Apologizing ...

mdollian
mdollian Posts: 70 Member
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This will be my 3rd attempt and I want it to be my last attempt I was doing great under the name of 'MALZIE' I weighed in a at only 211 lbs 2011 ... I got down to170 July 2011 anddddd found myself lost in love to now my fiance :)

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this was my transformation I did this in 5mths Jan 2011 - July 2011
this was my success while sticking to my my goals and had my MFP support
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As of September 2012

My 2nd attempt was through here POOPAS30 but my current weight was 230 lbs I had a dramatic increase from eating out and not logging in :( .... Once I had lost my car my depression took hold of me and I felt no reason to come on here, my weight wasn't going to find me a job or pay my bills so I went through 2012 finding myself from going from a 8/9 forever 21 to a who the hell told you forever 21 made clothes your size 19/20 lol I don't have much clothes since my transformation in 2011 at 170 I donated my big clothes :/ now I'm forced into things that don't fit and shirts that don't match my personality at all. I want to pursue fashion and blogging for a career. My image has been through a SHOCK of WTH Mallorie what made say you were cute today? Now as of today September 22, 2012 I'm at my highest weight 250 and I've never seen this image before until I saw pictures of my dramatic weight gain and boy I regret letting the devil take over my confidence. Now I'm here VOWING TO MFP that I will not let this ever happen again and hope you all give me chance to prove myself that I CAN DO IT and I KNOW I CAN. Thank you for your time. - Mal
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  • TBirdReets
    TBirdReets Posts: 25
    Don't apologize....everyday is a new day. You'll do great.
  • deniseblossoms
    deniseblossoms Posts: 373 Member
    Awww Hugs, I so feel that pain. It was a couple of years ago that I had been at a HIGH of 265 and pushing out of a 22. I worked my butt off literally and by June of 2010 I was in a size 10 with lots of cute clothes. Then I met my fiance and broke all of my good habits one by one. It took me just over a year to hit that number again and that was my wake up call. Not being unable to keep wearing my cute clothes/: Wearing the things that I thought would disguise the size of my arms and my stomach.

    Since last Christmas I've lost 65 lbs and am almost back in the size 10. This time I'm not letting me get in my way;)

    YOU CAN do it. Just take it a day at a time. I even take it a minute at a time, you can do anything for a minute.

    Denise
  • BeyFit805
    BeyFit805 Posts: 15 Member
    You've done it before so you can do it again!!! It's a journey. Stay positive :wink:
  • jeme3
    jeme3 Posts: 355 Member
    Welcome back.

    No need to apologize.
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    Don't apologize....everyday is a new day. You'll do great.

    Thank you :) I just feel shameful coming back here this size
  • mrs_joshica
    mrs_joshica Posts: 275 Member
    WB, you can do this!
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    Awww Hugs, I so feel that pain. It was a couple of years ago that I had been at a HIGH of 265 and pushing out of a 22. I worked my butt off literally and by June of 2010 I was in a size 10 with lots of cute clothes. Then I met my fiance and broke all of my good habits one by one. It took me just over a year to hit that number again and that was my wake up call. Not being unable to keep wearing my cute clothes/: Wearing the things that I thought would disguise the size of my arms and my stomach.

    Since last Christmas I've lost 65 lbs and am almost back in the size 10. This time I'm not letting me get in my way;)

    YOU CAN do it. Just take it a day at a time. I even take it a minute at a time, you can do anything for a minute.

    Denise

    Thank you for your comment, I thought I was the only one that had let this happen. I felt like people saw me a year ago and now I tried to hide and don't leave home, unless its work or going to the store. I haven't seen anyone since I gained my weight back .. thank you for your time :)
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    You've done it before so you can do it again!!! It's a journey. Stay positive :wink:

    Thank you, for your words of encouragement, I know .. its the work I'll have to put in all over again !!
  • heidimaggott78
    heidimaggott78 Posts: 203
    Welcome back.

    You can do this!
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    Welcome back.

    No need to apologize.

    Thank you, trying to get back into the swing of things :)
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    WB, you can do this!

    Thank you so much :)
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    Welcome back.

    You can do this!

    Thank you !!
  • slowturtle1
    slowturtle1 Posts: 284 Member
    I know how disappointing that can be. Learn from your past. It sounds like you have figured out how you lost your way. Take your new found knowledge and use it to make changes which will help you create and maintain a new future. Every second of every day is another chance to make a healthier choice, and you've made one already by stating your intentions to the community. Good luck to you! :flowerforyou:
  • ConnorLynne65
    ConnorLynne65 Posts: 91 Member
    Guilt and shame are feelings that cause me to binge eat so my advice to you would be to let go of all that negative self talk and be proud of yourself for coming back and being willing to take on the challenges of weigh loss again. I am proud of you for getting back on here and I know you will be at a healthy and happy weight as long as you are willing and don't lose focus. We are all here for you ! best of luck!
  • crush86
    crush86 Posts: 113 Member
    Welcome back! You have nothing to apologize for. This is a lifelong journey and we all fall out of routine every now and then. You can do this! You are an inspiration to those that feel like they are the only ones that this happened to. Feel free to add for support!
  • kittybear86
    kittybear86 Posts: 341 Member
    I know how it feels.I was in the 170's 2 years ago,and I am back being over 200 pounds again :(
    I joined MFP for the first time 2 months ago and I love it :) You do not need to apologize.We all are off,but we just have to get back on.Feel free to add me if you want.
  • TBirdReets
    TBirdReets Posts: 25
    We are at the same place......I'm confident we can both do it.
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    I know how disappointing that can be. Learn from your past. It sounds like you have figured out how you lost your way. Take your new found knowledge and use it to make changes which will help you create and maintain a new future. Every second of every day is another chance to make a healthier choice, and you've made one already by stating your intentions to the community. Good luck to you! :flowerforyou:

