Bad day. (Rant)

So a lot of my pets are sick right now. My mom thinks my cat might be dying, my mouse is. And I'm just so sad. Heartbroken, really. Especially about the cat. He's so sweet, and so young, and I feel like the worst person in the world for not having spent more time with him. We've already lost a cat this year, there's a lot else going on with my family, I'm struggling with anorexia-- guys, this is just awful. I can't take it right now. I just said the pets part to my closest guy friend and he legit said something like "well, life is all about death." I got really, really uncharacteristically depressedly angry at him, which I would never, ever, ever do to anyone... but... I just couldn't believe he said that. I'm having a horrible day and he couldn't say something nice? But now I've probably changed the way he thinks of me forever. I don't know what to do. I mean, I'll stop sobbing, of course. And then I'll maybe talk to him. But otherwise? Aside from him? I just feel so broken. My whole family is falling apart. I've never felt so sad and suicidal in my life. I can't do this. I can't. I can't do this anymore. And I know that there are worse things in life. I just feel so sad right now. Please don't give me comparative stories. I have such horrible anxiety and my heart just breaks every time I hear them and I feel so sad. So, so sad right now.