My HUGE NSV!!!! Warning it's long!

I have been tracking calories for the past 2 weeks diligently, tracking EVERYTHING yup even those little nibbles and things I don't think can do any harm, and guess what …I worked my *kitten* of the first week and when I stepped on the scale it said this..NO loss ZERO nadda...but you know what here's what I've learned; this lesson in its self is truly a game changer for me. I realized that in the past I would have pouted and been upset that I had done sooo much, tracked every single calorie that went past these lips, pushed more water down my throat than I did in boot camp, walked further in one shot than ever before unless Uncle Sam and my Drill Sergeant commanded me too;) I purposely parked the farthest out from the entrance and still NOTHING not even an ounce. I will admit I stepped on the scale 2 additional times just to make sure and still nothing! I came down stairs to tell Mr. Gorgeous the news and Guess what I was perfectly happy with it. This feeling has never happened to me before, I would have beat myself up questioned why I had this instead of that and had the ultimate conversation with myself and go into all the reasons I should have WLS, but this time, this time was different. I felt empowered, empowered that I was not looking to the scale for judgment or in a cry of shame or to validate all my weeks work just because of the read out it was going to give me. Yes we do step on the scale for validation/encouragement that what we are doing is working, but I mean it in the sense that I didn’t need it to validate all the work I had done this past week. I knew then that I really was ready for my journey. I have learned a multitude of things about myself on the journey to getting myself in this “fat situation” and I’m starting to learn many more things about myself on my journey as I start to pick my way out as well. Things that I may have never learned of myself getting here and getting the hell outta here too. I’ve had a rough week as far as stress levels and a horrible migraine, not getting the rest my body needs and wearing multiple hats. I’ve made some bad choices with what I ate but I REFUSE to beat myself up for it!!!! This is a time to heal to learn and to focus and refocus when need be. I’ve always wondered about people when they talk about things just clicked for them and when they say they tried a billion times just like me and then it all clicked for them…you’re not ready until your ready and it has to be all of you that is ready now just the wishing and hoping part, but the part in you that says hey lady get your **** together and make it happen! Although I have not had any scale losses as of yet and I might not have one this Monday either due to bad choices, I’m good with that mainly due to this HUGE NSV, that I’m actually grateful for (kind of weird to say that but it’s true) I know that my losses are coming and when they do I’ll rejoice but I’m really grateful for the NSV this week to enlighten myself that it takes time and if you keep at it, it’s bound to work in your favor. I’m not in a hurry, sure my ego would love to be but my spirit is in a good place and that to me is soooo much more than where my ego needs to be.