    Thank you :flowerforyou:
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    Guilt and shame are feelings that cause me to binge eat so my advice to you would be to let go of all that negative self talk and be proud of yourself for coming back and being willing to take on the challenges of weigh loss again. I am proud of you for getting back on here and I know you will be at a healthy and happy weight as long as you are willing and don't lose focus. We are all here for you ! best of luck!

    Thank you for your words :) I really have it bad to beat myself up and I've learned that is not the best way to go !! Thank you once again !!
  • MikeDaMotivator
    MikeDaMotivator Posts: 1,144
    This will be my 3rd attempt and I want it to be my last attempt I was doing great under the name of 'MALZIE' I weighed in a at only 211 lbs 2011 ... I got down to170 July 2011 anddddd found myself lost in love to now my fiance :)

    100_9744fav.jpg
    IMG_0540.jpg
    this was my transformation I did this in 5mths Jan 2011 - July 2011
    this was my success while sticking to my my goals and had my MFP support
    to

    Last_zpsb05005c0.jpg
    As of September 2012

    My 2nd attempt was through here POOPAS30 but my current weight was 230 lbs I had a dramatic increase from eating out and not logging in :( .... Once I had lost my car my depression took hold of me and I felt no reason to come on here, my weight wasn't going to find me a job or pay my bills so I went through 2012 finding myself from going from a 8/9 forever 21 to a who the hell told you forever 21 made clothes your size 19/20 lol I don't have much clothes since my transformation in 2011 at 170 I donated my big clothes :/ now I'm forced into things that don't fit and shirts that don't match my personality at all. I want to pursue fashion and blogging for a career. My image has been through a SHOCK of WTH Mallorie what made say you were cute today? Now as of today September 22, 2012 I'm at my highest weight 250 and I've never seen this image before until I saw pictures of my dramatic weight gain and boy I regret letting the devil take over my confidence. Now I'm here VOWING TO MFP that I will not let this ever happen again and hope you all give me chance to prove myself that I CAN DO IT and I KNOW I CAN. Thank you for your time. - Mal

    Welcome back. You can do it only this time better! Dont apologize. Strategize. Make a plan and execute. Best of luck.
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    Welcome back! You have nothing to apologize for. This is a lifelong journey and we all fall out of routine every now and then. You can do this! You are an inspiration to those that feel like they are the only ones that this happened to. Feel free to add for support!

    Thank you for your encouraging statement,
  • crystalbluewolf13
    crystalbluewolf13 Posts: 197 Member
    no need to apologize hun. try and set yourself some small goals at first and you'll do fine i'm sure =)
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member

    Welcome back. You can do it only this time better! Dont apologize. Strategize. Make a plan and execute. Best of luck.

    Thank you, I'll be sure to do that !!
  • DBiddle69
    DBiddle69 Posts: 682 Member
    When you remember that it is a lifestyle changes there are no need for chances....they are adjustments or modification

    :happy: :drinker:
  • lorettaasmith
    lorettaasmith Posts: 418 Member
    No use crying over spilled milk...or milk that was made into cheese and ice cream, and consumed in large quantities! You can't change the past. Be proud of yourself that you've turned around and are heading in the right direction today! March on...you can do this!
  • Sixalicious
    Sixalicious Posts: 283 Member
    It takes real courage to create a post like this. You are definitely on the right track. Hang in there. You can do it!!!!! There is no need to apologize or look anywhere other than forward. :flowerforyou:
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    Thank you for all of your support you ladies/guys !!

    I'm here to attempt and MASTER once and for ALL !!

    I may have lost a few MFP friends but I've gained New MFP friends who I will treat like family, thank you for all of the support, I would stay on here 24/7 if I could but that wouldn't be right to the body !! - Thank you once again for all the encouraging words and wisdom !!

    - Mallorie :smile:
  • weighlossforbaby
    weighlossforbaby Posts: 847 Member
    Don't give up and keep pushing on!!!!! We are here for you and you don't need to apologize. We all fall off the path we are on and just get back on and keep walking ahead!!!!!!! :smile:
  • mdollian
    mdollian Posts: 70 Member
    Thank you for your encouragement !!
  • QuestToLose
    QuestToLose Posts: 124 Member
    Wish you all the best! you can do this. You have nothing to apologize for. You've noticed where you went wrong so now you can do better.

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