever they wanted.Long story short by 2 I exercised like crazy and hardly ate if I did lots of laxatives and purging.....I maintained at about 7.5st/8st for years.
    Now I am 36 and if am honest I also used substances to control my weight. I have tried so many times to b a so called normal eater or dieter.eating perfectly etc and I dont loose if anything i gain...or I just stay the same. It is so hard to try and eat normally to loose weight when I know it doesnt work like that for me....wil always have to restrict to loose????....I am the heaviest i have been since a teenager...just 138 and am starting to obsess...I really dont want to go back to that way. but I have been exercising for 6weeks and hardly any loss..I just havent gained. My body fights me it wants to be big boobed(which makes you look fat) athletic legs(hate the sayin) I just want to be 8st12 and not have to be obsessed with everything i eat and do.....Is my metabolism ever going to adjust and how long would it take...I cant bear the idea of gaining more weight....vicous cycle it seems
  • bosoxz5
    bosoxz5 Posts: 4 Member
    Hey, i'm from Western Mass too!
  • lilmisfit
    lilmisfit Posts: 860 Member
    Welcome Cae! You've come to the right place! MFP is very supportive as long as you are willing to go about this the healthy way, and it sounds like you are! Good for you!
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